The Evening Meal

Yeah, my mom was pretty low. Depressed.

She was reading a book

called A Woman’s Guide to Mental Health.

Whoever wrote this book doesn’t understand

the first thing about women, she said.

Who wrote it?

A man, she said.

A doctor.

He doesn’t know

diddly.

Well, I knew I had to do something to try to get my mom out of her mood.

Lasagna, I said.

I’m going to make some

Lasagna.

She looked up at me

and smiled,

well,

tried to

smile.

How’s school, Jeremy?

I got out the lasagna pan and

spaghetti sauce

and pasta.

I think I’m learning a little French, I said.

And psychology (although that wasn’t really a school subject).

What does psychology say about depression?

I’m not sure

but maybe it happens when you feel

overwhelmed with everything.

Well, that’s me.

Did you learn

how to fix it

so a person

can feel better?

I shrugged and continued to make lasagna.

They say drugs and alcohol don’t work.

A little halfhearted laugh from Mom.

My son,

the genius, she said.

What else?

They say you have to stay busy, get involved

and cheer up.

Do you know if we have any mozzarella cheese?

You sound just like

your father.

Always changing the

subject to food

when he wants

to end a discussion.

Mom, can I try to call him tonight?

You want

to call your father?

How?

His cell phone.

He probably doesn’t

have any minutes.

He probably doesn’t

have any money

for minutes.

I knew what she meant about the minutes.

My dad could never pay regular monthly

bills for anything.

But maybe he does have some minutes, I said.

And she smiled a real smile for once.

Yeah, who knows.

Maybe he has

some minutes.