My Crush

A NYC undercover cop,

twenty-something, long hair,

“like 21 Jump Street,”

he says with a smirk

laughs at my breaking the law

underage by a year.

Mr. Undercover is street smart

starts most conversations

“Not for nothin’ . . .”

One day at his apartment,

he shows off his “buddies,”

Smith and Wesson,

asks if I want to hold his pistol

like I’m supposed to be impressed

so I pretend to be,

although it’s mild compared to the rifle

I learned to shoot in safety ed class back home.

That gun knocked me two steps backward

with its violent kick against my shoulder,

like it had a mind of its own.

My Undercover Boyfriend

loves the Ramones

the licorice zing of Sambuca shots

and soon, reportedly, me.

He tells wild stories

about being on the job

vibrates with constant intensity

and makes me feel like I’m the romantic interest

on a cop show.