Chapter 24

Things lost, things lost . . .

 

. . . Things she had lost in the river: five shoes. Three lenses. A watch. A scarf. A small fortune. Her footing. Her favourite screwdriver. A tin of fruit. A tin of fish. Two gold fillings.

 

Things she had found in the river: purple stones, sheep bones. A leaf gone through to the veins. An oily rainbow. A piece of copperplate. Blue eggs floating in a nest. Fertiliser. Five oars. An upturned canoe.

 

Things she loved about the river: its endlessness. Its silvers and rusts. Its babbling that sounded like an old friend.

 

Things she hated about the river: its rushing. Its endless rushing.

 

Things she loved about the river: the cold in your teeth like biting on ice cream. The way the water was smooth one minute and the next minute pleated like the top of a curtain.

 

Things she hated about the river: how it could never make up its mind.

 

Things she had found in the river: a drowned kingfisher. A tripod. Salmon shouldering against the current. A newly hatched dragonfly drying out its wings, bright as a carnival.

 

Things she couldn’t stand about the river: its bloody-mindedness. How it churned everything up. How it reeled you in. How it reeled you in and didn’t let go.

 

Things she could tolerate about the river: how it rose up in rain and shrank back down in good weather.

 

Things she had lost in the river: years and years and years.

 

Things she had found in it: warm pools. Peace. Miles of meshed and mossy roots.