HERE

Greg doesn’t take long to find

his way back to my question.

On the one hand, he says, you have

a good home now. Mrs. Adams loves you.

You eat good food you don’t have to cook.

You have a friend.

Greg kicks a rock

that’s out of place on our path.

He doesn’t look at me, just stares

at the black driveway we’re crossing

and keeps talking. On the other hand,

she’s your mama.

I don’t know what to do, I say,

and my eyes turn blurry.

Greg stops and puts his hand

on my shoulder. You don’t want to

disappoint either of them, he says.

It’s not a question. He says it like

he knows and understands.

Then he tells me about the time

after his daddy died, when his mama

started dropping things and tripping

and spending whole days in bed on account of

her legs being so numb. His uncle wanted

to take him for a while, until they could

figure things out, and he had to make

a decision like mine.

I want to ask him how he made his choice,

except before I can, he drops

the rose in his hand and races up

the stairs of the porch. The only words

he says are, She’s not here.