SCENE 7

My Song in the Street

Hester with the kids. They are all playing freeze tag.

After a bit, Hester is “it.” She runs then stops, standing stock-still, looking up into the sky.

Bully gets tagged.

Bully

1 Mississippi, 2 Mississippi, 3 Mississippi, 4 Mississippi, 5 Mississippi.

Jabber gets tagged.

Jabber

1 Mississippi, 2 Mississippi, 3 Mississippi, 4 Mississippi, 5 Mississippi. Yr it.

Hester gets tagged.

Hester

Hester

Jabber

Mommie?

Hester

What.

Bully

Whasswrong?

Hester

You think I like you bothering me all day?

Hester

Jabber/Bully/Trouble/Beauty

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Hester

All yall. Leave Mommie be. She cant play right now. Shes tired.

Hester stands there looking up into the sky.

The kids play apart.

Bully

Lemmie see it.

Trouble

What?

Bully

Yr pee.

Trouble

Bully

Bully

Dont got no hair or nothing on it yet. I got hair on mines.

Look.

TROUBLE

BULLY

Trouble

Jabber. Lets see yrs.

Trouble

Jabber

Bully

Bully

Its got hair. Not as much as mines though.

Beauty

I had hairs but they fell out.

Trouble

Like a bald man or something?

Beauty

Yeah.

Trouble

Trouble

Bully

Dont be touching yrself like that, Trouble, dont be nasty.

Trouble

Trouble

Jabber

You keep playing with it ssgonna fall off. Yr pee be laying in the street like a dead worm.

Trouble

Mommieeee!

Hester

Dont talk to Mommie just now.

Bully

Shes having a nervous breakdown.

Hester

Shut the fuck up, please.

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(Rest)

Jabber

When I grow up I aint never gonna use mines.

Trouble

Not me. I be using mines.

Jabber

Im gonna keep mines in my pants.

Bully

How you ever gonna get married?

Jabber

Im gonna get married but Im gonna keep it in my pants.

Bully

When you get married you gonna have to get on top uh yr wife.

Jabber

I’ll get on top of her all right but I’ll keep it in my pants.

Trouble

Jabber, you uh tragedy.

Bully

When I get married my husbands gonna get on top of me and—

Hester

No ones getting on top of you, Bully.

Bully

He’ll put the ring on my finger and I’ll have me uh white dress and he’ll get on top of me—

Hester

No ones getting on top of you, Bully, no ones getting on top of you, so shut yr mouth about it.

Trouble

How she gonna have babies if no one gets on top of her?

Hester

Dont make me hurt you!

Hester raises her hand to Trouble who runs off.

Bully starts crying.

Hester

Shut the fuck up or I’ll give you something to cry about!

The kids huddle together in a knot.

Hester

Jabber/Bully/Beauty

Hester

Jabber/Bully/Beauty

Hester

(Rest)

Hester

Bedtime.

Beauty

Its too early for bed—

Hester

BEDTIME!

They hurry off.

Hester goes back to contemplating the sky.

Hester

Hester

Hester

Hester

Big dark thing. Gods hand. Coming down on me. Blocking the light out. 5-fingered hand of fate. Coming down on me.

The Doctor comes on wearing his “SPAY” sandwich board.

He watches her looking up. After a bit he looks up too.

Doctor

We’ve scheduled you in for the day after tomorrow. First thing in the morning. You can send yr kids off to school then come on in. We’ll have childcare for the baby. We’ll give you good meals during yr recovery. Yll go to sleep.

Yll go to sleep and when you wake up, whisk! Yll be all clean. No worries no troubles no trials no tribulations no more mistakes. Clean as a whistle. You wont feel a thing. Day after tomorrow. First thing in the morning. Free of charge. Itll be our pleasure. And yours. All for the best.

In the long run, Hester. Congratulations.

The Doctor walks off. Hester is still looking up.

Chilli walks in with his picnic basket on his arm.

He pauses to check his pocket watch.

Hester lowers her head.

The sight of him knocks the wind out of her.

Hester

Oh.

Chilli

Ive been looking for you.

Hester

Oh.

Chilli

Ssbeen a long time.

Hester

I—I—.

Chilli

No need to speak.

Hester

I—

Chilli

Yr glad to see me.

Hester

Yeah.

Chilli

I been looking for you. Like I said. Lifes been good to me. Hows life been to you?

Hester

Ok. —. Hard.

Chilli

Hester

Hester

I was with the Welfare and I seed you. I called out yr name.

Chilli

I didnt hear you. Darn.

Hester

Yeah.

(Rest)

I woulda run after you but—

Chilli

But you were weak in the knees. And you couldnt move a muscle.

Hester

Running after you woulda gived you away. And Welfares been after me to know the names of my mens.

Chilli

Mens? More than one?

Hester

I seed you and I called out yr name but I didnt run after you.

(Rest)

You look good. I mean you always looked good but now you look better.

(Rest)

I didnt run after you. I didnt give you away.

Chilli

Thats my girl.

(Rest)

Welfare has my name on file, though, doesnt she?

Hester

From years ago. I—

Chilli

Not to worry couldnt be helped. I changed my name. Theyll never find me. Theres no trace of the old me left anywhere.

Hester

Cept Jabber.

Chilli

Who?

Hester

Yr son.

Hester

Chilli

Chilli

Guess what time it is?

Hester

He takes after you.

Chilli

Go on guess. Betcha cant guess. Go on.

Hester

Noon?

Chilli

Lets see. I love doing this. I love guessing the time and then pulling out my watch and seeing how close I am or how far off. I love it. I spend all day doing it. Doctor says its a tick. A sure sign of some disorder. But I cant help it. And it doesnt hurt anyone. You guessed?

Hester

Noon.

Chilli

Lets see. Ah! 3.

Hester

Oh.

Hester goes back to contemplating the sky.

Chilli

Sorry.

(Rest)

Whats up there?

Hester

Nothing.

Chilli

I want you to look at me. I want you to take me in. Ive been searching for you for weeks now and now Ive found you. I wasnt much when you knew me. When we knew each other I was—I was a shit.

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I was a shit, wasnt I?

Hester

Chilli

Chilli

I was a shit, agree with me.

Hester

We was young.

Chilli

We was young. We had a romance. We had a love affair. We was young. We was in love. I was infatuated with narcotics. I got you knocked up then I split.

Hester

Jabber, hes yr spitting image. Only hes a little slow, but—

Chilli

Who?

Hester

Jabber. Yr son.

Chilli

Dont bring him into it just yet. I need time. Time to get to know you again. We need time alone together. Guess.

Hester

3:02.

Chilli

Ah! 3:05. But better, yr getting better. Things move so fast these days. Ive seen the world Ive made some money Ive made a new name for myself and I have a loveless life. I dont have love in my life. Do you know what thats like? To be alone? Without love?

Hester

I got my childr—I got Jabber. hes my treasure.

Hester

Chilli

(Rest)

Chilli

Im looking for a wife.

Hester

Oh.

Chilli

I want you to try this on.

Chilli takes a wedding dress out of his basket.

He puts it on her, right over her old clothes.

Hester rearranges the club, still held in her belt, to get the dress on more securely.

Hester

I seed you and I called out your name, but you didnt hear me, and I wanted to run after you but I was like, Hester, if Welfare finds out Chillis in town they gonna give him hell so I didnt run. I didnt move a muscle. I was mad at you. Years ago. Then I seed you and I was afraid I’d never see you again and now here you are.

Chilli

What do you think?

Hester

Its so clean.

Chilli

It suits you.

Hester gets her shoes.

Hester

I got some special shoes. Theyd go good with this. Jabber, come meet yr daddy!

Chilli

Not yet, kid!

(Rest)

Lets not bring him into this just yet, K?

He fiddles with his watch.

Chilli

14 years ago. Back in the old neighborhood. You and me and the moon and the stars. What was our song?

Hester

Chilli

Hester

Huh?

Chilli

What was our song?

(Rest)

Da dee dah, dah dah dee dee?

Hester

Its been a long time.

Chilli

Listen.

Chilli plays their song, “The Looking Song,” on a tinny tape recorder. He sings along as she stands there. After a bit he dances and gets her to dance with him. They sing as they dance and do a few moves from the old days.

Chilli

Im looking for someone

to lose my looks with

looking for someone

to lose my shape with

looking for someone

to-get-my-hip-replaced with

looking for someone

Could it be you?

Im looking for someone

to lose my teeth with

looking for someone

to go stone deef with

looking for someone

to-lie-6-feet-underneath with

looking for someone

Could it be you?

They say, “Seek and ye shall find”

so I will look until Im blind

through this big old universe

for rich or poor better or worse

Singing:

yuck up my tragedy

oh darling, marry me

let’s walk on down the aisle, walk on

Down Down Down.

Cause Im looking for someone

to lose my looks with

looking for someone

to lose my teeth with

looking for someone

I’ll-lie-6-feet-underneath with

looking for someone

Could it be you?

Theyre breathless from dancing.

Chilli

This is real. The feelings I have for you, the feelings you are feeling for me, these are all real. Ive been fighting my feelings for years. With every dollar I made. Every hour I spent. I spent it fighting. Fighting my feelings. Maybe you did the same thing. Maybe you remembered me against yr will, maybe you carried a torch for me against yr better judgment.

Hester

You were my first.

Chilli

Likewise.

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He silently guesses the time and checks his guess against his watch.

Is he right or wrong?

Chilli

“Yuck up my tragedy.”

Hester

Huh?

Chilli

“Marry me.”

Hester

Chilli

Hester

K.

Chilli

There are some conditions some things we have to agree on. They dont have anything to do with money. I understand your situation.

Hester

And my—

Chilli

And your child—ok. Our child—ok. These things have to do with you and me. You would be mine and I would be yrs and all that. But I would still retain my rights to my manhood. You understand.

Hester

Sure. My—

Chilli

Yr kid. We’ll get to him. I would rule the roost. I would call the shots. The whole roost and every single shot. Ive proven myself as a success. Youve not done that. It only makes sense that I would be in charge.

Hester

—K.

(Rest)

I love you.

Chilli

Would you like me to get down on my knees?

Chilli gets down on his knees, offering her a ring.

Chilli

Heres an engagement ring. Its rather expensive. With an adjustable band. If I didnt find you I would have had to, well—. Try it on, try it on.

Chilli checks his watch. As Hester fiddles with the ring, Bully and Trouble rush in. Beauty and Baby follow them.

Bully

Mommie!

Hester

No.

Trouble

You look fine!

Hester

No.

Beauty

Is that a diamond?

Hester

No!

Baby

Mommie!

Hester recoils from her kids.

Hester

Bully/Trouble/Beauty/Baby

Bully

Mommie?

Chilli

Who do we have here, honey?

Hester

Bully/Trouble/Beauty/Baby

Chilli

Who do we have here?

Hester

The neighbors kids.

Chilli goes to look at his watch, doesnt.

Chilli

Honey?

Hester

Bully, wheres Jabber at?

Chilli

Honey?

Hester

Bully, Im asking you a question.

Chilli

Honey?

Trouble

hes out with Miga.

Chilli

So you all are the neighbors kids, huh?

Trouble

Who the fuck are you?

Hester

Trouble—

Chilli

Who the fuck are you?

Bully

We the neighbors kids.

Chilli

Hester

(Rest)

Chilli

Honey?

Hester

Huh?

Chilli

Im—. I’m thinking this through. I’m thinking this all the way through. And I think—I think—.

(Rest)

(Rest)

I carried around this picture of you. Sad and lonely with our child on yr hip. Stuggling to make do. Stuggling against all odds. And triumphant. Triumphant against everything.

Like—hell, like Jesus and Mary. And if they could do it so could my Hester. My dear Hester. Or so I thought.

(Rest)

But I dont think so.

Chilli takes her ring and her veil.

He takes her dress. He packs up his basket.

(Rest)

Hester

Please.

Chilli

Im sorry.

Chilli looks at his watch, flipping it open and then snapping it shut. He leaves.

FIFTH CONFESSION: CHILLI

“We Was Young”

Chilli

We was young

and we didnt think

we didnt think that nothing we could do would hurt us

nothing we did would come back to haunt us

we was young and we knew all about gravity but gravity was a law that did not apply to those persons under the age of 18

gravity was something that came later

and we was young and we could

float

weightless

I was her first

and zoom to the moon if we wanted and couldnt nothing stop us

we would go

fast

and we were gonna live forever

and any mistakes we would shake off

we were Death Defying

we were Hot Lunatics

careless as all get out

and she needed to keep it and I needed to leave town.

People get old that way.

(Rest)

We didnt have a car and everything was pitched toward love in a car

and there was this car lot down from where we worked and

we were fearless

late nights go sneak in those rusted Buicks that hadnt moved in years

I would sit at the wheel and pretend to drive

and she would say she felt the wind in her face

surfing her hand out the window

then we’d park

without even moving

in the full light of the lot

making love—

She was my first.

We was young.

Times change.