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Avalon
Standing at my door, I was a nervous wreck. The loud powerful knocks that came from the other side commanded my attention. But I was too afraid to move.
Fear had gripped me, and I stood behind my door trembling like a leaf. My heart pounded so hard and fast that I’m sure it could be heard across the street. I hadn’t felt this way since I was a teenager.
“Get it together Avalon. You have kids with this man. He is not a stranger.” I said to myself as I wiped my sweaty palms on the throw blanket on my couch.
Looking in the floor length mirror, I marveled at how my form fitting dress accentuated my curves. Looking at myself I could see why men in their 20s and 30s approached me. I looked damn good.
Gathering my composure. I turned the door knob and opened it. My breath caught in my throat when I looked into the face of a man that could be my sons twin.
For the longest time. Neither of us could speak. We stood staring at each other like we had never met.
“Avalon, you haven’t aged a day. You look beautiful.” Calvin said as he wrapped his strong arm around my waist, picked me up, and kissed me with so much passion that I thought I would melt.
“Calvin. I can’t believe I’m looking at you.” I said as I tried to control the tears that ran down my face. I hadn’t realized how much I wanted him until he was back in my life.
“I told you, I would’ve been here Thursday. I got in yesterday around noon. I saw you outside with our granddaughters and all I could do was smile. I drove by three times yesterday, but I was too nervous to stop.
So, I waited until this morning. I hope 8am isn’t too early to come by. You used to get up around 6 every morning. Even on the weekends when the kids weren’t in school.” Calvin said as he peered into my eyes. I could see the smile in his eyes as he looked at me.
“You remember that? I still get up with the chickens.” I said jokingly.
Calvin spun me around then kissed me so deep that I felt myself getting moist. In twenty-five years, I had dated a few different men, but none of those men got me so wet that I could feel it dripping down my legs. Calvin’s body was solid as a brick wall. I couldn’t see any remnants of the man that had started indulging in his own supply.
“I’m glad you get up early. Because I was willing to pick your lock if I had too. I wanted to be here at 6, but I thought that would’ve been too creepy. Whose Corvette is that?” Calvin asked. I could see him glancing around. Trying to see if someone was here.
“That beauty is all mine. Everything parked in this yard belongs to me.” I said beaming proudly.
“You’re going to have to give me a ride. I’ve never been in a Corvette. This house is beautiful. Can I get a tour?” Calvin asked as he wrapped his arms around my small waist. He nibbled on my neck like it was a dessert. The way he moaned from his throat was as if he was savoring the taste, like he couldn’t believe his mouth was on it. I could feel his hardness stabbing me in the back and I loved it.
“Sure. Follow me.” I said as I put an extra pep in my step and escorted him straight to my bedroom. There was no need to act like we didn’t know what was going to happen. Lust was in both of our eyes the moment I opened the door. There was no need for small talk.
“Welcome to my boudoir.” I said as we entered my bedroom.
Calvin didn’t say a word as he entered my room and sat on my bed. For a full sixty seconds all he did was stare at me. The way he undressed me with his eyes didn’t make me feel uncomfortable at all. I felt so sexy under his gaze.
“Come here Ava.”
Was all he said when he decided to speak. I didn’t say a word. I walked over to him and he immediately pulled me in between his legs. Slowly raising my dress. Calvin French kissed both of my thighs and kissed his way up my body.
“Oh my God.” I screamed as he dragged his smooth tongue over my entire body. He purposely ignored my breast and the hotspot in between my legs. Calvin was making love to my body and driving me crazy and he knew it.
“I’m ready to taste this.” He said as he stood up and gently laid me on the bed. Calvin wasted no time removing my panties. I nearly jumped out of my skin when I felt Calvin’s soft lips on the inside of my thighs.
“Damn you smell good.” He said as he licked my sensitive lips. My eyes rolled to the back of my head as Calvin made love to my clit with his mouth. I missed his mouth so much that all I could do was roll my hips and try to force his whole head in between my legs.
“Ahhhh!!!” I screamed so loud that I knew I was going to lose my voice. My body shook like I was having a seizure and at this moment if I were to die. I’d die a happy woman. The grin on Calvin’s face as he came up for air let me now that he was thoroughly pleased with my reaction to his oral assault.
“You liked that.” Calvin smirked. I was too out of it to even answer him. All I could do was nod and smile. Without saying another word, Calvin slid out of his pants and boxers. The wood between his legs was the most beautiful thing that I had ever seen. I was ready.
“Come get this Cal.” I said as I spread my legs wide. Showing him that I was still flexible. The moment he slid inside of me. I felt tears roll down my face. Calvin’s low guttural moans as he entered me and the way his stiffened let me know that he was enjoying the feeling.
“I missed you Avalon. I thought about you every day, I swear baby. Did you miss Daddy?” Calvin asked as he laid pipe in a way that I had never experienced. Hearing his moans as he slid in and out of me and hearing the sound of the from all the wetness he caused made my sweating like I was in a sauna. All I could do was scream my satisfaction because I hadn’t felt like this in so long.
“I asked you a question. Did you miss Daddy?” Calvin asked. He flipped me over and spanked me so hard that I had no choice but to speak.
“Oh God Cal. Yes baby! Yes I missed you.” I screamed as Calvin hit it from the back the way that I dreamed he would after our phone sex session. His thrust was so powerful that with every stroke he made I knew his end was near.
“Oh Shit Avaaaaa!!!” Calvin roared like a lion as he released his load inside of me. Even though I could feel him filling me up with his seed and feel the intense throbbing of his dick inside of me, he continued to fuck me like he couldn’t stop. His screams of ecstasy were so loud that I was surprised the mirrors on my wall hadn’t cracked.
“Goddamn Ava baby.” Calvin moaned as he leaned down and kissed the small of my back. The way he made me feel, I never wanted to be without this feeling again.
“Are you ok?” I laughed. His body shook and twitched like he was a fish out of water. It was obvious that he couldn’t catch his breath and I thought it was hilarious.
“I’m more than ok. All I wanna do right now is cuddle with you like we used to do. Catch a nap then get up so we can go shopping.” Calvin said as he pulled me in close to him and kissed me all over my face.
“Why do you wanna go shopping?” I asked in between the soft kisses I was placing on his chest.
“All I brought was one outfit and my black card. I had my car shipped a few days ago, so I wouldn’t have to get a rental. My plan was to buy everything here. I wanna take you shopping. You can have whatever you want. I wasn’t lying when I said I wanted us to start over.
The man I am today, is the man you deserved years ago. I also think we should go shopping for an engagement ring. I love you Avalon. I swear baby I’m not going to mess up this time. But before we go ring shopping, I want you to tell me how you really feel about me.” Calvin said while staring deep into my eyes.
My body stiffened as he peered at me. I could tell that he really wanted to know. For years, I cursed his name and the day he ever came into my life. I used to pray for the day that I’d see him again so that I could tell him how I truly felt about him. Now that he was here, I didn’t know if I wanted to dredge up the past.
“No, you don’t.” I said as I climbed from the bed and gave him my back as I got dressed. Now I was regretting sharing my body with this man.
“Avalon, I wanna talk. I left Florida when I was twenty-eight years old. I came back at fifty-five years old. You mean to tell me that you don’t have anything you wanna get off your chest?” Calvin asked as he stared at me like a hawk.
“Calvin, just leave it...”
“No, tell me how you feel Ava. Whatever you say, I promise I can handle it. Tell me how you feel Avalon.” Calvin said cutting me off and backing me into a corner.
Visions that I prayed that God would take from my memory came rushing back to me in full color. I felt like I was losing my mind. When Calvin lightly touched my arm; I lost it.
“I fucking hate you Calvin.” I screamed as I threw a right hook in Calvin’s face that made him stumble backwards. I was so angry that my head began to spin.
“Avalon!”
“You just left! You just left me Cal. You left me here to raise my daughter, OUR daughter, alone. You left me here to deal with the memories and constant nightmares of seeing my son, OUR son, sprawled out in the street, dead!
They just left my baby in the street twisted at an impossible angle like roadkill. Like he wasn’t important, like he didn’t have a mother that loved him. That bitch just left him there. I gave him life when I was only eighteen, she had no right to take him from me.” I cried as bodily fluids leaked from every crevice of my body.
“The worst part of holding my baby in the street was the fact that his father was too fucked up at the time to be there for me. I forgave you for a lot of the heartache you caused, but I could never forgive you for leaving me with those memories of holding our dead son.” I could feel Calvin’s body tense then tremble as I cried and mourned for my son for the first time since the day he died.
I dropped to the floor as my gut-wrenching sobs made my body too weak to stand. I was a mess, and I didn’t care because for the first time ever, I purged all the memories that haunted me for the past twenty-seven years.
“Avalon, Baby I’m so sorry. I was in mental hell for years behind not being there for you and Kiana. Knowing that I failed my son, my first born, knowing I hadn’t protect him fucked me up. But I got that bitch, I got her ass for killing our boy. It was Natalie Taylor. When I burst in her house, it was as if she knew that I was coming for her.
She said she was trying to catch her husband cheating on her and didn’t see Kennedy until it was too late. She said she panicked and just left him. I can remember her crying and saying how sorry she was, but I didn’t believe her. She begged me not to hurt her kids, but I had too. I had to do it.” Calvin said as he pulled me in his arms and sobbed with me.
I was stunned by his admission. I had know idea it was him who set the house fire that killed Natalie, but knowing that he avenged our son made me feel closer to him. His words, though grim, gave me an odd comfort.
“I didn’t mean to leave you with those memories. But I’m back now. We can get through our past together. This is all that’s important to me.” Calvin said as he held up his left arm showing me the tattoo that read Avalon, Kennedy, Kiana. When he left years ago, he didn’t have any tattoos.
“Thank you for freeing me Cal.” I said as I snuggled closer to him and laid my head on his chest.
“We’re going to do this the right way this time. I swear I’ll never leave you again.” Calvin said as he rocked me until I fell asleep.
