1 ‘November of the year 1916’: this fragment of an untitled novel was first published in The Princess and Other Stories, ed. Keith Sagar (Penguin, 1972) under the name ‘The Wilful Woman’. The edition used here is St Mawr and Other Stories, ed. Brian Finney (Cambridge University Press, 1987), pp. 199–203
2 ‘He had picked up a snake’: ‘The Wilful Woman’, p. 199
3 ‘The time is different there’: D. H. Lawrence, ‘A Little Moonshine with Lemon’, in Mornings in Mexico and Other Essays, ed. Virginia Crosswhite Hyde (Cambridge University Press, 2009), p. 97
4 ‘I had always regarded’: ‘Not I, But the Wind…’, p. 136
5 Intimate Memories: Mabel Dodge Luhan wrote twenty volumes of autobiography, four of which were published in her lifetime. These four volumes, which together compose the series she called Intimate Memories, are Background (1933), European Experiences (1935), Movers and Shakers (1936) and Edge of Taos Desert: An Escape to Reality (1937)
6 ‘wanted to write an American novel’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 52
7 ‘a big, white crow’: Letters, 5 December 1922
8 ‘she adored to change people’: Edward Lueders, Carl Van Vechten (Twayne, 1965), p. 29
9 ‘changed me forever’: D. H. Lawrence, ‘New Mexico’, in Mornings in Mexico and Other Essays, p. 176
10 ‘what I went through in my friendship’: Lorenzo in Taos, preface and p. 3
11 ‘like a papyrus … not quite heard music’: Lorenzo in Taos, pp. 4–5
12 ‘to get a little farm somewhere’: Letters, 8 November 1921
13 ‘a few leaves’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 5
14 ‘Why hurry with the hurrying world?’: Charles F. Lummis, The Land of Poco Tiempo (Charles Scribner’s, 1893), p. 3
15 ‘smelt the Indian scent’: Lorenzo in Taos, pp. 5–7
16 ‘strange, sinister spirit’: Sea and Sardinia, p. 55
17 ‘understand things for me … laughing, aloof, genius of Taos’: Lorenzo in Taos, pp. 3, 12
18 ‘The womb in me’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 37
19 ‘I foresaw’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 8
20 ‘I wonder which will give out first’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 255
21 ‘I also believe in Indians’: Lorenzo in Taos, pp. 12–13
22 ‘We were coming straight to you’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 15
23 ‘I couldn’t simply face America’: Letters, 4 March 1922
24 ‘we will go with you to Taos’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 16
25 ‘It is vile of us to put off Taos’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 16
26 ‘You want to send [A. A.] Brill to hell’: Letters, 28 January 1922
27 ‘He whom I was trying to draw to Taos’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 14
28 ‘I shall have to go to America at length’: Letters, 27 January 1922
29 ‘Quite why Lawrence suddenly changed his mind’: David Ellis, D. H. Lawrence: Dying Game: 1922–1930, vol. 3 of The Cambridge Biography of D. H. Lawrence (Cambridge University Press, 1997), p. 10
30 ‘Lawrence rewrote Koteliansky’s translation’: Nicholas Joost and Alvin Sullivan, D. H. Lawrence and The Dial (Southern Illinois University Press, 1970), p. 51
31 ‘gloomy and sultry depths of the inferno’: D. H. Lawrence (trans.), ‘“The Gentleman from San Francisco”, by Ivan Bunin’, in Phoenix II, pp. 198–212
32 ‘take a look’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 16
33 ‘most reasonably afraid’: Catherine Carswell, The Savage Pilgrimage: A Narrative of D. H. Lawrence (Chatto & Windus, 1932), p. 168
34 ‘would have been the death of me’: Letters, 4 March 1922
35 ‘AMERICA … knees lose their brassy strength’: Letters, 17 August 1921
36 ‘Poor Magnus’: Letters, 10 February 1922
37 ‘I did such a “Memoir” of Maurice Magnus’: Letters, 12 February 1922
38 ‘Oh painted carts’: Sea and Sardinia, p. 24
39 ‘Slowly came the evening’: Letters, 7 March 1922
40 ‘so comfortable’: Letters, 28 February 1922
41 ‘I feel … like a sea-bird must feel’: Letters, 8 March 1922
42 ‘Time passes like a sleep’: Letters, 7 March 1922
43 ‘long, slow lift’: Sea and Sardinia, p. 30
44 ‘I wished in my soul the voyage might last forever’: Sea and Sardinia, p. 30
45 ‘I do wonder how we shall feel when we get off ’: Letters, 7 March 1922
46 ‘I love trying things’: Letters, 15 May 1922
47 ‘the thick, choky feel of tropical forest’: Letters, 10 April 1922
48 ‘once asked me if I had heard’: Portrait of a Genius, But…, p. 248
49 ‘rat-hole temples’: Letters, 30 April 1922
50 ‘on the cinema’: Letters, 3 April 1922
51 ‘hat tight on his head’: A Composite Biography, vol. 2, p. 129
52 ‘They secretly hate him’ … ‘I find all dark people’: Letters, 30 March 1922, 10 April 1922
53 ‘a little apology to Psychoanalysis’: Psychoanalysis and the Unconscious and Fantasia of the Unconscious, p. 57
54 ‘I still am not quite sure where I am’: Letters, 25 March 1922
55 ‘his piercing blue eyes’: John Worthen, D. H. Lawrence: The Life of an Outsider (Penguin, 2005), p. 263
56 ‘the East doesn’t get me at all … I come across’: Letters, 10 April 1922
57 ‘in the heat’: Letters, 3 April 1922
58 ‘The magnetism is all negative’: Letters, 16 April 1922
59 ‘had never felt so sick in my life’: Letters, 15 May 1922
60 ‘Even at night you sweat’: Letters, 24 March 1922
61 ‘One sweats and sweats’: Letters, 17 April 1922
62 ‘the feeling that there is a lid down’: Letters, 16 April 1922
63 ‘It isn’t so much the heat’: Letters, 30 April 1922
64 ‘moment begins to heave’: ‘The Man Who Loved Islands’, p. 99
65 ‘one feel that our day is only a day’: D. H. Lawrence, ‘Herman Melville’s Moby Dick’, in Studies in Classic American Literature, p. 138
66 ‘No more of my tirades’: Letters, 30 April 1922
67 ‘Three months penalty for having forsworn Europe’: Kangaroo, p. 20
68 ‘It is strange and fascinating’: Letters, 30 April 1922
69 ‘high and blue and new’: Letters, 15 May 1922
70 ‘the most democratic place I have ever been in’: Letters, 13 June 1922
71 ‘little man’: A Composite Biography, vol. 2, p. 138
72 ‘so I feel quite at home’: A Composite Biography, vol. 2, p. 149
73 ‘haphazard and new’: Kangaroo, p. 27
74 ‘an Australian humorism’: A Composite Biography, vol. 2, p. 158
75 ‘The business of the novel’: D. H. Lawrence, ‘Morality and the Novel’, in Phoenix II, p. 527
76 ‘a thought adventure’: Kangaroo, p. 279
77 ‘gramophone of a novel’: Kangaroo, p. 280
78 ‘only just what I felt’: introduction to Kangaroo, p. lv
79 ‘Him! A lord and master!’: Kangaroo, pp. 192–5
80 ‘you lonely phoenix’: Kangaroo, p. 299
81 ‘Volcanic Evidence’: Kangaroo, pp. 155–6
82 ‘more lava fire’: Kangaroo, p. 262
83 ‘He had known such different deep fears’: Kangaroo, p. 212
84 ‘fern-dark indifference’: Kangaroo, p. 183
85 ‘Australianism in this book’: introduction to Kangaroo, p. lv
86 ‘willed him to come’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 35
87 ‘Lawrence!… this is the best’: David H. Usner, Indian Work: Language and Livelihood in Native American History (Harvard University Press, 2009), p. 121
88 ‘the Great American Mystery … opiate sun’: The Land of Poco Tiempo, pp. 3–5
89 ‘in its lovely, lonely … mythology’: The Land of Poco Tiempo, pp. 7–8
90 ‘Ay!… nineteen hundred years ago’: The Land of Poco Tiempo, pp. 99–100
91 ‘Very interesting’: Letters, 18 July 1922
92 ‘I became’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 35
93 ‘cold, snobbish’: the description was discarded from the first typescript of Kangaroo. See Kangaroo, textual apparatus, Note 358.7, pp. 476–7
94 ‘Ricordi’: Letters, 20 May 1922
95 ‘If you are thinking of coming here, don’t’: Letters, 22 August 1922
96 ‘the glamour of strangeness’: T. E. Lawrence, Seven Pillars of Wisdom (Dover Publications, 2018), p. 9
97 ‘to me a brown skin is the only beautiful one’: A Personal Record, p. 111
98 ‘These are supposed to be the earthly paradises’: Letters, 31 August 1922
99 ‘Crowd of cinema people’: Letters, 31 August 1922
100 ‘jeer at him’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 47
101 ‘soft puffy yellow fire’: St Mawr, in St Mawr and Other Stories, ed. Brian Finney (Cambridge University Press, 1987), p. 134
102 ‘long, slow flash of lightning’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 44
103 ‘Something stood still in my soul’: ‘New Mexico’, p. 175
104 ‘Never … is light more pure’: ‘New Mexico’, pp. 176–7
105 ‘a sort of never-stop Hades’: Letters, 6 September 1922
106 ‘live in the rapid and kaleidoscopic’: D. H. Lawrence, ‘Indians and Entertainment’, in Mornings in Mexico and Other Essays, p. 60
107 ‘it would mean dollars!’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 107
108 ‘And was not Ursula’s way’: Women in Love, p. 326
109 ‘forced, false … distraught’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 36
110 ‘an agony … limited’: Lorenzo in Taos, pp. 36–7
111 ‘“Oh, you and your hates”’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 39
112 ‘wrecking gang’: Sharyn Rohlfsen Udall, Spud Johnson and Laughing Horse (Sunstone Press, 2008), p. 98
113 ‘It’s your fault, Frieda!’: Witter Bynner, Journey with Genius: Recollections and Reflections Concerning the D. H. Lawrences (The John Day Company, 1951), p. 2
114 ‘flee each harbor’: Journey with Genius, p. 4
115 ‘The night had been the Lawrences’ first’: Journey with Genius, pp. 7–8
116 ‘headquarters for the future’: Mabel Luhan to John Collier, 21 November 1922, quoted in Lois Palken Rudnick, Mabel Dodge Luhan: New Woman, New Worlds (University of New Mexico Press, 1984), p. 179
117 ‘not supposed to exist’: Mabel Dodge Luhan & Company: American Moderns and the West, ed. Lois P. Rudnick (University of New Mexico Press, 2016), p. 123
118 ‘think with their heads’: Carl Jung, Memories, Dreams, Reflections (Vintage, 1989), p. 249
119 ‘swinging carelessly’: Mabel Dodge Luhan, Winter in Taos (Sunstone Books, 1934), p. 164
120 ‘one of those nasty little temples in India’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 45
121 ‘silent and seemingly unaware’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 49
122 ‘like looking from the top of a hill’: Letters, 22 September 1922
123 ‘one of the monasteries of Europe’: D. H. Lawrence, ‘Taos’, in Mornings in Mexico and Other Essays, p. 125
124 ‘Tony didn’t want to take Lawrence’: Lorenzo in Taos, pp. 47–8
125 ‘She was good company … something in myself, too’: Lorenzo in Taos, pp. 48–9
126 ‘was like travelling with the landscape’: Willa Cather, Death Comes for the Archbishop (University of Nebraska Press, 1999), p. 245
127 ‘Secret’: The Suppressed Memoirs of Mabel Dodge Luhan: Sex, Syphilis, and Psychoanalysis in the Making of Modern American Culture, ed. Lois Palken Rudnick (University of New Mexico Press, 2012), p. 142
128 ‘What are you doing?… went down it’: Suppressed Memoirs, p. 143
129 ‘filled with a secret’: Memories, Dreams, Reflections, p. 249
130 ‘take my experience, my material’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 70
131 ‘a small, blond Southerner’: New Woman, New Worlds, p. 173
132 ‘really likes Indians’: Winter in Taos, pp. 215–20
133 ‘recognition of Indian civil rights’: New Woman, New Worlds, p. 177
134 ‘I arrive in New Mexico at a moment of crisis’: D. H. Lawrence, ‘Certain Americans and an Englishman’, in Mornings in Mexico and Other Essays, p. 105
135 ‘it does not seem to me very good’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 54
136 ‘energy, time, and money’: New Woman, New Worlds, pp. 179–80
137 ‘We want interest and appreciation’: New Woman, New Worlds, p. 180
138 ‘there is no bridge…’: ‘Indians and Entertainment’, p. 61
139 ‘was much less vivid to him than the Inferno’: Movements in European History, p. 163
140 ‘Supposing one fell on to the moon’: ‘Indians and an Englishman’, in Mornings in Mexico and Other Essays, p. 112
141 ‘What holds the stars firm’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 171
142 ‘This narrative about Tony’: Edge of Taos Desert, in Intimate Memories: The Autobiography of Mabel Dodge Luhan, ed. Lois Palken Rudnick (University of New Mexico Press, 1999), p. 237
143 ‘the points of Indian tents’: ‘Indians and an Englishman’, p. 114
144 ‘old Spanish, Red Indian’: ‘New Mexico’, p. 176
145 ‘their strong-weak, strong-weak pulse … feels final’: ‘Indians and an Englishman’, p. 117
146 ‘up to the nose … in the air’: ‘Indians and an Englishman’, pp. 117–20
147 ‘flat shapes, exactly like men’: St Mawr, p. 131
148 ‘Internally, there is nothing’: Letters, 15 August 1923
149 ‘was annoyed that Frieda … across the world’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 52
150 ‘averted his eyes … with anyone else before’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 60
151 ‘were sinking down’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 251
152 ‘a secret life’: Suppressed Memoirs, p. 16
153 ‘a Leyden jar’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 64
154 ‘I hardly knew whose baby’: Suppressed Memoirs, p. 68
155 ‘YOU, lecturing ME’: Patricia R. Everett, Corresponding Lives: Mabel Dodge Luhan, A. A. Brill, and the Psychoanalytic Adventure in America (Karnac, 2016), p. 135
156 ‘driving his awkward body’: Suppressed Memoirs, pp. 69–71
157 ‘It was … as though I had never known Karl’: Suppressed Memoirs, p. 80
158 ‘Fly, my dear, fly’: Emily Hahn, Mabel: A Biography of Mabel Dodge Luhan (Houghton Mifflin, 1977), p. 149
159 ‘For the first time in my life’: Mabel, p. 100
160 ‘You are indeed the only one’: Corresponding Lives, p. 37
161 ‘My heart was pounding with impatience’: Intimate Memories, p. 189
162 ‘awakening at the different’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 63
163 ‘a complete, stark approximation’: Lorenzo in Taos, pp. 60–2
164 ‘Frieda thinks we ought to continue’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 63
165 ‘seduce’ Lawrence’s ‘spirit’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 69
166 ‘stamped around, sweeping noisily’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 64
167 ‘The meeting with Maurice’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 65
168 ‘put on to impress tourists … dead battery’: Mabel, p. 148
169 ‘You’ve got to remember’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 66
170 ‘Am doing a M. Sterne novel’: Letters, 6 October 1922
171 ‘There is a kind of vitality’: Lorenzo in Taos, p. 79
172 ‘America … makes me feel’: Letters, 14 August 1923