I do not throw up
even though I want to
start fresh tomorrow.
Don’t counterattack.
Surrender my
Binge
Starve Purge
Guilt Guilt
Purge Starve
Binge
spinning cycle of futility.
Call for a cease and desist.
Take responsibility.
Sit with it tearfully
as my mind shrieks
What the fuck is wrong with you?
Stupid, disgusting, fat, worthless pigbitch.
You deserve to die
I deserve to live.
I hiss at the thoughts.
“Stop harassing me!”
Earnestly sing Jesus songs out of tune
at the top of my lungs
and with all of my desperate heart.
This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine. [[what the fuck?]] This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine. [[fat, worthless pigbitch]] This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine. [[you useless whore]] Let it shine, let it shine, let it shine. [[fat, worthless pigbitch]] Ha! You said that one already.
I am not going down again
without a fucking fight.