JOS WAS on pins and needles. He’d called his aunt and was still wondering if she was going to call back. She did, finally, after a whole day and said she would come to dinner. Neither of them had said a word about the nebulous custody battle. Jos still hadn’t heard anything official, and he hoped he could head this off.
“Should we serve wine?” Jos asked.
“Let’s have some in case your aunt likes it.” Kip smiled. “Maybe a few belts will loosen her up.”
Kip chuckled, and Jos did as well. Over the past week, Jos had begun to feel comfortable in his own skin. It was a new feeling for him, but it was good. Work was going well, and Social Security had approved survivor benefits for Isaac. It seemed when enough people pushed for something and knew how to work the system, things happened. He’d been told it would be a few months before he began getting the money, but it was coming. His life—their life—was coming together.
A knock cracked on the front door. Jos jumped slightly, and Kip stroked his shoulder. “Remember the plan and don’t let her get to you. We have a purpose.” He smiled as Isaac raced through the house and opened the front door.
“Aunt Kathy,” Isaac said happily.
Jos cringed slightly, but he’d kept everything that was happening from Isaac, so a visit from their aunt was just another person Isaac knew coming to visit. When Jos and Kip entered the hall, Isaac had his arms wrapped around her legs, and she patted his head uncomfortably. Something about this picture did not make sense at all to him. “Come and see my pony.” Isaac took her by the hand and began pulling her toward the living room.
“Pony?” Aunt Kathy said. “Oh, your toy,” she said from the other room.
Jos hurried to the kitchen and got the plate of meat, cheese, and crackers that Kip had made and set it on the coffee table.
“Is this where you live?” Aunt Kathy asked.
“It’s Kip’s house, yes, but I just got an apartment, and Isaac and I will be moving there in a few days.” He had a place to live, a job, and Isaac was cared for while he was at work. “Kip was good enough to take us in and help us.” Jos sat down. “Would you like something to drink? I have some wine, or there is also water and soda.”
“Me too?” Isaac said.
“I have juice for you,” Jos told Isaac and excused himself. He got the cup from the refrigerator and brought it to Isaac. By then Kip had left to get some wine, and he returned with three glasses and handed each of them one.
“What do you do?” Jos asked, sitting down. He wasn’t going to let on that he’d investigated her.
“I plan weddings,” she answered. “How is the job going?”
“I really like it. They pay me pretty well, and I’m good at my job, so I make pretty good tips. Darryl and Billy own Café Belgie and two other restaurants in town. One is Greek and the other Italian. Darryl really knows his business, and this past week they needed help at Napoli so I got an extra shift there.”
“Who watches Isaac? You certainly don’t leave him alone, and he must work interesting hours,” she said, gesturing toward Kip.
“He goes to a day care that doubles as a preschool. I get vouchers for day care, and that helps a lot. A friend helped me find an apartment I can afford. As I become more established, I’ll become more self-sufficient.” Jos sipped from his glass, and he could almost see his aunt calculating behind her eyes. “Isaac and I were having a difficult time of it, but I think we’re on the right track now.”
“So you don’t plan on living here?” she asked, looking around. “With him.”
“Kip offered,” Jos answered warmly. He liked that Kip had made him the offer. “But in the end he and I decided to take things slow. I’ll get my own apartment, and we’ll date.”
She nodded. “It sounds as though you have everything thought out.”
“I have to. Isaac deserves the best home I can get for him.” Jos glanced to where Isaac was playing on the floor. “It’s so good to see him happy.” He lifted his gaze back to Kip and saw him tilt his head toward his aunt. “What sorts of weddings do you plan?”
“Whoever can afford me,” she added and cleared her throat. “I started the business ten years ago. I needed something to occupy my time, and I was always good at throwing parties.”
Jos glanced over at Kip and then back to his aunt. “What did you do before you started the business?”
“This and that,” his aunt answered evasively. “I don’t know what your mother ever told you about how we grew up, but she and I each had a trust fund from our parents. When your mother got hers, she spent most of it very quickly.” Aunt Kathy seemed to have eaten something distasteful. Jos knew his mother was no saint, but his aunt’s disdain was perfectly clear, and it hurt. “I was careful. I got an education, lived simply, and worked hard. If you must know, I taught school for a few years and worked in a library for a while. I was put in charge of the library fundraisers and found I could throw a great party. Eventually I used the money from the trust to start the business.”
“That sounds really nice,” Jos said. “I’m working hard too. You probably know Mom didn’t leave much, so I’m building my own life and one for Isaac without the help you had.” Jos kept his head high. He’d come a long way in a short time.
“I think it’s only fair to tell you—”
“What?” Jos interrupted. “That you think you can give Isaac a better life than I can?” Isaac whined softly at the tone and hurried over, standing between Jos’s knees. “Children need a lot more than money and things. They need love and care, and you can’t give him that.” Jos put an arm around Isaac’s chest, holding him to him. “You saw how he greeted you. Isaac was happy to see you. He’d only met you once, but he greeted you like an old friend, and you treated him like he was a leper.”
“I’ve never had children.”
“Is that why you want to try to take him?” Jos asked, veering off the script they had prepared. “Because you have to know that it won’t happen. I have a job, a place to live, Isaac has friends at day care, and we’re building a life.”
“Kathy,” Kip interrupted. “Your lawyer has to have warned you how difficult what you’re trying to do is going to be. The courts aren’t going to give you custody of Isaac over his mother’s express wishes.”
“Is that why you asked me here? To try to convince me to drop my bid for custody?” she asked, setting down her glass.
“No,” Jos said. “I asked you here because you’re our only relative. Neither of us knows you very well.” Jos tried to get the conversation back on plan. “You’re our aunt, and we have no other relatives. What I don’t understand is why you want to take Isaac away instead of trying to help us. You could be part of both our lives instead of trying to tear our family apart.” Jos held Isaac a little tighter. “We need you, but not like this.”
Aunt Kathy looked at all of them and then stood up. “I think I need to be going now.”
“No. I think you need to sit down and hear what Jos has to say,” Kip said in the same tone he’d used that first night when he told Tyler to get on the ground. It was a tone that was hard not to obey, and Jos watched Aunt Kathy slowly lower herself back into the chair. “I don’t know what’s going on yet, but you do realize I will get to the bottom of whatever it is you’re trying to hide.” Kip’s gaze was hard as stone, and Jos felt a chill for a second. He hoped that look was never leveled at him.
“I have no idea what you’re talking about,” Aunt Kathy said, holding her shiny black purse on her knees as though it was a shield.
“I think you do. The economy has taken quite a toll on your business in the last few years. Brides who used to pay a fortune for your services have cut back. Some are doing it themselves and others are making do with less. In a business like yours, built on excess, that has to hurt.”
“I don’t need to stay here and—”
“I think you do,” Kip countered, and Jos watched, wondering where Kip was going with this. It was obvious that Kip had hit on something. His aunt had paled slightly, and her knuckles were whiter than they had been, especially where the leather of her bag was now creased from where she gripped it.
“I’ll dig as deep as I have to, and so will some of my friends. They’re experts at finding nuggets of information, including details about your business.”
“Those records are not public. How could you possibly know how my business is doing?” Aunt Kathy snapped.
“I didn’t,” Kip said. “You just told me.” He turned to Jos and smiled. “So I bet a costly legal battle isn’t going to do you any good. And it will be very costly—we will see to that. A month ago, when you first found Jos and Isaac and did nothing, you might have been able to help them. Instead you had a detective report back to you. You didn’t lift a finger to help them. Why?”
Aunt Kathy shook.
“Whatever you’re hiding, I will find it, and then I’ll use it to our best advantage and your worst. If it’s even remotely illegal, or just smells bad, I’ll make sure you face charges, and then what will happen to your business? Your business will turn around if you can hang on long enough, but if your reputation is damaged, you’ll never recover.” Kip stepped back. “I think you should go now and think about what you truly want.”
Jos’s aunt got to her feet. She was visibly shaken and said she thought staying for dinner wasn’t appropriate. Kip seemed dang pleased with himself. Isaac looked at each of them in turn, clearly confused.
“Say good-bye,” Jos whispered.
Isaac nodded. “Bye, Aunt Kathy.” He didn’t move for a few seconds until Jos prodded him. Isaac pulled Weeble off the sofa and tucked him under his arm before approaching his aunt. This time Aunt Kathy knelt down and hugged Isaac gently. She was clearly still uncomfortable, but she was making an effort. “Bye-bye.”
Jos walked his aunt to the door. Neither of them said a word, and his aunt fumbled slightly as she stepped outside. “Are you staying at the bed-and-breakfast again?” Jos asked as he followed his aunt out onto the porch.
“Yes. I’ll be leaving in the morning,” she told him. She descended the stairs and shuffled down the walk. Jos stood under the porch light, watching as she got into her Lexus and then drove away down the street.
“What was all that about?” Jos asked when Kip came up behind him. “Did Carter call you about something?”
“Nothing other than the last time he and I talked, but he mentioned that her business must be tough right now, and that got me thinking. There was something about the way she sat and how nervous she was. She didn’t want to talk about herself or the business that she should be so proud of, so I took a shot and hit pay dirt.” Kip chuckled. “I didn’t think it would be that easy.”
“Do you think she’ll give up now?”
“She looked pretty defeated, and she has to see that you and Isaac have a home and a life now. There is nothing for her to gain, but…. I’m still wondering what’s behind it. She had a reason and something she wanted.”
“How will we find out?”
“Carter. He’ll dig into it.” Kip took his hand. “We should go back inside and see what Isaac is up to, and get some dinner. We spent enough time making it—we might as well enjoy it.”
Jos nodded and let go of a sigh of relief. “I hope this is over.”
“I do too. But my instincts are telling me that we’re missing something. I’ll talk to Carter tomorrow and see if he has any ideas. For now, though, we aren’t going to worry about it.” He smiled and pulled Jos close to him.
“We’re outside and don’t want to scare the neighbors,” Jos whispered, and Kip moved in for a kiss.
“They can call the police, then,” Kip told him and then cut off his amused chuckle with a kiss that curled Jos’s toes. If anyone was watching, they got an eyeful, especially when Kip slid his hands down his back and grabbed his buttcheeks, pressing them tighter together.
“Ewww, kissing,” Isaac called from the doorway.
Kip pulled his lips away, chuckled, and then kissed him again. Jos closed his eyes, reveling in the salty richness of Kip’s lips. He was safe, and he realized he’d felt that way for a while. Kip made him feel as though nothing could touch him and that no matter what happened he’d be there for him—for both of them.
“Yucky,” Isaac said, and Kip released Jos. They shared a warm smile, and then Kip raced to Isaac, scooping him up to giggles that echoed through the house and out into the night. Jos shivered from the fall chill and went back inside, closing the door, shutting out the cold.
The house looked, felt, and sounded warm. Jos couldn’t help thinking that a few weeks ago he’d been on the other side of that door, out in the cold with no one. Now he was on the inside with Kip, where everything seemed right. When he and Kip had talked a few days ago, he’d thought he needed to be on his own, to make it himself independently. But now he wasn’t so sure that was what he wanted. All the good things that had happened to him had been because of Kip. What if he couldn’t take care of himself and Isaac? What if he moved in with Kip and things didn’t work out? Jos knew he had to be able to survive on his own. Jos cared about Kip a lot, and in a way he loved him for everything he’d done for them. But was what he felt based on relief or something more? All these questions raced through his head like cars on a superhighway of angst and uncertainty. The truth was that he didn’t trust himself at the moment to make the right decisions. Kip and his friends had guided him in the right direction so far, and he’d allowed them to. He trusted Kip, but what if he couldn’t make the hard decisions when he needed to? What kind of partner would he be for Kip? Hell, that raised the question of whether Kip even thought of him as a partner. Maybe Kip only liked him because Jos needed him.
“Jos, it’s time to eat,” Isaac said and grabbed his hand. “Come on,” he coaxed, and he dragged Jos out of his thoughts and toward the dining room. He and Kip hadn’t expected things to go as they had with his aunt, so everything was set for a classy dinner. Kip grabbed the dishes and plates and carried them into the kitchen. Isaac climbed up into his usual place, and as soon as everything was in, Kip began dishing up. As soon as food hit Isaac’s plate, he began to eat. More than anything else, that was a reminder of what Jos had put his brother through.
“Hey,” Kip said softly, and Jos pulled himself back to the present. “You okay?”
“Yeah. Just thinking too much,” Jos answered.
“Don’t worry. Whatever your aunt decides to do, we’ll be ready for it.” Kip pulled out the chair, and Jos sat down. He remembered that he was always safe with Kip and did his best to put the questions and worries aside, at least for the moment.
ONCE THEY were done eating, Jos helped Kip clean up, and then he took Isaac upstairs for a bath. He splashed and played in the tub, nearly soaking Jos in the process. They both ended up laughing until they were hoarse, and once Jos got Isaac dry and into his nightclothes, he put him to bed with his stuffed friends.
“I like it here with Uncle Kip,” Isaac said. “He’s nice… even if you kiss him.” Isaac made his yucky face and then giggled. “Why do you and Uncle Kip kiss?” he asked once Jos was about to turn out the light.
“Because we like each other.”
“I like him, but I don’t kiss him,” Isaac said logically.
“See, I like you and I kiss you,” Jos said and leaned over Isaac, planting a big smacking kiss on his forehead. “Don’t worry—you’ll understand about grown-ups when you’re older. I promise. Now try to go to sleep.” Isaac sat up and wound his small arms around Jos’s neck. This show of affection and trust from his brother always left a lump in his throat. Isaac was the best part of his life, and just the thought that he might not always be there was enough to rip at Jos’s heart.
Isaac lay back down, and Jos pulled up the covers and kissed his brother on the forehead again, lightly this time. “Good night.”
Jos stood and left the room, closing the door partway and turning off the hall light. He thought about going downstairs to look for Kip, but instead he went into the bedroom himself. He was really tired. His job was very physical, and on his day off he usually tried to rest, but he had been on edge all day because of his aunt’s impending visit and hadn’t been able to lie down. So instead of going back downstairs, Jos lay on the bed with one of the books Kip had loaned him to read.
He must have fallen asleep. When he slid his eyes open, he found the book resting on his chest and Kip gazing down at him.
“Everything is locked up.” Kip removed the book and set it on the nightstand. Then he leaned closer. The kiss began gently, but deepened quickly, turning heavy and deep within seconds.
Jos forgot about his questions and doubts when Kip held him and slowly divested him of his clothes. Jos was too busy soaking in the attention from Kip to reciprocate, but Kip took care of that quickly enough and joined him in bed.
“Everything is going to be okay. I’m here and I’m not going anywhere,” Kip said.
“How can you say that?” Jos asked. “You’ve only known me for a few weeks. How do you know that you’re going to want me around all the time? What if you get tired of me?”
Kip took Jos’s hand and placed it on his chest. “Can you feel that? It’s my heart racing like I just ran a marathon. You make it do that just by looking at me. Whenever I see you sitting in the living room with your head in a book, I have to remember that Isaac is in the house or otherwise I’d strip you naked right there and take you on the floor. It’s what I always want to do.” Kip released his hand and nuzzled the base of Jos’s neck. Jos stretched to give him better access, and Kip took advantage, sucking at the base just hard enough that Jos quivered on the bed. “See. You’re not the only one who can go looking for those kind of spots.” Kip chuckled and then licked the spot again. “You’re going to have a mark there.”
“Kip. If Billy sees it, he’ll know how I got it and….”
“I know he will, and everyone will know you’re mine and that I care enough and want you enough to mark you like that.”
“Is it a macho thing?” Jos asked, remembering how Kip had given himself to him. Kip was a guy who definitely liked to be in control.
“No. It’s a Josten thing. I can’t get enough of you.” Kip wiped his cheek. Jos had no idea why he was tearing up. “I’m not going to ask you to stay here with me—I understand that you need to be on your own for a while.”
“But I’ll know you’re here,” Jos said and pulled Kip into a kiss. “And that doesn’t mean we can’t visit.”
“And have sleepovers?” Kip asked, wriggling his hips, sliding his cock against Jos’s, sending a shot of ecstasy through him.
“Definitely sleepovers,” Jos agreed, and Kip got down to the sleepover part of the evening and very quickly had Jos forgetting about aunts, worries, questions, and everything else except the way Kip touched him, sending tingles through him. Kip rolled him over and found a spot just above his butt that if he rubbed a certain way had Jos humping the mattress like a madman and whining into the pillow. When Kip rolled him back over and slid two fingers into him, Jos gasped, and when those fingers were replaced by Kip slowly sliding into him, filling him up to the point he could hardly gasp for breath, Jos knew he was in heaven.
The way Kip looked at him, remaining connected with his eyes as well as his cock, sent Jos into instant orbit. All he wanted was more of what Kip had to give, and he got it.
“Jesus,” Jos whispered when Kip changed the angle and made his head spin.
“I know I’ll never get tired of you because I… I just know it.” Kip was mumbling and driving into him. Jos didn’t bother to correct his circular logic. All he did was hold on for the ride of his life.