1 ‘In his eyes he saw the farm’: Kangaroo, p. 258
2 ‘revulsed’: Bid Me to Live, p. 109 (‘I could not explain my revulsion to your writing, nor why it bored me’)
3 ‘in your interminable novels’: Bid Me to Live, p. 164
4 ‘flaming letters’: Bid Me to Live, p. 138
5 ‘You said I was a living spirit’: Bid Me to Live, p. 183
6 ‘feared and wondered over’: Kangaroo, p. 248
7 ‘concentric, geometric’: Bid Me to Live, p. 72
8 ‘great, over-sexed officer’: Bid Me to Live, p. 47
9 ‘It’s not that picture’: The Oxford Encyclopedia of American Literature, vol. 3, ed. Jay Perini (Oxford University Press, 2004), p. 184
10 ‘One seems to be’: Triumph to Exile, p. 412
11 ‘a perfect triangle’: Bid Me to Live, p. 78
12 ‘I’m sick of the Ott’: Bid Me to Live, p. 139
13 ‘Lawrence does not really care for women’: Magic Mirror, Compassionate Friendship, Thorn Thicket: A Tribute to Erich Heydt, ed. Nephie J. Christodoulides (ELS Editions, 2015), p. 114
14 ‘all fixed up between them’: Bid Me to Live, p. 78
15 ‘A waterlily’: ‘The Poetry of the Present’, p. 78
16 ‘some sort of guide or master’: Hilda Doolittle [H.D.], Tribute to Freud: Writing on the Wall, Advent (Carcanet, 1985), p. 141
17 ‘break the clutch’: Hilda Doolittle [H.D.], Collected Poems, ed. Louis L. Martz (New Directions, 1983), p. xix
18 ‘this damn war’: Bid Me to Live, pp. 83–4
19 ‘physical phenomenon’: Janice S. Robinson, H.D.: The Life and Work of an American Poet (Houghton Mifflin, 1982), p. 10
20 ‘the laconic speech of the Imagistes’: The Life and Work of an American Poet, p. 63
21 ‘You jeered at my making abstractions’: Bid Me to Live, p. 164
22 ‘Of course, behind both’: The Life and Work of an American Poet, p. 94
23 ‘Look’: Letters, 6 November 1917
24 ‘unproud, subservient, cringing’: Letters, 7 November 1917
25 ‘succession of musical notes’, D. H. Lawrence, Aaron’s Rod (Penguin, 1996), p. 39
26 ‘secret malady’: Aaron’s Rod, p. 22
27 ‘a fresh, stoutish … pince-nez and dark clothes’: Aaron’s Rod, pp. 27–30
28 ‘Each might have been born’: Aaron’s Rod, p. 106
29 ‘was conditioned, like herself’: Bid Me to Live, p. 155
30 ‘Dis of the under-world’: Bid Me to Live, p. 141
31 ‘I don’t know why you and I’: Letters, 12 March 1918
32 ‘This notebook is a replica’: Bid Me to Live, p. 190
33 ‘it was not England … out of the world’: Bid Me to Live, p. 145
34 ‘Perhaps you would say’: Bid Me to Live, p. 176
35 ‘ghostly presences’: Tribute to Freud, p. 173
36 ‘We don’t want to be kicked out … so unapproachable?’: Bid Me to Live, p. 193
37 ‘Somewhere, somehow’: Bid Me to Live, p. 148
38 ‘they cannot stop you’: Bid Me to Live, p. 165
39 ‘a very visible’: Bid Me to Live, p. 158
40 ‘I have not seen Hilda for some time’: Letters, 18 June 1918
41 ‘on a sort of ledge’: Letters, 3 June 1918
42 ‘the passion of fighting’: D. H. Lawrence, Movements in European History, ed. Philip Crumpton (Cambridge University Press, 1989), p. 117
43 ‘Every man has two selves’: Movements in European History, p. 258
44 ‘an indescribable tone’: Kangaroo, p. 253
45 ‘ill and unhappy’: Triumph to Exile, p. 481
46 ‘I hope never to see you again’: Tribute to Freud, p. 134
47 ‘Poor Hilda’: Letters, 16 December 1918
48 ‘The wind is getting-up’: Letters, 29 November 1918
49 ‘A putrid disease’: Letters, 28 February 1919
50 ‘hail lashed down’: Kangaroo, p. 256
51 ‘not to care’: Richard Aldington, Life for Life’s Sake: A Book of Reminiscences (Cassell, 1968), pp. 233–4
52 ‘a grey, dreary grey coffin’: Kangaroo, p. 258