The last thing I drew in my sketchbook
was my daddy’s messed-up car.
My fingers take over,
and before I know it,
I’ve drawn a room
I’ve never seen before.
What is it? Charlie says.
I jump. She sits down
on the side of my bed.
Nothing, I say.
I try to shove the sketchbook
under my pillow.
The page tears
from its spiral.
Did she see the whole room,
that white man on the floor,
the other men standing by him
and the blood puddle,
black on wood?
I’ve drawn my daddy
and the man he killed?
Did she read the question
I wrote on the table:
Why would a man
beat another man
to death?
I’m really sorry, Paulie,
Charlie whispers so soft
I almost don’t hear it.
My nose burns.
Charlie might be
my only friend in the world.