CHAPTER 2

And when in my dream I saw how Blanchaille stood at his window looking out across the garden towards the small knot of angry folk outside the front gate, I knew them to be his parishioners. They were the stony ground on which his seed had fallen. He had preached, he had warned, but the lambs would not hear, instead they banded together and drove their shepherd out. Tertius Makapan, in a mustard suit and luminous magenta tie, leaning against his dusty Toyota. A colossal man, a brick salesman, responsible for co-ordinating the attack on him; there were, too, his storm-troopers, Duggie and Maureen Kreta, Makapan’s willing creatures, formerly the treasurer and secretary of the Parish Council (before the Council was reconstituted into the Parochial Consensus Committee, the consensus being that Blanchaille must go); and poor Mary Muldoon, mad Mary, who knew no better, or at least he had thought so until she had tricked him out of his key to the church and so allowed the Committee to lock and bar the place against him; and there, hanging back, his black housekeeper, Joyce, who had joined them quite suddenly one night. Simply abandoned the dinner she was cooking for him and left his steak smoking on the stove and went over to his enemies. Maureen and Duggie Kreta carried a large banner: PINK PRIEST MUST GO! They waved the poles and flapped the banner at him when they saw him at the window.

PINK PRIEST MUST GO! Priest? The use of the singular case annoyed him. Not that it was intentional, but merely echoed the Kretas’ way of speaking. Maureen, round and determined with thick, rather greasy dark hair, and Duggie, some years younger, sharp face, thin mouth and full, blond hair. They rode everywhere on an ancient Puch autocycle wearing white peaked crash helmets and dark blue macs. They spoke to him as if he were a not very intelligent puppy. Thus Maureen: ‘Father want to watch out for some of the guys in this parish who don’t give a button on Sunday, look at the plate like it was something the dog brought in. In fact some of ’em only look in it at all like they’re wondering what they can pull out. Father got to watch ’em like a hawk.’ And Duggie, parish treasurer’s briefings about lack of funds: ‘Not two cents to rub together most times. You have to raise some funds. The father before Father was a hot shot at raising funds. Charity walks. Charity runs. That was Rischa. Running priest.’

PINK PRIEST MUST GO!

Blanchaille wished to pull down the window and shout at them: ‘Yes, pink priest going! White priest come, pink priest go. Green priest yes, black priest no!’ It was like living in a bloody nursery. Well, he was going to oblige. With pleasure.

He was getting out just as fast as he could.

The need to escape had become for Blanchaille an obsession: if he asked himself what it was he wanted, he answered – rest, peace. Now at the time of the Total Onslaught this feeling was naturally strong, as it always is at the time of killing and much blood, among people of all colour and political persuasions, sad to say. The dead were to some extent envied. They were out of it at least. Those who had disappeared were considered to be fortunate also. Nobody knew where they had disappeared to and no one cared. It was whispered by some that those who had vanished were perhaps also dead but this was widely discounted – they were said to have ‘gone pilgrim’, meaning they were believed to be travelling overseas, thus distinguishing them from the truly dead soldiers who were said to have ‘joined the big battalion’. In war time, said Father Lynch, morphine for the wounded, euphemisms for the survivors. So people bravely pointed out that in war time casualties must be expected and it was best not to question too deeply. It was devoutly to be hoped that the dead and those who had disappeared had gone to some happier place where they would at least be at peace. Now, when asked where this place was, some would have replied vaguely that it was somewhere overseas, others would have given a religious answer and pointed to the sky; a few very brave souls would have whispered quietly that perhaps they’d gone to ‘that shining city on the hill’ or to ‘that colony of the blessed’; or to that ‘rest-home for disconsolate souls’, which legend held President Paul Kruger established for his homeless countrymen somewhere in Switzerland early this century. Despite threats of imprisonment issued regularly by the Regime, the legend of Kruger’s heritage persisted, a holy refuge, a haven, funded with the golden millions he had taken with him when he fled into exile. The Regime scoffed at these primitive, childish beliefs and punished their public expression with prison terms. They were joined by the academic historians who regularly issued bulletins exploding the ‘myth of the Kruger millions’. People you met were similarly dismissive, in fact it was not unusual to begin a conversation by remarking, apropos of nothing at all, ‘Naturally I don’t believe a word about the gold Kruger stole from the mines. Not a bloody word of it.’ But everyone, people, historians, perhaps even the Regime itself, continued to trust in and hope for the existence of that much dreamed of distant, better place. Some became obsessed and fled. So it was with Blanchaille.

When he could stand it no longer Blanchaille applied for a long leave of absence. The Church of course, through a number of unhappy experiences, knew the signs. Bishop Blashford sent Gabriel Dladla to find out the reason.

‘Is there a girl, we wondered?’ Gabriel asked gently.

‘There was a girl. But not here.’

‘Yes, we thought there was a girl. Somewhere.’

The ease with which Gabriel followed him into the past tense chilled Blanchaille.

‘There was a girl, a nursing sister, a Canadian. Miranda was her name. I met her years ago soon after I went to work in the camps or what she called the new growth industries, the growing heaps of unwanted people springing up everywhere in the backveld.’

‘I would hardly call that an industry,’ said Gabriel with a gently disapproving frown. ‘The camps are a scandal, an affront to human dignity. A sin. The Church condemns the camps and the policy of racial Hitlerism which creates them.’

‘It was one of her jokes,’ said Blanchaille. ‘She had a distinctive brand of humour. She had what she called a traditional job, a nursing sister in the township. She refused to dramatise the job. “I could be doing something similar in Manitoba,” she would say, “It’s nothing special.” The difference between us, she insisted, was that I was doing something important but she was just doing a job. “Don’t build it up. I’m not giving a performance,” she said. She said I was at the forefront of things in the camps, learning how to process the people who had been thrown away; “Soon the whole country will run on this human garbage,” she said. It was another of her jokes.’

‘I don’t see the joke,’ Gabriel replied tightly.

‘Nor in a sense did I. “That’s your problem, Blanchie, you don’t see the joke,” she said.’

‘The camps are an obscenity. Your work has been crucial in showing that,’ Gabriel persisted.

‘What about the townships?’

He shrugged. ‘They’re institutions. At least they’re peaceful now. But the camps. . . !’

‘And yet the Church goes in and supports them, cleans them, strengthens their existence.’

‘Supports the people in them. An enormous difference. The camps are there. They’re real. We have to work in the real world.’

‘Look Gabriel, once there were no camps and that was the real world, and the Church lived in it; then there were camps and that was the real world and the Church lived in it. One day, please God, there will be no camps again and that will be the real world and the Church will live in it. No wonder they call the Church eternal.’

‘I think it might be better if we left the Church out of this and talked of carnal matters.’ Gabriel’s tone was mild.

‘What about the girl?’

‘She seduced me.’

Gabriel smiled, ‘Now, now, you mustn’t try to shock me.’

‘We made love several times in her car, an old Morris Minor, in the township after dark. It was rather like a tickbird mating with a crow, she in her white starched uniform and I in my cassock. Or like being locked in a room full of curtains fighting towards the light. After several experiments we discovered that the best way was to remove her underwear and lift her skirt to her chin and then I settled myself on her first lifting my cassock to my waist and dropping it gently so it floated around us, covering us, and we made love as it were in this warm, black tent, within the more intense darkness of the African night. It was a very private affair. Anyone walking past the car and shining a bright light on us would have seen nothing but a kind of Siamese twin, black and white and contracting strangely.’

Gabriel held up a hand. ‘What ended it?’

‘She was murdered.’ Now he had the satisfaction of seeing the astonishment crease Gabriel’s smooth face. ‘She was pulled from her car in the township one morning as she drove to her clinic, and stoned. It seems mainly large pebbles were thrown. There were some half bricks as well, I believe. I went to identify the body. They pulled the big tray out of the fridge, and it wasn’t her. The skull was crushed, you see, or perhaps you don’t – unless you’ve examined head injuries on that scale. The features had shifted, slipped to the side like a floppy rubber mask. The face hung. It was so covered with blood, so smashed, she was unrecognisable. I remember thinking it was almost as if the mob that stoned her had wanted especially to destroy the head. The rest of the body carried very large bruises. I couldn’t identify her in the strict sense but I knew, as one would know. And then the point began to get to me. You see, I realised that, Jesus! there must have been some of her patients in the crowd who stoned her. People whom she had nursed, saved their children maybe, and this was what they had done to her! And all around me I could hear the outrage beginning. Here was this woman who’d given her life to these bastards and here’s what she got in return. Then a funny thing happened. I laughed. I faintly got the point. Miranda might have expected this official reaction. This predictable outrage. And I knew – she would have opposed it. In her book nurses died, like everyone else. Sometimes they got murdered, not merely here but in New York, or Blantyre, or Tokyo, and yes it was tragic but it was not special, it didn’t happen for mystical reasons. But we wouldn’t believe that. In our superiority, Miranda’s death had to be notable. It had to mean something really nasty. In fact Miranda was too important to be allowed to suffer her individual death, she wouldn’t be allowed to die, she had to live, for the sake of the propaganda we fed ourselves to enable us to go on saying that this sort of thing should not, ought not, must not happen. In our war of words Miranda’s death was a big event. But in terms of her own spilt blood, hell, it didn’t matter a damn. What mattered were the detonator words, “should,” “must”, “ought”, which we can use to blow up the enemy. The enemy wants us little, ordinary, human, while we want to be big and important. We care about our position relative to the audience. We want to put on a good show. Everything depends on how things are looking on the stage. Making a performance. . ..’

‘It’s a pity in the way there is no woman – any longer,’ Gabriel said. ‘The Bishop is sympathetically disposed, in the new enlightenment which prevails after Vatican II. The sexual problems of his priests deserve loving consideration. Perhaps you read his piece in The Cross? However, in your case you might be better advised to apply for a transfer.’

‘Right! I apply for a transfer – to the world next-door. Kindly inform His Grace.’

PINK PRIEST MUST GO!

Blanchaille did not consider himself particularly pink and he certainly no longer thought of himself as a priest, but he was in full agreement with the sentiment expressed in the crudely lettered banner the Kretas waved so enthusiastically – he was fully prepared, indeed he most devoutly wished, to go.

Gabriel Dladla had returned with the Bishop’s reply soon after the siege began.

‘I’m afraid it can’t be done, Blanchie. This is your place now.’

‘I’m finished here.’

‘Finished? For heaven’s sake, you’ve barely started.’

Gabriel had arrived wearing what he called his second hat. This wasn’t a hat at all but referred to the car he was driving, a sleek black Chrysler belonging to the Papal Nuncio, Agnelli, whose secretary he was, as well as serving as Bishop Blashford’s chaplain, choice appointments both indicating to a sceptical world that the Roman Church in Southern Africa took to its heart its black followers, indeed did more than that, set them soaring into the firmament, rising stars. Gabriel had come a very long way from the picnic basket in Father Lynch’s garden when the two brothers, Gabriel and Looksmart, sat flanking the little priest. ‘My two negro princes’, he called them, as they sat watching the altar boys struggle with the weeds. Gabriel’s was the only entry into the priesthood which had been approved. His brother Looksmart’s attempt had failed when the new black theology took hold of him and he burnt the Bible on the steps of the seminary as ‘the white man’s manual of exploitation’ and joined the political underground. Blanchaille’s vocation had been derided and ignored. Only Gabriel’s decision to become a priest had been applauded.

‘He is only doing what any intelligent boy would do who wishes to rise. His behaviour would be entirely logical in Spain, or Portugal or Ireland. May we skip any tiresome talk of faith or morals? Gabriel intends to get ahead.’

Father Gabriel Dladla in his beautifully tailored dark suit and its pristine dog-collar, in his soft black fedora which he did not remove in the course of their interview, his chunky gold watch which he consulted with elegant economy in an unmistakable signal that the interview was nearing its end, with his whole air of intelligent, assured concentration with which he listened to Blanchaille but which did not suppress the faint air of impatience of a busy man with other, more important things on his mind. This was once the barefoot boy on the blanket translated in what seemed like a wink of time into a personage of weight and responsibility in the Church hierarchy. And it was with a wink surely that Blanchaille could move him back again to the blanket in the garden. He tried and failed. His eyelid fluttered. Gabriel remained the elegant, deft, important young person he was.

‘Now I’m sorry Blanchie but I must be off. I have a party of visiting Italians to collect from the airport, guests of the Papal Nuncio. They’re flying in from Rome. Do you know Rome at all? I adore Rome. Quite apart from the obvious connections in our case, it is the most surprising, rejuvenating of cities.’

‘Gabriel, I cannot stay here. There must be another parish . . .’

‘If you ever go, I recommend to you the Piazza Navona, a square which should be everyone’s first glimpse of Rome, not even the tourists can ruin its perfect proportions . . .’

‘Another appointment –’

‘Another appointment? But this is your appointment and I am here to let you know that Bishop Blashford confirms you in this appointment. There is nowhere for you to be but here. Nowhere to go but back, back to Pennyheaven, this time for an indefinite stay.’

Blanchaille watched him walking down the garden path. The protesting parishioners cheered when he approached. Gabriel doffed his hat, waved cheerily to them and was gone.

Blanchaille phoned Lynch. The old priest cackled at the news of the visit. The electronic eavesdroppers chirruped and squawked along with him.

‘Speak up, Blanchie, and keep it short. The line’s heavily and ineptly tapped. The bastards never worked out how to use the equipment they import in such quantities from America.’

‘I’m thinking of moving on.’

‘Good. Knew you would come to your senses one day. Perhaps we should have a few words. Where are you?’

Blanchaille told him.

‘My God, right in the sticks. What’s that noise? I can hear people shouting.’

‘Those are my parishioners. I’m under siege.’

Lynch’s laughter was drowned in a shriek of static.

And I saw in my dream how Blanchaille’s stay in the new periurban suburb of Merrievale as parish priest of the spanking-new church of St Peter-in-the-Wild had come to end in undignified confusion after just one month. The defection of his black housekeeper Joyce upset him particularly. She’d never got used to his arrival or the loss of the man he had replaced. How dreadfully unfavourably he must have compared with his predecessor, the youthful, energetic Syrian, Father Rischa. The Parish Consensus Committee had got to Joyce. They told her that Blanchaille was on his way out, they’d shown her the fatal mark of blood upon his lintel imprinted there by the Angel of Death who had passed that way and she’d shot off like a rabbit, an absolute winner in the Petrine stakes, in the thrice-crowing cock awards. Traitress. To hell with her!

St Peter-in-the Wild was Blanchaille’s first parish and his last. He hadn’t been there two minutes when the complaints began.

‘And what is the nature of your complaint, Mr Makapan?’

‘History,’ came the simple if unexpected reply from the brick salesman. ‘Not only your own particular history, but your lack of understanding of the historical process in general and of our parts in it.’

Blanchaille’s particular history – what was it? Unremarkable, really. A hostel boy, one-time altar server who had gone up to the seminary to become a priest. Why a priest? Because he wished to be like Father Lynch who understood the system of the Regime and sought to expose it. ‘You are not priestly material,’ Father Lynch had cautioned. ‘You are raised with the puritan, primitive, moralising web of the system and cannot destroy it, but what you can do is to hunt down the guilty men and bring them to book. That is your real vocation. Blanchaille, the police college waits for you – answer the call!’

For once Lynch and the Bishop were in agreement. Blashford opposed his entry into the seminary and when the time came for Blanchaille’s ordination, continued to oppose it, avoiding the duty to perform the ceremony by being indisposed. Instead Blanchaille was ordained by a visiting Hungarian archbishop who was deported soon after the event for gross interference in the domestic affairs of the country. Blanchaille had long suspected Blashford’s hand behind the expulsion. Newly ordained, his first visit to Lynch had been disastrous. Lynch had stood him up in the pulpit and introduced him to the congregation as ‘the boy you might remember having served at this altar for many a year, and is now a policeman engaged in important undercover work in the country, hence his disguise . . .’

Blanchaille had done no parish work. After six years of moral theology mixed with intense sexual agonies in the seminary, applying the purity paddle (a miniature ping-pong bat without the usual rubber facings) with a short, downward slap morning and night, whenever his errant member stiffened beneath his soutane, he went to work in the transit camps, the garbage heaps where the human rubbish, the superfluous appendages were thrown away; the huge shanty towns in the remote and barren veld set aside by the Regime as temporary homes for a variety of black people: there were in the camps the dependants, wives, children, grandparents of black workers in the cities; there were illegal immigrants who had taken work in the cities without proper papers; there were the aged, infirm and unemployable who had failed to fulfil the requirements of their contracts; there were shattered black communities which had been living, either by historical accident or with illegal intent, in areas designated as being for other ethnic groups, tribes, races, clans, formations laid down according to the principles of Ethnic Autonomy.

When Blanchaille went to the camps no one had heard of them, or of him. Soon everyone had heard of him. ‘Father Theo of the Camps’ the newspapers called him. Bishop Blashford warned him to avoid political involvement. Later Blashford was to call on Catholics to ‘embrace the suffering Christ of the camps’ and the Church moved in with force. But by that time Blanchaille had gone, had written his notorious letter to The Cross with its ringing phrase ‘Charity Kills’, in which he called for the camps to be bulldozed. As a result he had been transferred for ‘rest and recuperation’ in a spirit of ‘loving brotherly concern’, and under heavy guard, to the place called Pennyheaven.

Pennyheaven was an imposing country mansion of tall white fluted columns and heavy sash windows, red polished verandas, great oak floorboards a foot across, balding peacocks, an empty dry and cracked swimming pool, a conservatory where lizards basked, pressed against the bleary Victorian stained-glass windows. It had belonged once to Sam Giltstein, an old drinking buddy of Barney Barnato’s. An individual, this Giltstein. When many of the Jewish mining magnates went over to Christianity early in the century, Gilstein, perverse as ever, resisted the movement into the Anglican faith and opted instead for the Church of Rome. When he died he left his inaccessible summer place in the high remote mountains thirty miles north of the capital, to the Church as a ‘home for homeless clergy’. Many miles from the nearest village and halfway up the rocky mountainside at the end of an almost inaccessible dirt road, Pennyheaven had remained as remote and as distant from human habitation as Giltstein had intended it to be. No one visited Pennyheaven. To go there you had to be sent. To leave you had to be fetched.

Blanchaille was six weeks there waiting for his new posting. To Pennyheaven came priests for whom no other place could be found: priests not bad enough to expel, not mad enough to confine; ancient clerics awaiting transfer to geriatric homes, little trembling creatures sitting out on the veranda from dawn to sunset, trembling and dribbling, leaning over their sticks and turning weak eyes on the shimmering blue peaks; dipsomaniacs and men with strange cravings for little girls.

Blanchaille met there Father Wüli, a huge Swiss who described himself as the last of the great African travellers, who had come ‘to rest in Pennyheaven between voyages of exploration’. What this in fact meant, Blanchaille discovered, was that Wüli was an inveterate escapee. He would stride miles across the mountains in his tough boots, his Swiss sense of direction carrying him to the outskirts of some town and there he would lurk among the rocks and kranses, leaping out to expose himself to terrified picnickers on the remote hillsides, his unerring compass on these prodigious treks, the needle that pointed him onward, leaping massively from his unzipped flies. Father Wüli would return from his distant journeys in a police landrover, blanketed against sudden display, looking very fit and quite unabashed.

He met there, too, Brother Khourrie, a little Lebanese who’d once been sacristan in a church by the seaside and who had led a blameless life until he was granted a vision of the Redeemer. Khourrie and Blanchaille sat on the veranda of the big house staring across the baking, shimmering country which ran away into the blue mountains: huge boulders stood stark among the thick burly vegetation. The nearby hills appeared to be made almost entirely of rocks, some split from the main mass, seamed, pitted, cleft, the colour of sand, lying among the thorn trees where they had rolled thousands of years before. Christ was a boy of about eighteen, Khourrie confided, in ragged shorts, carrying the T-piece of his cross slung across his shoulders, his arms outstretched and hanging over the beams to steady it. He was tall with blond hair worn rather long, and his skin was golden. He must have been lying down shortly before Khourrie saw him because sand had covered his back and stuck in the oil with which he had rubbed himself. He was gleaming and encrusted with sand and oil and sunlight. A shining man. Very gently and diffidently Blanchaille suggested it might have been a surfer he saw, but Khourrie was firm – to those with eyes to see he was plainly the Messiah. He had proof. The proof he produced was novel. He explained to Blanchaille that the Jews too had identified the Boy Messiah. That was why they had bought flats along the beach front and why they continued to do so in such numbers. Nearly all the flats which followed the curve of the sea shore were owned by Jews. The Jews always knew, said Khourrie. Naturally he’d reported the matter to the Church. Their response had been unforgivable. They had dispatched him to Pennyheaven. The reasons he was quite clear about, the Church and the Jews were in league. Neither wished it to be known that the Messiah had returned to earth.

After Pennyheaven, Blanchaille had been appointed to St Peter-in-the-Wild. The church was so new it still smelt of cement and the walls and ceiling were painted sky blue. The whole place was severely angular with pews of pale natural pine and a baptismal font at the back made of stainless steel, deeply shining, rather like the wash-basins found on trains. In a pulpit of steel and smoked glass with its directional microphone Blanchaille talked of Malanskop, his first camp. It had been, he said, a most terrible garden full of deadly melodies, a music of wonderful names: kwashiorkor and pellagra, enteritis, lekkerkrap and rickets. How they rolled off the tongue! How lovely they sounded! Children in particular found the music irresistible. They listened and died. Every day ended with perfunctory funerals. No less euphonious afflictions decimated the adults: tuberculosis, cystitis, scabies and salpingitis, cholera, typhoid . . . The red burial mounds grew up overnight beyond the pit latrines as if an army of moles had passed that way. Later the little graves were piled with stones to keep the jackals off and finally came the clumsy wooden crosses tied with string, the names burnt into the wood in a charred scrawl, dates recording the months, weeks, days, hours, in the brief lives of ‘Beauty’ and ‘Edgar’, ‘Sampson’, ‘Nicodemus’ and ‘Precious’.

The Church half emptied after this first sermon. Blanchaille began to feel rather better about his new appointment. At the second sermon he tried to encourage the congregation remaining to recite after him the names of the camps and perhaps to clap the beat: ‘Kraaifontein, Witziesbek, Verneuk, Bittereind, Mooiplaats . . .’ The microphone gave a hard dry sound as he clapped his way through the litany. No one joined him. ‘I want to suggest that in the foyer of the church we build models of these camps, of the shoe-box shantytowns, the tent villages, that we show their corrugated iron roofs, the towns built of paraffin tins, the three stand-pipes on which thousands of people relied for their water, the solitary borehole and of course the spreading graveyards. Everywhere the graveyards. We might use papier mâché.’

At his third sermon the congregation had shrunk to those few who he later realised constituted the Consensus Committee: Makapan, the two Kretas, and Mary Muldoon. Mary wore a hat with bright red cherries. Her flower arrangements, he noticed, had not been changed since his first sermon. Before the altar the hyacinths were dying in their waterless brass vases.

‘I wish to remember today, dear brethren, my third and final camp, Dolorosa, that tin and cardboard slum in the middle of nowhere which has since become so famous. In my day, the mortality rate for dysentery was a national record, the illness carried off three-quarters of the newborn in the first month after the camp was set up. People in their tin hovels with their sack doors died of despair, if they were lucky, before the more regular infections removed them. Dolorosa, as you know, is important because it caught the imagination of the country and the Church. It was called, in one of those detestable phrases, “a challenge to the conscience of the nation.” Individuals arrived there in their private cars with loads of medicines and milk. Rotary Clubs collected blankets and bread. This charitable effort grew and teams of doctors and nurses, engineers and teachers made their way to Dolorosa. But more than anything else Dolorosa became the camp which the Church took up. It became, in the words of Bishop Blashford’s episcopal letter, “the burning focal point of the charitable energies of the Catholic Church. . ..” A hospital was opened. Then a school. And a fine new church in the beehive style, this being judged as reflecting best the tribal architecture of the local people, was erected and dedicated. What was sought . . . What was sought? Oh yes, I remember, what was sought was “a living, long-term commitment” – they actually said that! Farsighted superiors in distant seminaries saw the potential. Could not such a place, these wise men asked themselves, provide a training ground for their priestlings? Give their chaps a taste of real poverty, they said, by billeting them on me for short periods. The spiritual directors of these seminaries took to visiting me by bus and helicopter. They brought tales of increasing interest among their novices. Inspired by the new direction the Church had found, these young men wished to live, for short periods, a sympathetic mirror existence with their brother outcasts, to embrace Mother Africa. A small pilot scheme was begun and proved to be extremely popular. It was likened to young doctors doing a year of housemanship. Parcels of young priests arrived simply crackling with a desire to do good and discover for themselves the vision of the suffering Christ of the camps. Well, of course, the word got round and before long other sympathisers and wellwishers asked if they too could take part in this scheme in a more practical way. It was one thing to drive down every weekend with a load of powdered milk in the back of the Datsun – but that was no substitute for actually “living in” . . . And if the priests were doing it, then why not the laity? The Church, keen to involve the faithful, agreed. Rather than to drive down to Dolorosa once a week with a fresh supply of saline drip, maybe people should get a taste of dysentery for themselves? A conference of bishops recognized the desire evident among the laity, and in their famous resolution called on them to “make living witness of their deep Christian concern for their dispossessed brethren by going among them, even as Our Lord did. . .” Well, you can imagine what happened. The accommodation problem at Dolorosa, and I believe at other camps, became suddenly very acute. Sociologists, writers, journalists, health workers, students, nuns, priests, all began crowding in. I found I had to ration the shanties, the lean-to’s and huts. I had to open a waiting list. Soon we were doubling up on our volunteer workers, five or six to a hovel, three or four to a tent, up to half-a-dozen in the mobile homes donated by the Society of St Vincent de Paul on the proceeds gathered from a number of sponsored walks. Even so it wasn’t enough. It became increasingly difficult to separate the races as the laws of the Regime required that we do, and harder still to keep the sexes apart, as morality demanded. Who hasn’t heard of the tragic case of the Redemptorist Brother accused of raping an African girl behind the soup kitchen run by the Sisters of Mercy? Of the nurse who died of dysentery? Of the Dominican novice taken to hospital suffering from malnutrition? Of the infestation of head lice among a party of visiting Canadian clergy? For a while it seemed as if the whole project of “embracing the poor” was in serious doubt since the faithful seemed unable to resist the very diseases they came to relieve. As a temporary measure all inhabitants, both victims and volunteers, had to be moved into tents miles away from the infected zone while the entire shantytown was fumigated by volunteers from the Knights of Columbus wearing breathing apparatus supplied free of charge by a local firm. At the time the problem seemed insurmountable but with that particular genius which has triumphed through the ages, the Church found a solution. The answer, as we now know, was the careful demarcation of areas of infection. This was achieved by driving sanitary corridors between the healthy volunteer forces on the outside and the infected slum people within; these were the so-called “fire breaks against infection”, a kind of Hadrian’s Wall of Defensive Medicine buttressed at strategic intervals by the SST’s, camp jargon for the scour and shower ablutions, obligatory for all personnel passing between secure areas and infected zones. It was, according to the Bishop’s Conference, a pioneering effort in disease control, a highly imaginative protective health measure sufficiently flexible to take into account the varying degrees of resistance (or lack of it) existing among the ethnic plurality of groups which made up the rich diversity of Southern African peoples . . .’

Blanchaille gripped the edge of the pulpit. His words no longer seemed to carry through the church. He tapped the microphone. Dead. The bastards had cut his mike. He peered at Mary Muldoon, the red cherries on her hat pulsed in the gloom. The rest of the parishioners stared back at him sullenly. ‘It was at this time that I composed my letter to The Cross,’ Blanchaille yelled. ‘Perhaps you’ve heard of it? In it I said that if the people in the camps prayed for anything they should pray for the bulldozer. Enough of these smooth and resonant phrases, of plump churchmen talking of people living in a manner consonant with human dignity. Disease kills but so does charity, more slowly but just as surely. Flatten the camps, that is freedom! Release their inhabitants to a decent beggary, let them wander the countryside pleading for alms, calling on us to remember what we have done to them!’

It was his last sermon. After that the siege began.

And Makapan’s second and general objection?

‘You don’t understand our role in history. We are not simply crude racialists of the sort you think – may I say perhaps even hope – that we are. We don’t hate, despise, spit upon black people, not any longer. We recognise our failings. We reach out to embrace them.’ He reached out his big, dusty hands towards Blanchaille’s neck, he flexed the knuckles with the sound of distant rifle fire. ‘You want to condemn us, but the prisoner has left the dock. The old charges against white South Africans have no force anywhere. Everywhere there is change. We are changing.’

Blanchaille shook his head. ‘We are ruined. It’s too late to change. It is time we left, got out.’

‘Got out? But Father Blanchaille we have nowhere to go.’

‘There are numbers of places – abroad.’

‘Lies.’

‘And stories of people who have disappeared.’

‘Filthy slanders.’

‘There is even talk of the formation of a government in exile.’

Makapan’s hands descended on his shoulders. ‘No more. Only your dog-collar protects you. There is no other place, no better place this side of the grave, than our country here. I will die for that belief.’

The thumbs, kneading his throat now, suggested that he would kill for that belief too. But Blanchaille was past caring. ‘That is quite probable, Mr Makapan.’

Then in my dream I saw Blanchaille open the window and fix his eye on the figure in white; long white flowing robes like a nun, and a nursing sister’s head-dress. Try as she might to hide herself behind the others she could not evade his eyes. This was his former black housekeeper, Joyce Nkwenzi. She had served Blanchaille’s predecessor, the muscular Father Rischa, long and loyally, but she’d lasted with Blanchaille only until trouble struck and then left him, abruptly one evening.

Father Rischa had been popular. He had also been extremely fit. He’d left Blanchaille in possession of a house, empty but for a couple of pieces of very bad Rhodesian copperware and a larder full of inedible food: bean sprouts, soya-based products, nuts, grains, seaweed and porridge. It turned out he’d spent a lot of time organising footraces and sponsored walks and testing country runs along the rutted veld tracks from Uncle Vigo’s Roadhouse to the African location several miles away.

‘At first we looked at Rischa a little skew, if you know what I mean. We could hardly help it. When he was appointed here he seemed to spend hours in his tiny blue running shorts, his big thigh muscles sticking out, pounding up and down the sanitary lanes behind the houses. Thick black hair he had, and well oiled, the way they wear it, you know? He got a few stares in passing I can tell you, at least to begin with, but he was a good sport.’

The brick salesman’s hands were big, square and yellow and he had a habit of knocking them together when speaking, perhaps developed over years of handling the samples stacked on his back seat, knocking off the brick dust. He evidently expected Blanchaille to be something of a good sport . . . ‘When he left, he preached a sermon saying that he was happy to be going to the townships because he was going to search for those Africans who hadn’t been ruined yet by the white man’s diet of Coca-Cola and white bread and he was going to turn them into runners, he said. Look at the Kenyans, he said. Look at the Ethiopians. Aren’t they excellent long-distance men? Well is there any reason why our tough boys in the bush shouldn’t do just as well? He was going to organise camps for training them right there in the bush.’

‘Why not? The bush is full of camps, Mr Makapan.’

‘He was a fighter, was Father Rischa. He stuck up for his country.’

‘And the camps are full of starving people.’

‘You don’t have to tell me about the camps. I’ve done the weekly run like everyone else. The milk run, the medicine run. We know all about the camps.’

And then I saw the embattled priest, Blanchaille, glaring at the demonstrators at the bottom of his garden and he raised his hand pointing at the black woman: ‘God sees you, Joyce Nkwenzi! You cannot hide.’

At the garden fence, Maureen and Duggie Kreta rattled their big banner. ‘Shame! Leave her alone!’

‘God sees you have deserted his minister!’ roared Blanchaille. ‘He will send you to hell, Joyce Nkwenzi.’

The girl’s nerve broke and she threw herself down on her knees lifting clasped hands beseechingly towards her accuser in the window.

‘There you will fry, faithless servant, like a fish in boiling oil – forever!’

With a shriek Joyce pitched forward on her face in the dust.

Blanchaille returned to his chair.

It was nearly midnight when Lynch arrived, slipping by the pickets at the gate with ease. Blanchaille embraced him, weeping a little. Lynch produced a flask and two glasses. ‘Brandy. Stop that flood or you’ll water the booze.’

‘I’m leaving,’ said Blanchaille.

‘Not a moment too soon,’ said Lynch. ‘You’ve heard about Ferreira? Well, now they want you.’ He took from his pocket a note typed on a sheet of cheap paper. He read out: ‘Tell B. to get going. They’re gunning for him.’

‘Who sent that?’

‘Van Vuuren.’

‘Why should Van Vuuren care? He works for the Regime.’

‘Don’t see him that way. He’s kept faith.’

Lynch wore a black coat and an old black beret. Blanchaille recognised the beret. He’d worn it when he’d taken his altar boys on a tour of the Air Force base near the school. The reasons for this odd Gallic touch had soon become clear.

On the windy airstrip, all those years before, he had made a speech: ‘Every lad should get a view of his country’s armaments. My beret is applicable since what we’re going to look at is the new French jet. The French have supported our Government for many years. The Air Force is very proud of their new plane. It’s a form of confidence building, they say. Between ourselves I suspect this display of weapons is similar to the impulse that makes some men expose themselves to little girls in public parks.’ They trailed round behind him inspecting the sleek fighter. ‘It is called a Mirage. Wonderfully appropriate,’ Lynch said. ‘It replaces the Sabre, which is obsolete. Not swords into ploughshares, you understand? But Sabres into Mirages . . .’

Blanchaille tried to remember how long it was since he’d last seen Lynch. Ten years? The black hair beneath the beret was peppered with grey and the face thinner, the chin more pointed, but for the rest he was the same, the beautifully flared nostrils, the prominent jug ears, the hard bright green eyes. ‘I live alone now, since Brother Zacharias died of the cheap wine,’ he said. ‘The university encroaches, it swallows up more and more ground each day and you know that Blashford has sold my entire parish to the university? He says the money will be used to establish a new seminary somewhere in the country for black priests. He was advised by his banker to sell my church. Our old church. Has it ever occurred to you, Theodore, that the banks are at the forefront of innovation here? Remember how the banks introduced the new scheme for appointing black managers in their township branches? There was a lot of opposition to it from the white managers but head office decreed and head office was looking further ahead than the people here. Well you know how a little later the Church discovered its mission to the townships, the Church reaffirmed its historic role in Africa, acting, once again, on instructions from head office. In this case, Rome. It is interesting to see from where the power flows. It would be fascinating to talk more of this, but we can’t. Ferreira is dead and you are suspected of being a connection in the case.’

‘Why me?’

‘He telephoned you. That’s enough.’

‘He was raving. He talked of the City of God.’

Lynch laughed and poured himself more brandy. ‘Not God. It was a bad line, Blanchie. You had a lot of interference. What he said was not God but gold!’

‘You’re well informed.’

‘I’ve heard the tapes, a friend of mine obliged.’

‘Who killed him?’

Lynch shook his head. ‘There are two possibilities which the police are following up. There was something painted in the room where he was found, scrawled low down on the wall. Three letters: ASK followed by what might have been part of a B, or perhaps the number 3. The obvious organisations spring to mind. The Azanian Strike Kommando No. 3, the hit squad, I believe connected with the Azanian Liberation Front. The choice of the word Kommando being a deliberate gibe, a taking in vain of the name of the mobile fighting unit venerated by the Boers.’

‘Well, it makes a kind of sense, I suppose. Tony was in the Government.’

‘Not exactly. He was a Civil Servant. And besides, if you’re going to assassinate someone why pick on an accountant?’

‘Well, who then?’

‘There is another lot, home based, with the same initials – the Afrika Straf Kaffir Brigade. Both are mysterious outfits–the Strike Kommando claims to have infiltrated the country to carry out executions of enemies of the people. The Straf Kaffir Brigade is a group of right-wing maniacs who claim to protect the white man’s way of life, motherhood and freedom – whether all of those, or you take your pick, I don’t know. Despite their name it is not actually blacks they’re after, it’s white men who they believe are destroying the soul of the Afrikaner. The Regime, needless to say, denies the existence of both groups. The Brigade has claimed responsibility for shooting up the houses of liberal lawyers, painting swastikas on the houses of selected targets like the local rabbi, which incensed him no end as it turned out he is a fervent supporter of the Regime. They go about generally making a nuisance of themselves.’

‘I remember seeing the name,’ Blanchaille said. ‘Didn’t they release syphilis-infected mice in several of these new casinos these entrepreneurs are opening in all the Bantu homelands, in the hopes of spreading the pox among white gamblers?’

‘The same. They are demented. But why should even a bunch of madmen who ostensibly at least support the Regime, assassinate one of its officials? Equally, why should the Azanian lot murder Ferreira? He was no big noise, no minister, no target. It seems to me that the question we ought to ask is not which of these groups carried out the killing but why they should bother to remove a remote financial official who spent his time locked away with the ledgers poring over the figures?’

Blanchaille knew the old priest had to some extent at least answered his own questions. He suspected, as anyone would who knew Ferreira, that the answer lay in those figures.

‘Do you believe in these organisations?’

‘Believe? Of course I do! Whether they exist or not is another question. But certainly I believe, just as I believe in the Kruger millions.’

‘And the city of gold?’

‘Naturally. It is a question of faith which I cling to with Augustinian ferocity. May God help you with your unbelief, poor Blanchie. Sadly I do not have time to explain my allusion.’ He walked to the window and beckoned Blanchaille. ‘Those lights over there – the flashing red and yellow neon, do you see? That’s the Airport Palace Hotel. Ask to see the manager when you arrive. He’ll handle things. Leave here as soon as you can.’

‘What, now?’

‘Certainly. The very instant your watchers settle down for the night.’

‘But I’m not ready – not right now, anyway.’

‘What? Not ready? Your sainted mother gave you your wonderful French passport. Your dead friend has supplied you with funds. Your bags are packed, I take it?’

Blanchaille nodded and pointed to the three tartan suitcases.

‘What more do you want?’

He thought hard. ‘I have no air ticket.’

Lynch tapped his nose and winked. ‘Faith, my son.’ He drained his brandy and rose. ‘It will be taken care of. Now I’m on my way.’

‘But you haven’t said yet who you think killed Ferreira. Straf Kaffir Brigade, or Azanian Strike Kommando?’

Lynch regarded him unblinkingly. What he said next made Blanchaille’s head spin: ‘Or both?’ he said.

Blanchaille went over to his chair, the same blue plastic garden chair on which he must have sat many a night and on which he was sitting when I first saw him in my dream.

‘I am as much in the dark as you are,’ Lynch said with a complete lack of sincerity. ‘Now I must go. I’m not long for this world.’

‘So you’ve said,’ Blanchaille remarked sceptically.

‘Can’t be said often enough. Only this time I say it in hope. This time before the shades come down I see a gleam of something that may be –’

‘Light?’ Blanchaille put in helpfully.

‘Gold!’ said Lynch, ‘and the deliriously exciting perception that history, or what passes for such in this dust-bin, may just be about to repeat itself. Remember, Theodore, red and yellow neon, Airport Palace – don’t delay.’ And with a grin the little priest stepped out into the darkness.