SINGING

Aunt Bee is out tending flowers,

even though it’s dark.

She stays out until it’s time

to tell us good night.

I like to watch her

on the nights she sings.

She hasn’t been singing since

Mama sent us our letters, though.

I miss her singing. I want

to hear her voice again, and I think this

might be why I open the door and

walk down the porch steps and

stand by her side tonight.

The flowers look pretty, I say,

just to let her know I’m here.

She turns her face to me and smiles,

but her eyes stay tight and dark,

like they don’t remember

how to smile the way the rest

of her face does. She moves her hand

under one of the white flowers

we thought for sure wouldn’t make it.

She bends to smell it.

I didn’t think I’d ever see this one

bloom again, she says. Your gran’s got

magic in her hands.

Her voice is sad and happy

at the same time. I touch

the velvety petals of the bloom

closest to me, and she sits back

on her heels.

Your daddy gave it to me,

and I let it die, she says.

Her eyes are like brown

pieces of glass, but she blinks

the shine away. And then,

so soft I can hardly hear,

she says, And here it is again.

Resurrected.

I let her have her quiet for a minute,

but there’s something I need to say,

something that’s been burning up

inside of me since reading Mama’s letter.

I don’t really know how to say it, so

I count a minute and then I blurt out,

I don’t want to go back,

before I lose my nerve.

Aunt Bee doesn’t say anything at all.

She just folds me in her arms

and lets me stay.

After a long breath,

she starts singing.