In the Laneway

Roberta Lowing

And voices come over the back fences, and the phttt phttt phttt

of the sprinkler throwing out streamers of crystals

past the bleached wooden posts

into the shadows

on the cracked path of the laneway.

The shadows are from the trees in the backyards

– there are no trees in the lane –

only tufts of grass between the cracks

and here and there, a yellow daisy

in the windless half-light. If you stretch your neck

you can just see the lucky people in the backyards.

They laugh in the sunlight, the wind lifts their hair,

their clothes are bright squares of colour.

But the ache in your neck means

you cannot strain for long; you drop back

to the hot dirt and look through the shadows

to where the lane rises into a darkness you’ve never noticed.

You walk past the yards, past entire lives lived

while you were sleeping, toward the slow murmur of the others

at the end of the laneway. But everyone who matters

is further ahead or hasn’t arrived. And you wonder,

Was all that writing about the dead a game? As the last crystal drop

disappears without a trace in the dirt at your feet, was it real

or was it a dream?

 

You wonder, Is the dirt at your feet real? The last crystal drop

disappearing without a trace must be a dream. Maybe

while you were sleeping, everyone who mattered

arrived and went further ahead.

If you walk past the slow murmur from the backyards,

you will surely find the others at the end of the laneway

beyond the rise where the shadows drop into darkness.

You cannot be bothered straining to look into the lives

of the people in their hot backyards: many will be sleeping. Why

stretch your luck when the world here has so many bright squares

of colour: tufts of grass, a yellow daisy. It is odd

the way the dappled shadows shift across the cracks:

there are no trees in the lane.

The windless half-light lies down

on the cracked path. And the stream of pale crystals that wet

the bleached wood posts are unstrung in the laneway. They fall

and are still as the sprinkler goes phttt … pht … tt … ph … t … t

and the voices over the back fences stop.