CHOICE

Charlie climbs up the boards

at the foot of my bed

and into hers.

She didn’t close our door.

Mama’s voice in the kitchen

joins Aunt Bee’s.

They are talking quiet,

but we can still hear.

A new school

might do them good,

Aunt Bee says.

Let them come to mine.

They could start over

and no one would know.

Aunt Bee is a principal

at a big elementary school

in the city.

We celebrated real good

when she got the job,

being as women aren’t usually

picked for things like principals.

I bet she’s a real good one, too.

A little scary, but not too much.

A little nice, but not too much.

Things are just as bad

over there, aren’t they?

Mama says.

I lift my head to hear better.

Maybe worse, Aunt Bee says.

I expect we’ll have

some protestors.

Maybe violence.

Some white students

leaving the district.

Hundreds, you mean, Mama says.

It’s happening all over now.

They’re calling it

the new white flight.

I guess they think

schools with blacks

aren’t good enough

for their precious kids.

It’s real sad.

I have no idea

what they’re talking about.

I know all that, Aunt Bee says.

But it doesn’t matter.

There’s a long silence

before she says,

It would give Paulie and Charlie

a new start.

No one would know

their white daddy killed a white man

to protect a black man.

The air is sucked

right out of my lungs.

I can’t breathe.

I don’t know if I’ll

ever breathe again.

Paulie would never

agree, Mama says.

Paulie doesn’t have

another choice, Aunt Bee says.

Her voice is louder this time.

She sighs.

I could pick them up and

drop them off every day.

You wouldn’t have to

worry about it.

They’re quiet

for a few minutes,

and then Mama says,

I’ll talk to them.