17
After my randy and youthful lover of twenty-two, I found I craved having a gentleman of greater sophistication. Charming though it was to play tutor to an enthusiastic student, I felt I needed a man of greater . . . cynicism. Youthful joy can grow wearing.
I chose the Earl of Easton, a grizzled man of thirty. What a wild and vigorous lover he was—though he enjoyed one position only. He wanted me to lean over an object like a chair, my dining table, my vanity table, a fence near the stables on his country estate—and he took me from behind with the ferocity of a stallion. And with remarkable endurance. The position was the only one that provided him with satisfaction. Alas, it gave me none.
Was there only one man in the world for me—X. Q.?
Surely not. I would find another gentleman.
After all, there were far more peers in the sea known as London Society.
—From an unfinished manuscript entitled A Courtesan Confesses by Anonymous
“Spread your legs, angel.”
Lying on her bed, Sophie did as Cary commanded. She spread her legs wide. His hand was wrapped around one of the large phallus-shaped gewgaws. He had brought out the vial of oil, had warmed it over a candle, and now he made the phallus slick and shiny and slippery.
She could barely draw breath, watching his hand stroke along the thick shaft.
It was so erotic.
She wanted him inside her. His thick, heavy cock buried deep in her.
She couldn’t have that—yet. But he was with her. And she needed him. She wanted to be with him, to think only of this—of sex and pleasure—and not of fear and death and killers.
He touched the tip of the thick fake cock to her nether lips. Looked deeply into her eyes, his fiery with lust, as he worked the cock inside her.
So full!
He thrust it in and out, and she moved with him. She moaned. Licked her lips. Touched her nipples. Tried everything she could to entice him.
He smiled. He pushed the phallus deeply in her, and Sophie let out a long, fierce cry of sexual agony. The emeralds in its base sparkled in the morning light. She began to rock on the phallus. As he’d shown her, she reached down and caressed her clit.
His eyes glowed. Then he shook his head and stopped her. “Not yet, angel. Roll onto your tummy.”
He helped her. Sophie lay on her silky sheets.
“I’ll do this slowly. But I want to introduce you to the pleasures of double penetration.”
She twisted, met his gaze.
“Do you trust me?” he asked.
“You’ve done nothing but protect me. Of course I do.”
He held up the vial of oil, and she watched the warm golden fluid spill onto his fingers. Then his long, elegant finger stroked between the cheeks of her bottom.
“What are you doing?”
“You can feel the most incredible pleasure through your derrière, Sophie.”
She remembered that from the display at Sinclair’s party. She held her breath. And nodded to say: Yes, she wanted it.
“I’ll be gentle,” he promised
She felt a tug on her anus. Felt his finger push against her. It was slick with oil, and he was massaging her. Slowly.
“It feels good.” Stunningly good. She’d had no idea.
She felt pressure, and she gasped.
The movement stopped. “Relax, Sophie. I’ll let you get used to the feel of my finger. You can take this, and it will feel good. I promise you.”
“I like it,” she whispered. “Do more.”
She rocked with the slow thrusts of his finger. Being filled back there made her cunny feel more full.
“My finger is all the way inside you.” His deep voice sounded almost reverent.
“Would you like to make love to me back there?” she asked breathlessly.
“I would, but I can’t, darling. But I can fill you with one of the dildos.”
“All right.”
She held her breath, watched as he oiled the shaft of a more slender phallus. She kept her head half turned so she could watch him introduce the long, slender thing between her cheeks.
He gripped the hilt with his hand, thrusting with long, slow motions.
“Play with yourself,” he urged. “I want to make you come, angel.”
Her fingers went down, and she touched her clit, stroking it. She wriggled on the phallus filling her cunny, and he thrust the other deeper and deeper into her derrière.
“Oh yes,” she cried.
She was working harder and faster. Begging for him. Gasping his name—
Her fingers pressed hard and fast, and pleasure simply crashed into her.
She was coming. So hard, she had to scream with the sheer intensity. She squealed. And cried his name.
Then she opened her eyes. He was roughly jerking his cock, watching as she writhed and spasmed with her pleasure. “Oh yes,” she cried. “Jerk yourself hard.”
He let out a growl like a bear, then his hand clenched tight, his hips rocked forward, and his come jetted out. It shot to the bed. It shot over her belly. It dripped over his hand.
Then he let go of his cock and fell on his back beside her.
“Someday, I’m going to make love to you,” he growled. “I want to so badly. It has to happen.”
This was the first time he’d spoken as if he would fight to make it possible!
“It will,” she said.
Then he got up, slid the toys from her, and put them in a basin. He cleaned her with his handkerchief. Then he lay beside her on the bed, but he frowned and cocked his head.
He had remarkable senses—he’d explained he had honed them during battle. Though he said he was surprised the cannon fire hadn’t deafened him.
There seemed to be some kind of commotion outside. Sophie got out of her bed, curious, and went to her window. People had walked out of their houses. They stood on the sidewalk, looking up the street.
Four white horses pranced down the lane, pulling a carriage painted a deep blue. The blue of precious sapphires, or of a deep, clear lake. The coachman wore elegant attire, along with a tricorne and a wig.
The carriage stopped in front of her house.
“For some reason, I think royalty is visiting us. Or your mother.” It looked like a carriage fit for a duchess. Sophie clapped her hand to her mouth. “Why would your—”
“My mother? What the—?” Cary had jumped out of bed, and he moved her to the side so he could look out the window too.
Then he grinned. “That’s not my mother’s carriage. That’s yours. Finally, they are delivering it.”
“Today of all days,” she whispered. On a day where a desperate courtesan had lost her life.
“You’re safe and sound. And I plan to keep you that way. Do you like the carriage?”
“It’s lovely beyond compare. A fairy-tale carriage.”
Cary put his arms around her. His hands cupped her naked breasts.
This was an intimacy he would have refused mere days ago. “Why don’t you take the carriage and visit your friend and her children? I’m going to question the Cyprians. I’ll do it this afternoon—none of them will have stirred from bed before noon. Now that you have the carriage, why not travel and reassure them all they will now be safe?”
“But I was going to question the courtesans with you.”
“No, you are not. This morning, it was sheer good luck that kept you safe. I need you to stay out of this. I can’t think straight when I’m worrying about you. Sophie, I couldn’t bear losing you. I feel like I want to hold you forever. So I know you’re safe.”
“I will be safe. I promise.”
He kissed her then. Cupping her cheek, he bent down to her from behind her and gave her a long, deep kiss. But when he drew back, his mouth was bracketed with harsh lines. “I know what it’s like to be too late.”
“What do you mean?” Sophie asked, her eyes wide and surprised. “You weren’t too late for me. You saved me!”
Cary closed his eyes. He had to make her understand how afraid he was—so she did not disobey him again.
“I haven’t told anyone about this.” His voice was a hoarse rasp. With his eyes shut, he remembered every detail of the way the Fiery Rose had looked, lying on the ground by the Serpentine.
And that reminded him of the uprising . . . of what happened in Ceylon....
“No one. You can’t speak of it either, but you need to understand.”
“I will keep it secret,” she said softly. “Please tell me.”
In his mind, Cary could hear the rushing stream beside their camp in the jungle. “It was in Ceylon. We had been ambushed by the rebels the day before, but we had fought off the attack. However, many of our men were injured. I was helping our doctor with the wounded. When I was done, I needed to take a walk. I needed time to think and strategize. Some of the men wanted a violent retaliation. I didn’t want to lose more lives for some rabid, blind desire for revenge. But when I was walking, I heard a woman scream. . . .”
He opened his eyes and looked at Sophie’s lovely green ones. “I heard a man shout at her. He called her filthy. Told her to ‘shut it’ or he’d make her shut her mouth. The man was obviously English, and I ran toward the sounds. When I reached a clearing in the jungle, I saw one of my soldiers bent over a young, slim Ceylonese girl. The girl’s garment was torn off. The soldier had his hands wrapped around her throat, cutting off the air so she couldn’t scream.”
Sophie’s hand rested on his biceps. Stroking him. Giving him comfort.
“I barked at him to stop, but he wouldn’t. I hauled him off the poor girl. But her limp body fell to the ground. Her eyes were wide open and blank. I checked in vain for a pulse, but I knew I was too late. She was dead. I took out my pistol and put the soldier under arrest. He had been a disciplinary problem from the beginning, and he always fought my orders. Corporal Yew was his name. He had to be court-martialed, and I was speaking about that with my superior officer, when we were ambushed again. That was when I was taken prisoner. Months later, when I was rescued and released, the corporal had been killed and buried. But to this day, I still hate the fact that I was too late.”
“It wasn’t your fault,” Sophie cried.
“Sophie, this is why I need you to stay safe. I couldn’t bear it if anything happened to you.”
“I will stay here. Just as you asked.”
She kissed him. A sweet and tender kiss. Then he moved to his clothing and began to get dressed. “I have to go and put an end to this.”
As soon as Cary had gone, Sophie dressed and summoned her brand-new carriage. He had told her she couldn’t question courtesans, but she was going to see Nell.
She should tell Nell that she had the duke as a protector, shouldn’t she? She hadn’t spoken to Nell since the night of the orgy.
And with her new carriage and her coachman, there would be no danger in going to Nell’s.
With Sophie settled safe and sound at her town house, Cary took his carriage home. His mother knew about the murders, but his sisters didn’t. Would he have to explain it to them? They were younger than him by ten and fifteen years. Now he saw that it must have taken a long time for his parents to recover from his abduction and to try for more children.
His mother had been weakened by his kidnapping for a very long time. She had him watched incessantly. His father had retreated from him.
Still, how in hell did he explain this to girls who were not yet twenty? His sisters should not even know what a Cyprian was; surely they had no idea women traded sex for money. He wanted to keep them far away from this.
While he had just taken Sophie to bed. He was a damned hypocrite, he realized.
But Sophie had been glowing after he’d pleasured her. She had no longer looked pale and afraid.
He’d done a good thing.
At home, he went straight to his study, avoiding his family.
In his drawer were two lists. The guest list for the Cyprian ball he had obtained from Nell. She was willing to do anything for money—give tickets to balls or sell private guest lists.
The other, for the orgy, he had gotten from Sin.
There were twenty gentlemen who had attended both events.
Sophie was correct. Questioning the Cyprians was the best way to start. At the top of his list were the two sisters—the Black Swan and the White Swan. They were close in age to the Fiery Rose, whose real name was Gwendolyn Longbottom. He could see why she’d taken a nickname.
But there was something that bothered him.
Both Sax and Sin had been at the Cyprian Ball and the orgy. He believed his friends couldn’t be involved. Sax was wild—but not wild enough to hurt a woman. Sin’s sexual appetites were notoriously inventive, and he reputedly never had sex in a scenario that involved less than four people.
They weren’t guilty. The four dukes had all grown up together—he, Greybrooke, Saxonby, and Sinclair. First at Eton, then at Oxford. He knew Sin and Sax had secrets in their pasts. But they were men. They didn’t talk about that, didn’t ask questions. So he did not know what those secrets were.
Still, he could not see Sax or Sin capable of murder. Not of the cowardly murders of defenseless women.
And there was the watch with the initials “Y.Y.” His story about Corporal Yew had made him wonder . . . Yew had reason to hate him, but the man had died in Ceylon.
His best line of action was to question the Cyprians.
He had been just in time to save Sophie when she was attacked. This morning . . . God, he could have lost her.
He was realizing how much he knew he wanted to be with her.
He was supposed to marry. He couldn’t make love to Sophie today, but pleasuring her had fought off his demons, had made him forget everything but her.
But when he married, he wanted to have a loving relationship with his wife. He couldn’t keep a mistress.
When he could marry, he would have to let Sophie go.
On her way, Sophie reviewed what she knew of the Cyprians. Angelique had fought with Sally Black. The girl had insulted Angelique, and Sophie knew that had angered Angelique. But bold Sally might have argued with other Cyprians.
Angelique hadn’t been at the orgy, but Sophie had recognized four other Cyprians—Nell had given her their names. The Fiery Rose, but she was now dead. The Venus Callipgye, known for her beautiful, full, round bottom (the nickname actually meant “Venus of the beautiful buttocks”). The Black Swan and her sister, the White Swan.
And Nell—Nell had been at both events.
She rapped on the door at Nell’s town house, and the door whipped open. The young maid peered at her.
This time, Sophie wore a pelisse of dark green velvet and an elegant day gown.
“Cor, I thought you’d be the doctor, mum.”
“The doctor?” Sophie pushed in. “What’s wrong?” Another murder? Was she too late, too late for Nell?
“She took laudanum last night. She does sometimes, when she can’t sleep. She must have taken too much. I can’t wake her up.”
“Let me see her. Where is her bedroom?” Sophie demanded.
The girl never questioned Sophie; she just pointed up the stairs and said, “The first room on the left, past the glass doors. At the back, with the best view of the garden and the roses. There’s no early sun on those windows. That’s what my mistress liked best.” The girl was babbling and was almost pure white with shock.
Sophie pushed the girl toward the drawing room door. “Have a sherry for your shock. Wait for the doctor to come, and then send him up at once.”
She raced up the stairs. Was it murder?
Another maid was in the hall, wringing her hands. “I don’t know what to do,” she cried.
Sophie rushed past her. Nell’s bedroom was fit for a duchess. The bed was oval, with a tall silk canopy. Nell’s form looked tiny amidst the large bed, with sheets and a counterpane of pink pulled up to her chin.
This woman had helped her. Had saved her life—and her son’s life, and those of Belle and the children—by intervening with Cary. She couldn’t be dead just because Sophie was too late.
Sophie reached the bed. “Nell? Can you hear me?”
Desperately, she searched for a pulse. She couldn’t tell if it was actually a pulse she was feeling. She bent close to Nell’s lips. Felt the lightest flutter of air. Heard the soft sound of air going inside Nell’s mouth.
Nell was still breathing. Faintly, but she was still drawing breath, and that was all that mattered. But Sophie felt like the maid—what should she do?
“She is in here, Dr. Grace!”
Sophie stood as a tall, thin man strode in. “She is still breathing. She’s still alive.”
He didn’t ask who she was. The doctor curtly told her to “stand aside.” Sophie did, retreating to the mantel by the fire. “If you need anything, doctor, ask, and I will fetch it at once.”
All her life, she had been much like a servant. Here, that was all she wanted to be. A servant to help the doctor save Nell.
She put her hand on the mantel because she was shaking—
Something fell. It was a gold locket, and it had fallen open. It contained a miniature picture of a man. Obviously, a gentleman. Sophie picked it up. The tiny painting depicted a dark-haired man with green eyes. On the other side, a paper had been tucked in. It read:
My beloved X. Q. The Viscount Mowbray.
The journal—in her mother’s journal, she had used the initials X. Q. to describe the man she had been deeply in love with.
Perhaps Nell had been in love with him too. Or—
It was hard to tell on such a small picture, but X. Q. had Sophie’s color of eyes, and his chin looked like hers. So did his nose. This man was her father.
And Nell, with her dark hair, could be her mother.
But her mother was dead. Mrs. Tucker, her adoptive mother, had told her that. Or had that been a lie? Maybe to hurt her, or maybe Mrs. Tucker did believe her mother was dead.
But she wasn’t.
Sophie took a hesitant step forward, but the doctor was hunched over Nell. He was using a brusque voice on Nell as if he could bully her awake.
“Is there anything I can do?” she asked impetuously. “I must help her.”
“You can keep out of my way, miss,” the doctor said curtly.
Sophie retreated. She was quite sure Nell was her mother— but it could still be that the Viscount Mowbray was Sophie’s father and her mother could be dead.
She wanted Nell to be her mother.
She walked around the room, pacing, praying Nell would live. Had this been an accident, and she had just taken too much laudanum? Had someone tried to silence Nell, the same way the Fiery Rose had been killed before she could talk?
There was another possibility. Nell could have done this deliberately.
Sophie walked over to a small writing desk. Then she knew the truth. A small book sat on the desk blotter—a book with a red leather binding, just like the journals Sophie had. The ones that contained her mother’s manuscript.
The book was in her hand and open before she realized what she was doing.
It wasn’t right to read it, but she had to know.
The handwriting was the same. It had been so small on the miniature, and it had not been a flowing script, so she hadn’t noticed that fact. But here she did.
She began at the last entries. They were all about a handsome viscount. Nell used a code for the names, but there was a folded piece of paper tucked in the book. Sophie unfolded it. It was a charcoal sketch of a handsome, dark-haired man.
Sophie had seen him before.
He was the same man Sophie had seen whipping the Fiery Rose at the brothel on Horton Street. In Nell’s journal, there were catty remarks about all the famous Cyprians. And Nell wrote about being furious because a young upstart stole the Viscount Willington out from under her nose. He was the peer who was Sally Black’s protector.
Nell was furious with both Sally and the Fiery Rose.
Nell wrote about her desire to win the Duke of Caradon. To prove she was still the superior courtesan.
Sophie looked at the date where she had come to see Nell. There was no mention of her, beyond a small note about acquiring a new protégé. Nell didn’t mention her as her daughter. But Nell had written several paragraphs about how much she desired Caradon.
Three women who were involved with men Nell wanted had been murdered, or almost murdered.
But Nell must have recognized Sophie’s story. She must have known Sophie was her daughter. Nell had, Sophie assumed, invited Caradon to the orgy. She thought it was because Nell had been kind and was giving her the chance for a good match—well, a good match with a protector.
If Nell wanted Cary for herself, why do that?
From the bed, she heard a soft groan. Some babbling. Sophie turned around.
“Have some black coffee sent up. We must keep her awake now,” the doctor ordered.
Sophie looked back at the bed. Did Nell know who she was? Was her mother—who she had dreamed of meeting—responsible for two murders and the attack on her?
Who was the man who had been paid to kill her?
When the coffee arrived, she held out a cup for Nell. Carefully put it in the woman’s hands. After Nell had drunk some, she looked weakly at Sophie.
The doctor was packing his bag.
Sophie said, “I need to know if you are innocent, Nell.”
“Innocent? Hardly that,” she said weakly.
“I mean of the deaths of Sally Black. And the Fiery Rose. Someone killed her. And then you—you took too much laudanum.”
“I did that . . . in the night. I knew you were safe now. How beautiful you turned out. I saw what I’d lost. I’d lost you. . . .”
“You took too much laudanum because of me?”
“I gave you up. I am so sorry.”
“I know you are my mother. And I must know if you hired someone to kill me so you could have Caradon.”
Nell struggled to sit up, but Sophie touched her shoulder. Weakly, Nell put her hand on Sophie’s. “No. No, I would never hurt you.”
“Do you know who did? Someone broke into my room to murder me.”
“I don’t know. Oh my dear, I don’t know. But you are all right—?”
“The Duke of Caradon rescued me.”
Nell smiled. She settled back against the pillows that Sophie had arranged to prop her up to drink coffee. “Thank heavens,” she said.