THE OFFICE DOOR was already open as Kearton approached, and the same petty officer, a yeoman of signals, was waiting to greet him.
He glanced at the drops of rain on Kearton’s uniform.
“I see you dodged the worst of it, sir, but it looks as if we’re in for another downpour at any minute. Don’t have to keep you waiting this time, either.”
Kearton looked around. Exactly as he remembered it: same chairs, and a few magazines, the tape pasted across the windows, even the smell of paint. But the glass was streaked with rain, cutting through the dust, and the sky was grey, more like evening than eight o’clock in the morning.
The base was already wide awake, with men on the march, sloshing through the puddles, and the occasional bugle call, or the impatient rasp of orders or information from a tannoy system.
His own energy surprised him; he should have felt exhausted. A few hours’ sleep, encouraged by some of Garrick’s fine Scotch, then the inevitable hand on his shoulder, and he was ready to move. He had met the other M.T.B. officers, but only briefly, before making a list of repairs for the maintenance staff to check, and had even managed to swallow some fresh coffee before coming ashore.
He had looked back once in the grey light at the ragged scars along the hull, the splintered mahogany red against the stains. Perhaps it was still not hitting him: his mind had been so geared up for their final run back that what had happened was still being held at bay. Sooner or later, something had to snap.
He realized that the petty officer had halted by the other door.
“Good to have you back, sir.” It seemed what he had intended to say from the beginning. “Me and some of the lads went down to see you come alongside yesterday. You did us proud. Not just us.” He gestured toward the window. “After all the shit and bombing these people have had to put up with—” He looked away and rapped on the other door.
Lieutenant-Commander Eric Brice crossed the room to meet him. Easily, unhurriedly. As if he were more at home here, bombs or not, than in a small warship that still stank of burning and cordite.
“You’re bright and early, Bob!” They shook hands. “The Boss is still away, I’m afraid. But he’s bang up to date with everything.” He patted Kearton’s shoulder as he took the indicated chair. “Sends you his warmest greetings.” He smiled, and it made him look younger. “And he meant it, believe me.”
He moved to the desk. It was bare but for one slim file. There was no ashtray.
“It’s all laid on for the dockyard people to run some repairs. They’ll start tomorrow.” He was studying the file. “Early. No other damage. Engines, communications—” He tapped the file. “The R/T plays up?” Turning over a sheet. “Well, pretty marvellous, when I consider what you achieved. Bloody marvellous, really. Not surprised the Boss is cock-a-hoop about it.”
The telephone rang noisily. “Can’t very well pretend I’m not here, can I?” He picked it up, said, “Brice, Operations,” and seemed to straighten in his chair. “Yes, sir. No, I’d not forgotten, sir. Government House? Of course. Thank you, sir.” He put it down. “I sometimes think he actually expects me to bow to him!” And he laughed.
In the next breath, he was serious again. “The good news is that you’re getting two new boats, not one, as was first reported. Arrival time, a couple of days, unless … Well, we won’t use that word.”
He laced his fingers together and gazed across the desk.
“By the way, Bob, I stood in for you when that young sailor was buried. I thought it was only right.”
Kearton guessed he had waited until now, when they were alone: another side to this man who could carry his responsibility with enough gravity to satisfy Garrick, but still keep himself human.
Brice was saying, “There was a naval guard from the base, and a bugler. Not much, but it meant something, I think.” He snapped his fingers, different again. “Oh, and the base sent a splendid wreath. A nice gesture. Thought you might have known about it?”
Kearton recalled the letter, which he had reread yet again before stepping ashore. Very short, three lines. That she would be away from Valletta for a few days. That she might be attending Irwin’s funeral. Then, underlined, Do take care of yourself.
Nothing about herself.
Brice said abruptly, “On the unpleasant subject of death … the Intelligence chaps ran the rule over the corpse you brought back with you. No identification—there wouldn’t be, of course—but a tattoo, which was recognized. And there was a Mills 36 grenade inside his shirt, primed and ready. For himself or his attackers, we shall never know.” He gave a wintry smile. “Luckily the pin held fast when your chaps hauled him out of the drink!”
He stood up and walked to the window.
“Coming down like stair rods.” He seemed to recall what he had been saying. “Seems such a tiny gesture in the face of your massive explosion …”
Kearton felt his hands tighten around the arms of his chair.
“There must have been even more mines aboard the lighter than we thought.” Brice was still watching the rain. “Broke every bloody window for miles. Time they got a taste of their own medicine.”
“How did you hear that?”
Brice did not turn. He shrugged, as if it had not occurred to him.
“The Boss kept in close touch at every stage of the operation. It was a great success, but there was always the risk it might go pear-shaped. Only your M.T.B.s were ready and available—smaller boats lack the range and endurance. It was a daring operation, as well you know. Better than anyone.”
Kearton said, “Jethro?”
Brice nodded. “It will be forgotten after this.”
Kearton released his grip and rubbed the palm of his hand on his knee. Forgotten … But what about those who had served and trusted him, and had died because of it?
“Dick Garrick will be back tomorrow, possibly tonight. I’ll be the last to know.” Brice turned from the window. “I’ll lay odds he’ll be shouting for you as soon as he hits base, so be prepared!”
They walked to the door, Kearton’s wavy stripes, and Brice’s straight. They were always having the difference rammed home to them in Coastal Forces. You’re still the amateurs …
Brice said, “See you tomorrow,” and paused, looking at him keenly. “You did a fine job, Bob. But watch your step.”
The telephone was ringing again. Afterwards, Kearton wondered which one of them it had saved.
The outer office was still empty. Maybe Brice was regarded as second-best while the Boss was unavailable.
He went to the window and looked through the tape at the abandoned garden. Nothing had changed, except the ornamental pond had half-filled with rainwater, and it gave life to the place. He wondered what had happened to the people who had lived or worked here before it had been commandeered by the navy. Like all the other places he had seen, bombed, derelict, abandoned. What had it been like here before the war?
There was no point in thinking about it. That life was gone.
He straightened, unconsciously bracing himself. Back to the jetty: they would all be waiting to hear what he had discovered. That two more boats would be joining them, eventually. That repairs would be given top priority. That, in the meantime, local leave would still be restricted. That would be the worst piece of news. One look at the clouds was enough to tell him he would be drenched by the time he got around to telling them anything.
“Glad I caught you, sir. Thought you might have gone somewhere to celebrate!”
Kearton gathered his thoughts, and smiled.
“What can I do for you, Yeo? Nothing serious, I hope?”
“Well, it’s like this, sir.” He leaned closer, conspiratorially. “We got a phone call, on our special line. Someone asking to speak to you. Didn’t want anybody else. Against all standing orders, sir, but as it was for you …” He broke off, staring at the other door. “A lady, sir.”
“Thanks, Yeo. Between us, then?”
He followed the petty officer out of the anteroom. Brice was still on the telephone, making sparse comments, obviously speaking to someone very senior. Taking the flak for Garrick.
It was the same staircase. A workman was measuring carpet exactly where he had seen her, looking up at him, past Garrick.
“In the lobby, sir. I wrote down the number, just in case.” He glared at the workman. “Waste of time, if you ask me. The whole place is a shambles.” Then he grinned. “But it still beats Chatham any day!”
The lobby was more of a box than a room, with a shelf for outgoing signals or messages and a window overlooking the approach road, from which two figures in oilskins were visible, sheltering inside the garishly painted checkpoint.
Kearton sat by a small table and looked at the solitary telephone.
“Here, sir.” The petty officer was flattening a piece of crushed paper on the table. “I’ve told ’em to put you through, no arguments.”
The door opened, only halfway, but even so, it almost touched the opposite wall.
“’E’s buzzin’ for you, Yeo! There’s a flap on!”
“I’ll leave you to it, sir.” He might almost have winked. “Good luck.”
“Putting you through.”
Kearton stared at the pencilled number. It meant nothing to him. There was no ringing tone, only a few clicks, and the faint sound of someone speaking on another line.
“Still trying.”
A mistake, or a change of heart. Like the little note. Polite. Careful.
The table vibrated under his elbow as a large truck ground to a halt near the checkpoint, its bonnet steaming, water splashing down to join the deep puddles on the road.
“Who is that?” As if she were right here, beside him.
“It’s me, Bob Kearton.” The truck was revving its engine, the driver leaning out to yell at the checkpoint. “I’m sorry. I thought …”
He repeated, “It’s me!” The engine had stopped, and he realized he had been shouting. “Glynis, just got your message. Wonderful to hear your voice. We got in yesterday.” The line clicked, like a warning, and he said, “I got your letter, too. It meant such a lot.”
“I knew you were here.” She hesitated, perhaps expecting the warning click on the line. Careless talk … “Are you all right? Please tell me.”
“I’m fine. I’ve been thinking about you. Wishing we’d had more time together. I just wanted you to know.” He saw the truck beginning to move again. More noise, the table shaking. What was the point? She was married.
“Are you still there?” She sounded tense, and there were voices in the background. She had told him about sharing a new address after the bombing.
“I want to see you again, Glynis. To tell you how I feel—”
The line seemed dead. How could he blame her? If only …
“Have you finished?” The metallic, operator’s voice again.
But she spoke. “I must go.” He could hear her breathing. “If you’re sure.” Another pause. “Call me.”
He waited, knowing that she had gone. More voices in the background, then the tannoy somewhere. The following ratings report to the Regulating Office.
He heard none of it, only her last words. Call me.
The yeoman of signals returned and peered into the empty lobby.
One of his signalmen said, “Rain’s still comin’ down in buckets, Yeo. But after all he’s been through, I suppose he wouldn’t—”
The yeoman of signals shook his head. A good lad, but still too young to understand.
Turnbull stood on the side-deck below the bridge and watched the rain pounding along the jetty and pontoons like a cloudburst. It was cold, too, and yet he had seen some local youngsters running through the puddles as if it were midsummer.
There had been some men in overalls down here an hour or so ago. Notebooks and diagrams; one of them pointing at the tracer damage with a long ruler. He had already passed the word, don’t leave anything lying about, when the dockyard mateys came aboard. It would soon walk.
He saw Leading Seaman Dawson striding toward him, rain bouncing off his cap, apparently oblivious to the downpour. Nothing ever seemed to bother him for long. Outwardly easygoing, even jovial, but only a fool or a stranger would try and pull a fast one on Pug Dawson.
Turnbull winced as icy rain splashed across his neck.
“All quiet, Hookey?”
Dawson banged his hands together and rasped, “Lot of moanin’ goin’ on, ’Swain. Nothin’s bin said about liberty.” He peered through the rain; even his eyelids had been scarred in the ring over the course of many years. “A good run ashore might ’elp.”
Turnbull shrugged.
“Skipper’s not back yet. He might tell us something once he gets aboard.” He thought of the last time. Not that bloody canteen again.
He glanced at his companion, surprised that it could still unsettle him. Dawson’s eyes were blue, clear and always alert, completely alien to the battered face and veined, broken nose. As if a younger man, a stranger, was looking out from behind a mask.
Dawson thrust out his arm.
“Hell’s teeth, a miracle!”
As if a tap had been switched off, the rain had stopped, and where there had been gloom a few seconds ago their shadows stood out starkly against the streaming deck and superstructure. A patch of hard blue had broken through the clouds, and was reflecting in the puddles and the sea alongside.
Dawson grinned.
“Time for some grub. While the galley’s still in one piece!”
Turnbull saw the real reason for Dawson’s hasty departure, and saluted.
“Anything I can do, sir?”
Spiers removed his cap and shook it over the side. “Rain’s stopped, but not for long, I’m thinking.” He stared along the deck, at the covered guns and sealed lockers. “Don’t want to delay things. Once they begin work, I don’t want to give them any excuse for dragging it out. But I don’t have to tell you.”
Turnbull said, “Some of the hands will have to sling their hammocks ashore. They won’t care much for that.”
“It’s all arranged and in orders. I’ve left you a copy.”
Turnbull gauged the moment. “If the other boats are needed for sea duty during the repair work—”
Spiers interrupted, “They will be, I’m certain of that. Then our C.O., as senior officer, will be going with them. Pilot too, I understand.”
Turnbull tried to guess his mood. To be left in charge, in command, should suit Spiers well. On the other hand, he would be high and dry if the other boats were called into action. He felt his stomach muscles tighten. But not like this last time. Not so soon …
He said, “Well, Mr Ainslie won’t like having to break in another lot of charts!”
Spiers did not respond. Instead, he said, “Who the bloody hell’s this? I thought they’d clamped down on wasting petrol!”
A car had pulled up on the road, big enough to be visible beyond the gates. Not camouflaged or painted in drab khaki, but dark blue, and still glittering with rain.
“Must be someone important, sir.”
Spiers saw two naval patrolmen emerging from shelter and heading for the steps.
“Well, he won’t get far, whoever it is!”
Turnbull rubbed his chin. Jimmy the One was in a bad mood. Again.… Someone had walked through the gates, and the two patrolmen were standing fast: the master-at-arms or one of his team must have waved the newcomer through. A civilian, casually dressed, with a bag of some sort slung over his shoulder.
“He’s got his eye on us, sir.”
“Bloody hell! As if …” Spiers looked over the side, and gestured to the gangway sentry who was busy removing his oilskin. Then he said calmly, too calmly for Turnbull’s liking, “If it’s another bloody expert come to discuss repairs, it begins tomorrow, not now. Not after what we’ve had to cope with!”
“Can I help?” It was Ainslie, looking refreshed, and subtly different.
Spiers swung round but killed whatever had been on his tongue.
He eyed him for a few seconds, then said quietly, “Thank God, you’ve shaved off that bloody monstrosity.” Then he nodded. “Yes, you go and deal with it. Tell him to bugger off—politely, of course.”
Turnbull relaxed, muscle by muscle. A close thing, he thought. He should have seen it coming. It was part of a coxswain’s job.
Spiers said, “I’ll be in the wardroom if you need me. Let me know when the C.O.’s on the horizon.”
Too calm. A bad sign. Like the brandy Turnbull could already smell on his breath. A Horse’s Neck, and probably more than one. He pictured the little mess down aft. Jock Laidlaw would be there by now … And finally it hit him. They were back alongside. No matter where. They were safe.
He realized that Ainslie had returned, almost breathless, as if he had run all the way from the brow. The stranger was still there, now on one of the pontoons, and seemed to be looking at the damage.
Turnbull said, “I’m not too sure that’s in order, sir.”
Ainslie shook his head excitedly. “No, no, it’s all right! Didn’t you recognize him?” He reached out impetuously as if to make his point. “It’s the man himself. Hardy!”
Turnbull was at a loss.
“No relation, I hope, sir?”
Ainslie repeated, “No—no! Max Hardy, the photographer. You must have seen his work in the press—on film? He’s famous!”
Turnbull exhaled slowly, and saw his breath clouding like steam.
“Yeah, I remember now. Seen a lot of his stuff, sir. Just caught me off-balance.” He peered over the side again: still there. Max Hardy. Of course he knew the name. But here? Now?
Ainslie was grinning like a fool, he thought. Without the beard, he looked even younger than Turnbull remembered from before the stubble.
“Don’t worry about security. He’s got written authority from the admiral, and from Government House itself!” You could almost see the capitals, Turnbull thought. He was ticking them off on his fingers. “And Captain Garrick knows all about it, too!”
The sentry called, “Message from the gate, sir!”
It cleared Turnbull’s mind: Kearton was on his way. This was all he needed. I don’t think!
Ainslie said, “I’ll fetch Number One.”
Turnbull glanced at the sky. It was clearing; there was even a hint of sunshine.
But first things first. They were safe in harbour. And until the next time … He cupped his hands.
“Man the side! Jump to it!”
And he was the Coxswain.
Kearton sat in his cabin and half listened to the sounds around him. The steady murmur of a generator, crockery being stowed in the galley, snatches of music from the messdeck, a ukelele or banjo, switched off abruptly by somebody wanting to sleep. He did not look at his own bunk, nor did he think of the remaining Scotch in his cupboard. Either would finish him.
There was a mug of coffee on the table, ice-cold now. He could not recall how long it had been there, or even who had brought it.
He stood up and moved to the side. The scuttle was open, and it was dark outside, the air cool against his mouth. He imagined he could smell the land, which seemed unlikely as it was so close. He stretched to ease the knots of tension in his shoulders, but nothing seemed to relieve it, and he thought he knew the reason. It was different here, unlike any warfare he had known. Returning to harbour after a sortie across the Channel, along the enemy-occupied coast, coming back in that hard light of yet another dawn, you usually fell into bed on dry land, and if you were lucky you were none the worse for wear. A shower, a meal provided at the blink of an eye, drinks in the mess later … too many, unless you were out again the following night. And the boats would be ready and waiting when the word came.
Here, in these larger boats, you carried your bed with you. And the smells, too. A fresh intake of fuel, men living in one another’s pockets. And the reminders: scarred wood and smoke stains, which new paint might disguise once the dockyard workers had departed.
A coat of paint. Was that all it took?
The sort of question Max Hardy might ask, should ask, when he returned to ‘see for himself’.
Their first meeting, on Kearton’s return from Operations, had been casual, matter-of-fact. Thin, almost hawk-like, Max Hardy was no stranger to the press and documentary world, restless one minute, then stock-still, watching, or lending impact to the next phrase of a sentence. In his thirties, Kearton thought, but he looked older. He had a slight northern accent which came and went, perhaps to suit his mood or his audience.
The hard, bony handshake, and the first words he had spoken, “We’ve met before, Bob Kearton,” had dispensed with unnecessary introductions. “I know something of your background, and why you’re here in Malta.” The quick grin, almost a grimace, gone before you could measure it. “Or as much as I’m allowed to know. I think people should share some of it, if only to lessen their own burdens.” He had punched the air. “Show ’em we’re hitting back at the bastards, where it hurts!”
Kearton did not recall having met him before, unless Hardy had been there when he had been given his D.S.C. It had all been too much to remember. There had been several men decorated that day, and he had seen the admiral glancing at his aide’s list seconds before to ensure that he had the names right.
He had thought for a long time afterwards of the other names which would never be called, the names of those who had been with him that night, ‘when the Channel was set ablaze’, as one newspaper had luridly described it.
He found he had his pipe in his fingers; the pouch was already on the table beside the envelope. He had pencilled the telephone number on it, in case he mislaid the yeoman of signals’ little note.
Even if he managed to get through to her, what was the point? He had no right, no chance. He looked up; the hull had moved slightly and nudged against the pontoons. Probably the Officer-of-the-Guard doing his rounds, or, more likely, some senior officer going on a social visit somewhere. He put down his pipe carefully. Just for those few seconds, day-dreaming, it had felt like an explosion, like the one which had painted the sky and, reputedly, broken all those windows.
She might still love her husband. Maybe she had never stopped. And even if …
“Yes!” A loud rap at the door. Perhaps he had not heard the first one.
It was a young seaman, in uniform, a webbing belt clipped loosely around his waist. One of the duty watch. Kearton was suddenly fully awake: he even remembered the man’s name.
“What is it, Lucas?” He could hear voices now.
“Saw your light was on, sir.” He almost glanced over his shoulder. “But the wardroom …”
“Tell me.”
“There was a boat, sir. A launch. We thought it was just passing, then it hooked on to the pontoon. We didn’t know what to do.” He was still staring at Kearton’s hand, which was gripping his arm. “Then I saw your cabin light.”
Kearton released his grip. We’re all going round the bend. “You did the right thing.” He remembered the sound, the hull moving slightly in the wash. The voices were distinct; he could see the shadows moving in the deckhead light. He did not even know what time it was, but Garrick he would know anywhere. No wonder the handful of men on watch had been taken aback.
He opened the door wide. He could remember Brice’s exact words. I’ll lay odds he’ll be shouting for you as soon as he hits base. Had that been only this morning?
Garrick strode to meet him, his cap almost brushing against the light, face in shadow. Behind him followed a much younger officer, a subbie, and for a moment Kearton imagined it had started to rain again; the subbie’s cap and shoulders were glistening with droplets of water.
Garrick must have seen his eyes.
“Just been showing him what small-boat handling used to be like, when it counted for bloody something!”
The young officer asked, “Shall I wait alongside, sir?”
Garrick stood in the doorway, one foot resting on the coaming.
“This is more like it!” He peered along the narrow passage. “Well sited, too—between the W/T office and the heads!” He seemed to hear the question and said sharply, “You can carry on, Mister …” He snapped his fingers. “I’ll call if I need anyone!”
The sub-lieutenant hurried away.
Garrick tossed his cap on to the bunk and sat down beside it.
“Some people!”
Kearton closed the door quietly. The seaman had vanished, and would soon be telling his mates all about the unexpected visitor, and how he had handled it.
There was a thin shaft of light from the wardroom, but no sound of life. Garrick was running his fingers through his hair, staring around as if to get his bearings. He had obviously been drinking.
“Sorry to barge in on you at this hour, er, Bob. Lot on my plate at the moment. But I wanted to see you, keep the record straight, so to speak.”
He coughed and dragged out a handkerchief, and for a minute Kearton thought he was going to throw up.
But he recovered. “Heard you had Max Hardy down here making his number. Good chap in many ways—knows his stuff.” He dabbed his mouth with the handkerchief. “Useful, too, if it suits him.”
“He knows about the repair work. Seemed interested.”
Garrick nodded but was not listening. “Two new boats joining our little group. At long, bloody last, eh?” He was suddenly serious, almost sober. “Both motor gunboats, not M.T.B.s this time.” He cocked his head as if to challenge him. “Any objections?”
Kearton leaned back in his chair, trying to relax, anticipating the next tack.
“We can do with the extra firepower.” He waited. “Are they arriving soon?”
Garrick unbuttoned his reefer.
“Christ, it’s like an oven in here.” He seemed to recall the question. “Next convoy. The convoy, which thanks to your merry men should arrive unscathed.” He swallowed hard. “Well, nearly. I could do with a drink. Bit pushy for a guest, eh?”
Kearton moved to the cupboard. Garrick was tough, a true professional. He had not come aboard in the middle of the night, or whatever time it was, merely to open the bar.
“I still have some of that Scotch you sent over with Lieutenant-Commander Brice.”
Garrick waved his hand. “Good chap, Brice, doing an efficient job in conjunction with our lot … Bit of an old woman at times, but knows where to draw the line.” He leaned forward. “Good stuff, Bob, malt, from the Isle of Islay. Impossible to lay your hands on it these days.” He tapped the side of his nose. “But R.H.I.P.!” And he laughed.
Kearton poured two glasses with care. There was a bottle of soda water left from Brice’s visit, but Garrick covered his glass with one hand.
“Don’t kill it!”
Then he said, “There’s a meeting planned for the day after tomorrow.” He raised his wrist and peered at his watch, as if he were unable to focus on it. “Tomorrow. Or soon will be. Chiefs of Staff, all the usual suspects.” He put down his glass; it was empty. “This time there’ll be someone from London. Things are moving at last. Explains why Max Hardy is here. So we must make the most of it.”
He watched Kearton refilling his glass and said suddenly, “Your Number One—Spiers, right? A good chap? Due for his own command.” He was fumbling for something, perhaps his cigarettes. “All in good time.” He looked up as feet padded overhead. “Caught ’em on the hop when I appeared, eh?”
He almost laughed, but checked it.
“I want you with me. Show the flag, make ’em understand what we’re trying to do. What we are doing.” He found the packet, seemed to change his mind, and nodded gently. “But for our handling of the enemy minelaying scheme, the next convoy would be scattered across the bottom of the Med.” His face was flushed beneath its tan, but he was still very lucid. “Not just armour and firepower, Bob, not at this stage. It’s people who will tip the scales. Individuals.” He smiled and said, “I think I’ve gone over the yardarm. Been a long, long day.”
He stood up and steadied himself against the side, but the hull was motionless.
“Better go to the heads.” He squared his shoulders and pushed open the door.
“Everything all right, sir?” It was Spiers, a duffle coat over his pyjamas. “You should have given me a call!”
Kearton touched his arm.
“Thanks, Peter. Try and get some sleep. Busy day tomorrow.” He thought of Garrick, his pride and his pain. “Today, as it is now.” He heard the sound of flushing.
Spiers heard it too, and said as he moved away, “Extra one for breakfast, then. He can see how the poor live!”
When Kearton returned to his cabin, Garrick was asleep on the bunk. His jacket had been neatly spread across the back of the chair, and the four gold stripes were very impressive in the deckhead light. His fine cap was placed meticulously nearby.
Would Garrick remember anything of what he had said? There must have been a cause, a reason.
He looked at the bottle. It was empty.
Why now, and why here? The Boss, respected, even feared, as head of Special Operations. There were doubtless a lot of people who would like to see him fall.
Kearton pulled a few spare blankets together and sat in a corner of the cabin. In a few hours it would be daybreak, rain or no rain, and Garrick might recall nothing about it.
But Kearton knew he would never forget. Once again, it was a matter of trust.
The master-at-arms stood up smartly, unhurriedly, from his table as Kearton was shown into his office.
“I got your message, sir.” His eyes did not seem to move, but they missed nothing: rank, and the blue and white ribbon on Kearton’s jacket, even the sawdust on one of his shoes. “I know, sir. Dockyard mateys. Few hours’ work, and a month of Sundays to clear up the gash they leave behind.” He smiled, but it did not reach the cold eyes.
The Jaunty, as he was known, gestured toward the room’s other occupant, a rating sitting at a switchboard and wearing headphones.
“He’ll make sure you’re not disturbed.” It sounded like a threat. His hair was cut very short, and was completely grey. A reservist, Kearton thought, or a man who had had his retirement curtailed for the duration. But very much in charge.
He put on his cap and said, “I’ll be around, sir.” He left the door partly open.
Kearton sat down at the table and looked at the telephone.
He felt like death. Garrick, by contrast, had seemed unaffected by the night’s events. He had declined breakfast and gone ashore while most of the hands were still asleep. He had even paused at the brow to return the salutes and called, “I’ll walk back to the grindstone—do me good!” Just briefly, the Boss again. “Noon, then. Show our faces!” That was all.
He handed the slip of paper to the man at the switchboard. Although he wore headphones, he had one ear uncovered.
“Won’t keep you long, sir. It’s rather busy at the moment.”
Kearton glanced at the typed and pencilled sheets that seemed to fill most of the table. Working parties, or men listed as sick or unfit for duty. Defaulters, men under punishment. And a few shown as on leave. The Jaunty missed nothing.
He thought of Spiers, dealing with the dockyard workers, who would be in command until the repairs were finished and 992 was ready for sea again, and, if need be, for action. He pushed it from his thoughts.
What am I doing here?
He felt inside his pocket. He had found Garrick’s gold cigarette lighter wedged in a corner of the bunk. He really must have been drunk; he was never without it.
There was the meeting with the top brass. Maybe that was why Hardy was here. But Garrick should be used to that …
He closed his eyes for a second, fighting the dead weight of fatigue.
I’m not.
“Putting you through now, sir.”
Kearton picked up the receiver. She had had time to think about it. To reconsider. Or she might be away somewhere …
“Hello—who’s that?” A man’s voice, curt, impatient. For a second he thought he recognized it, but knew he was mistaken.
“Kearton.” He cleared his throat. “Robert Kearton.” He thought there were other voices, somebody laughing. A woman.
And then she said, “Hello, it’s me. What a surprise! I never expected …” A pause, and the other voices were silent; she must have closed a door. When she spoke again, the false brightness was gone; her voice was low, tense, intimate. She might have been beside him.
“So many things I wanted to ask you, and I know I can’t. I was worried—so many rumours. You know, the village …? I suppose you’re up to your ears in things again.” More voices, and he heard her say as though over her shoulder, “Not now. Can’t you see …?” Quiet again; she had shut the door.
He said, “I was hoping I could see you. Talk, without having to cut and run like the last time.” He could feel the silence, and was painfully aware of his own clumsiness.
“I’m not sure, Bob. You know how things are … Actually, you don’t know—”
He could imagine her shaking her head, her hair across her shoulders, like that day. After the air raid.
“You’re not alone, Glynis. I didn’t realize. I must have put my foot in it.”
He heard the man at the switchboard recrossing his legs, waiting to break the connection.
She said, “Just a few people, moving house. I thought I told you.” Her voice faded; she must have looked away. “I don’t want you to think … to believe …” Another pause. “Have you got something to write on?” She did not allow him time to answer. “This is the address.” She stopped. “If you’re—sure.”
He heard himself murmur, “It means a lot. To me …”
He pressed the telephone hard against his ear, scribbling with a pencil, shutting out everything but her voice.
“Got it.”
“Call me first. I don’t want anyone to think—to imagine—” She broke off. Someone was tapping at the door. Her door.
He said, “As soon as I can.” But the line was dead.
The master-at-arms had reappeared, and looked briefly between him and the operator.
“No trouble getting through, sir? Makes a change.”
Kearton guessed his previous call was no secret here.
He held out the piece of paper he had torn from one of the pads on the table.
“I don’t know my way around Malta.” He heard her voice again. The village …
The Jaunty peered at the scribbled address.
“Over in Sliema. A posh area, or used to be.” He looked up, business-like again. “Quite a step from here. You’ll need transport …” He seemed to be considering it. “Never straightforward, with all the fuel shortage an’ so forth. But when the convoy gets here, things should be a bit easier.” He made up his mind. “Leave it to me, sir.”
Kearton walked out into the frail sunlight. The convoy. So much for secrecy.
He had to find his way to the proposed meeting. It would give him time to think.
But he was no longer tired.