Aren’s cell chirped as he sat, crashed out, in front of the television. Glancing at Caller ID, he saw that it was his sister, Josie.
“You up for a movie?” she asked.
“Thanks but no thanks. I’m exhausted.”
“Just from cleaning your apartment?” she teased.
“No, Lucie phoned and asked if I’d give her a hand.”
“Doing what?”
“If I told you, I doubt you’d believe me.”
“Try me,” Josie said, and sounded amused.
“We served two hundred fifty meals at the Salvation Army homeless shelter.”
“You?” She did nothing to disguise her surprise.
“Yes, me, and don’t sound so shocked.”
“You’ve never done anything like that before.”
His sister was right, Aren hadn’t. He’d thought about it, but wasn’t sure how to go about volunteering. All he’d ever done was stick a few dollars in the red bucket at Christmastime. That was as far as his generosity stretched. He made routine donations to a number of worthy causes, but he’d never gotten personally involved. His need to give back had been satisfied by that comfortable barrier of a check stuffed in an envelope and tossed into the mailbox.
“Apparently Lucie and her family volunteer at the shelter every year.”
“Really?” Even Josie sounded impressed. “How’d it go?”
Aren propped his feet on the ottoman. Leaning back, he closed his eyes as a rush of good feelings washed over him. “The truth is, if Lucie had told me why she needed my help I would probably have found an excuse to beg off. I feel bad and all about people living on the streets, but that’s about as far as my thought process goes.”
“Yeah, me too. It’s sort of overwhelming, isn’t it?”
“Yes, with such a huge problem what can one person do?”
“Right,” she agreed.
“Well, I found out. I can do a lot. I can dish up two hundred fifty servings of beef gravy and green beans. I can smile and wish everyone in line a Merry Christmas. And when I finish serving I can go around and ask if they need anything more to drink.”
“You did all that?”
“I did, plus I helped load up the dishwasher and get everything set up for the next meal, and while I’m tired, I’m feeling good, too.”
“Wow, and you say Lucie does this every year?”
“It’s tradition for her family. Apparently they volunteer several days in December. Lucie and her mother did the cooking, and if that wasn’t enough, Lucie had to hurry in order to get to the restaurant.”
“She’s working an entire shift after spending all afternoon at the shelter?”
“So it seems.”
His sister hesitated. “She’s special, isn’t she?”
Aren didn’t need to think twice. After his failed marriage, he’d been gun-shy when it came to relationships. It was bad enough that Katie had taken up with an old lover, but what really hurt beyond the deception was how he’d found out. Aren had walked in on Katie in bed with her lover … in the house and bed Aren shared with his wife. The scene that followed was one that would stick in his mind for the rest of his life. He’d filed for divorce and Katie actually seemed grateful to end the marriage.
The worst of it was the psychological ramifications. He felt like someone who’d taken a bad spill down a flight of stairs and forever after clung to the railing, no matter how few steps there were.
“I know you like Lucie,” Josie continued.
He couldn’t deny it. “I’ve finally met the woman I’ve been hoping to find. Lucie gives me hope that I can fall in love again. She makes me believe I can trust another woman.”
Josie expelled her breath in a deep sigh. “Katie really did a number on you, didn’t she?”
“You could say that.”
“But, Aren, Lucie doesn’t know the full truth about you.”
That was the one stumbling block in his way. He hoped he’d be able to clear the air on Sunday either right before dinner or after. “She will soon enough, and if she’s half the woman I think she is, then she’ll be willing to look beyond that review.”
“I don’t know what went wrong that first night at the restaurant,” Josie added.
“I don’t either.” Still, Aren would stick by his review of the dish he was served. As far as he was concerned it was completely inedible.
“I’ve been to the restaurant several times now,” Josie continued, “and the food is always incredible. I just don’t know what happened that night.”
“I don’t know either, and I agree with you. Lucie is exceptionally gifted in the kitchen.”
“She didn’t read Eaton Well’s column in today’s paper, did she?”
“No, thank heaven.”
“What happened? I thought your review was scheduled for next Saturday.”
“I did, too. Apparently Sandy Markus decided to put it in this week following the article I wrote about what happened at Angels at Christmas. It makes sense seeing that I casually mention that we went to that restaurant following the play.”
“She might have warned you.”
“She might have told me?” Aren snickered. “Sandy has a paper to publish and what happens to me when one of my pieces is printed means nothing to her. In her mind I should be grateful for my job. And I am grateful. This has been a wonderful opportunity for me.”
Josie hesitated for a moment and then asked, “You sure I can’t talk you into a movie?”
“Not tonight, sis.”
“Okay, well, I guess I’ll head to the theater on my own, then.”
Josie did sound a bit down. These days she rarely mentioned Jack, but Aren knew the breakup remained fresh in his sister’s mind although it’d happened over a year ago. “What about asking one of your friends?”
“It’s December; they’re all busy with shopping and family. Such is the life of a single woman.”
“You ever hear from Jack?” Aren ventured. His question was followed by a short, uncomfortable silence.
“Never,” she said without elaborating.
His sister quickly changed the subject. She wasn’t interested in dating again, it seemed. Seeing how sensitive Josie was about Jack, Aren regretted bringing up the other man.
They ended the conversation and, sometime later, Aren heated up a bowl of canned soup and made himself a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. He couldn’t help thinking about Lucie and how tired she must be. He decided to call her in the morning and offer to take her out to dinner instead of having her cook. She needed a break. He hoped they would have some privacy to discuss the article and his role at the newspaper.
It was after eleven and Aren was watching TV when his doorbell chimed. His first thought was that it might be Lucie, but after checking the peephole he saw it wasn’t.
Opening the door, he found Josie standing there, pale and obviously upset. “Hey, what’s up?”
She ignored the question. “Can I come in for a minute?”
“Of course.” He ushered his sister inside and closed the door after her.
Josie collapsed onto his sofa and then sat on the very edge of the cushion. Reaching for a wadded-up tissue, she focused her attention on shredding it into small pieces.
“That must have been one heck of a movie,” he said, aiming for a comical slant.
“I … I didn’t go.”
Instead of answering, she scrambled through her purse for a fresh tissue and then dabbed at the corner of each eye before blowing her nose. She sat up straighter and then squared her shoulders. “Guess who I ran into?” she asked, in a flippant tone.
“I’m guessing it wasn’t Santa and his elves.”
Her eyes narrowed as she glared at him. “No. I ran into Jack. Thankfully, I don’t think he saw me.”
“Jack who?”
“You’re not being funny, Aren. This isn’t a time for jokes. Can’t you see I’m upset?”
“All right, all right, sorry. So you saw Jack.”
“He wasn’t alone,” she added. By now her spine was as stiff as a mop handle. Pride, it appeared, was great for proper posture.
“Jack was with another woman?” Oh, that must have hurt.
Josie nodded and, relaxing her shoulders, reached for a fresh tissue. “Jack and this other woman were laughing and teasing each other, having the time of their lives. And here I was by myself, standing in line for a movie ticket.”
“Oh, Josie, I’m so sorry.” Aren wished now that he had gone with her, if for no other reason than moral support.
“I feel like such a loser.”
Aren sat down next to her and gave her arm a gentle squeeze. “You know that’s not true.”
“Maybe so, but that’s the way I felt. Here I am lonely and miserable and Jack—”
“And Jack has gotten on with his life.” Aren finished for her.
Josie made a weak effort to laugh. “Big time.”
“Was she pretty?”
His sister slammed him with a look that would have melted kryptonite. “What do you think?”
“Drop-dead gorgeous,” he muttered. Aren knew the feeling. Katie’s lover was a bodybuilder with muscles—speaking of kryptonite—Superman would have envied. The strongest muscles in Aren’s body were in his fingers from all the typing and texting. Compared to the man Katie dumped him for, Aren felt like the ninety-eight-pound weakling.
“I’m sorry, sis.” He did commiserate with her. “Can I get you anything?”
Josie raised her head. “What have you got?”
Unfortunately Aren had never been much of a drinker, so he didn’t keep alcohol in the apartment. “Beer, I think. If I had chocolate I’d offer that.”
“I don’t know, Aren. The way I feel right now there aren’t enough chocolate chip cookies in the world to get me through this.”
“So you still love him?” Actually the answer was fairly obvious, at least to him.
From the way she hesitated Aren could see that she held strong feelings for Jack, although she was reluctant to admit it. “I think I must. I thought I’d be able to put him out of my mind, but I was wrong.”
“Have you thought about contacting him?” That seemed an obvious solution to Aren.
Josie stared down at her hands and the crumbled tissues there. “Actually, I almost did tonight … right before I called you. That would have been a real hoot, wouldn’t it? Jack would have gotten a kick out of that, now that he’s dating Miss Universe.”
“Stop. You’re no slouch, Josie. You’re smart and attractive and well educated and—”
“Sure,” she scoffed, “you’d say that, seeing that we swam out of the same gene pool.”
Aren laughed. “I mean it. The way I see it, you’ve got two choices: you could either attempt to patch things up with Jack, or you could get on with your own life. The choice is yours.”
“Well, I’m not going to chase after Jack, that’s for sure.”
“Then you don’t love him. You simply don’t want him to find anyone else. You want him to pine after you the rest of his life.”
Her gaze shot to his and for a second she looked stricken by his comment. “That’s not the least bit true. I do care.”
“No, you don’t, especially if you’re willing to walk away.”
“He’s found someone else,” Josie argued.
“You don’t know that for sure,” he countered just as swiftly. “And if he did, so what? You care, too.”
“So what? Clearly you don’t understand the situation. I saw Jack with her and I can tell you right now, he wasn’t thinking about me the way I have been thinking about him.”
Aren figured they could argue about this all night and it wouldn’t do any good.
“All I’m saying, sis, is that if you have such strong feelings then let him know. If you don’t, then let it go. Do what you can to learn from the experience and walk away.”
Josie stood and hung her head as she seemed to consider his advice. After a moment or two, she whispered, “I’ve got too much pride to reach out to Jack … eventually I’ll meet someone else, too.”
Aren understood the pride issue all too well. “Yes, you will,” he said in as reassuring a tone as he could manage, and he hoped that was true.
“Did you hear that?” Will asked Goodness. The two had left Mercy and Shirley with Lucie and her mother. Their friends kept a diligent watch on Lucie to keep her and the Eaton Well column separated from each other. Will and Goodness had gone to check on Aren.
“We’ve got to help poor Josie,” Will said, feeling dreadful over her failed romance.
“We can’t. It’s strictly forbidden.”
“But she’s in love and miserable and hurting. Isn’t that part of our mission, to comfort those in pain?”
“We’re Prayer Ambassadors, Will. Someone has to pray for her first.”
“Can’t she pray?”
“Of course, but apparently she hasn’t.”
“Why not?”
Goodness shrugged. “It’s funny. Some humans are prayer warriors and then there are others who only pray when they’re desperate or badly in need of divine intervention. Then they urgently cry out to God for help.”
“Do we answer those frantic prayers?” Will asked.
“We do what we can on short notice.”
Will watched as Josie buttoned up her coat and headed into the cold night. The festive feel of the holidays was all around her, but Aren’s sister didn’t appear to notice. She kept her head lowered and her shoulders hunched forward against the cold and wind.
At the corner, she stopped at a red light, reached inside her purse, and took out her cellphone. For a long time all she did was stare at it; then she glanced at her watch, sighed, and tossed it back into her purse.
“Do you think she was going to call Jack?” Will asked.
“Don’t know. We should get back and check on Aren.”
Will glanced over his shoulder. “Can I follow Josie to make sure she gets home okay?”
Goodness bit into her lower lip. “All right, but don’t let Mercy or Shirley know that I said you could.”
“Okay.”
“And Will?”
“Yes?”
Goodness tapped her foot impatiently. “You’ve really got to get a tougher skin when it comes to dealing with humans. God granted them free will. If we become involved in his or her lives it can get messy.”
“But God loves them.”
“He does very much. It pains Him to watch them make wrong choices, but He’s determined to let each one make his or her own decisions.”
“Including Josie.”
“Including Josie,” Goodness echoed.
“And Aren and Lucie.”
“Exactly.” All Goodness could do was hope everything turned out well for the newsman and the chef.