MY CELL PHONE rang again. Justin picked it up off the couch cushion and tossed it to me. I checked the caller ID panel.
Tucker.
“Hello,” I said, trying not to sound breathless.
“There’s some bad news coming down, Moje,” he replied.
“I know,” I responded. “Alex Pennington was found dead in the desert today. Full of bullet holes.”
Too late, I realized I’d made a mistake. I wasn’t supposed to know Alex had been pumped full of lead. And Jolie would get in a lot of trouble, maybe even lose her job, if I answered Tucker’s inevitable question.
“How did you find out?” he asked.
I closed my eyes. Opened them again. Logged off the internet. “I’m a detective,” I said lamely. “I have my sources.”
Tucker thrust out an exasperated sigh. “Yeah,” he retorted. “Your sister, Jolie, the crime-scene tech. She’s so lucky you’re not talking to any other cop on the planet right now. Look it up in one of your Damn Fool’s Guides, Moje—this is a serious breach of ethics.”
“Got it,” I said. “But isn’t it a breach of ethics for you to call and tell me about Alex’s death before the next of kin has been notified?”
He laughed, but it was a raw, broken sound. “You have a point,” he said. “I hate it when you’re right.”
“Get used to it,” I replied. “It happens at least sixty-five percent of the time.”
“Damn Fool’s Guide to Stupid Statistics?”
“Very funny. Hilarious, in fact.”
“I’m going crazy, Moje. I need to see you.”
“Are you still living with Allison?”
“Yes.”
“Sorry,” I chimed, with a brightness I certainly didn’t feel. “All booked up.”
“Moje, be reasonable, will you? I’m not sleeping with her.”
“So you say.”
“You don’t believe me?”
My eyes started to burn. “I want to. I really do. But the map of that emotional territory is clearly marked ‘Here be dragons.’”
Tucker didn’t answer. What could he have said?
“How’s the investigation going?” I asked, to get things started again. I wanted to hold Tucker in my arms, get naked with him and lose myself in the wonderful world of multiple orgasms. I couldn’t, because even if he wasn’t having sex with Allison, he was in too deep. So I settled for stretching the conversation as far as I could, just so I could hear the sound of his voice.
Pitiful.
“It’s not,” Tucker said glumly.
I decided it might be in my best interests to be forthcoming about my plans to visit Helen Erland that evening, though I wasn’t about to let him know she was trying to arrange for me to see Vince in jail. He would have blocked that, on general principle. He’d hear about it after the fact, of course, but by then it would be too late.
I threw him a bone. Part of the truth. But, hey, that’s better than nothing, isn’t it?
“Mrs. Erland asked me to investigate Gillian’s murder,” I said, and braced myself for meteor impact. Oceans were going to overflow. Continents would shift. A new ice age would begin.
And here’s me, the flash-frozen mammoth with fresh grass in its mouth.
“When,” Tucker countered evenly, “did you speak with Helen?”
“Today at the convenience store where she works,” I answered after swallowing. “Gillian appeared in my car at Walmart, and she wanted to see her mother. So I took her there.”
“Mojo, if you compromise this case—”
“I might solve it, you know.”
“As far as the sheriff’s office is concerned, it is solved.”
“Not what you said on the news this morning, Detective Darroch.”
“Look, Mojo, there’s an official investigation going on here, and it’s delicate.”
I ignored that. I was in charge of the unofficial investigation. “Helen doesn’t think he did it. Vince, I mean. And neither does Gillian.”
“Helen is out of her head with grief, and she doesn’t want to believe Erland’s guilty. As for Gillian—well, I hate to tell you this, Sheepshanks, but ghost testimony doesn’t hold up in court.”
I glanced in Justin’s direction, hoping he’d left.
He was still sitting on the couch, and he was listening. For all I knew, he could hear Tucker’s side of the conversation as well as mine.
“It’s not easy being a ghost,” I said.
Tucker sighed again. He sighed a lot whenever we talked about my strange new talent for seeing dead people. I could only conclude that he wanted me for my body, not my mind.
It was a sure bet it wasn’t my detective skills.
“Moje,” Tucker said. “I’m not sleeping with Allison.”
I would have replied, “And I’m not sleeping with you,” if Justin hadn’t been there, taking it all in.
“Whatever,” I answered.
“Stay away from Helen Erland.”
“No. But thanks for the input.”
“Mojo—”
I hung up.
“I could find out if he’s sleeping with her,” Justin said.
“Justin,” I answered, “don’t help.”
He grinned. “It’s not like I don’t have time on my hands,” he reasoned. “I could help you solve the case, too.”
“How?”
“By spying on people. I’m invisible to most of them, remember. That could come in very handy.”
“I’ve got a better idea, Justin,” I said. “Go home.”
“I can’t. My mom’s too sad. It’s a bummer.”
“That isn’t the home I was talking about.”
“I have to wait for Pepper,” he told me decisively. “He’s old and he might get lost or something. It won’t be long, and I might as well make myself useful in the meantime.”
My throat closed and my sinuses clogged up instantly.
“Do you think they let dogs into heaven?” Justin asked. “Because I’m not going if they don’t.”
I started to cry.
Justin blipped out.
Alive or dead, men can’t stand tears.
* * *
JOLIE ARRIVED WHILE I was rooting through the cupboards looking for something that could reasonably be expected to morph into lunch.
“You look terrible,” she said after letting herself in.
“Do you think dogs are allowed in heaven?” I asked.
“Sit down,” Jolie ordered. “You’re a train wreck.”
I slumped into a chair at the kitchen table.
Jolie washed her hands at the sink—a good thing, since she’d probably been dropping pieces of Alex Pennington into evidence bags all morning—and opened a can of soup. “Greer’s not back from shopping yet?” she asked, getting out a saucepan.
I shook my head.
“It will be interesting to see how she reacts to the news,” Jolie said, plopping the contents of the soup can into the saucepan. “Do you ever buy groceries?”
I ignored the grocery gibe. Jolie cooked. It made sense that she had a fixation with supermarkets. To me, they were just places where I ran into crazy stalkers and dead people. “Greer,” I said evenly, “did not riddle Alex with bullets and leave him to rot in the desert.”
“Don’t be so free with the gory details, okay? I could get fired if anybody finds out I called you from the crime scene.”
Guilt washed over me. I bit my lower lip. Who needs collagen when you can get the plump look by gnawing on yourself? “I might have let something slip to Tucker,” I confessed.
Jolie stared at me, her eyes going huge and round. She was beautiful, even clad in khaki shorts, a Phoenix PD T-shirt and hiking boots. Her long hair, done up in about a million skinny braids, was tied back with a twisted bandana. “Mojo Sheepshanks,” she said, “you didn’t tell him I told you about Alex?”
“He guessed,” I said.
“Right,” Jolie snapped, glaring.
“Not to worry,” I said, holding up two fingers pressed close together. “He and I are like that.”
Jolie swirled an index finger around one temple. “You and Tucker are like this. Both of you are crazy!”
“Tucker isn’t,” I said.
Jolie turned back to the soup, her spine rigid.
“You’re going to have to sit with Greer tonight,” I told her. “So I hope you don’t have any plans.”
Jolie didn’t look at me. “And where will you be?”
“I have some investigating to do.”
Jolie muttered something I didn’t quite catch, but I thought I heard the words real job in there somewhere.
“I’ll be back as soon as I can,” I said. “And how hard can it be to hang out with Greer for a couple of hours?”
Jolie rounded her eyes at me.
Just then the front door crashed open, and Greer came in. She went immediately to the cupboards and started ripping through them, a one-armed marauder. She found a package of Oreos—Nick liked to smell them, and even though I seriously doubted he’d ever be back, I kept them around just in case—and started stuffing them into her mouth, two at a time.
I figured a size-twenty-two wardrobe might be one of the dark secrets hidden in my foster sister’s mysterious past.
“Alex is dead,” she said, spewing crumbs. “He’s dead!”
Jolie and I exchanged glances.
“Sit down, Greer,” I said as Jolie pulled back a chair and pushed her into it. Greer looked up at us, her mouth rimmed with cookie dust.
“What?” I threw in when nobody spoke, hoping it sounded as if the news had come as a shock.
“The bastard isn’t off boinking some floozy,” Greer informed us, wild-eyed. “He’s a cadaver!”
“Calm down,” I said, “and tell us what happened.”
Greer’s eyes filled with tears. She opened her mouth, shoved in three more Oreos and tried to talk around them. “I just got a call from the police,” she said, the words garbled. “Some hikers stumbled across Alex’s body in the desert this morning. He’d been shot.”
I tossed Jolie a See? She’s surprised kind of look.
Jolie took the soup off the burner and set the saucepan aside.
“What am I going to do?” Greer asked.
Jolie pulled up a third chair and sat down. “You can start by telling us whether or not you killed him,” she said.
Greer gasped, and then went into a choking fit. Obviously she still hadn’t swallowed all the Oreo residue.
I jumped up and pounded on her back, while Jolie got her some water.
“Killed him?” Greer gasped once she’d recovered the ability to breathe.
“The man was probably cheating on you,” Jolie said evenly after flinging a shut-up glance in my direction. “He’d moved out and you hired Sherlock here to get the proof. The police are going to want to know if you offed him, Greer, or paid somebody else to do it.”
Greer bolted for the bathroom.
Power vomiting ensued.
“Good work,” I told Jolie in a harsh whisper. “Why didn’t you just ask her how much she stood to inherit and when she plans to remarry?”
Jolie glowered me into silence.
We both got up and tracked Greer to the bathroom.
She was on her knees, with her head over the toilet bowl, dry heaving.
When she stopped, I soaked a washcloth in cool water and squatted to wipe off her face.
Jolie flushed the john and spritzed the air freshener.
“You can’t possibly think I would murder my own husband!” Greer sobbed as Jolie and I helped her to her feet. I looked at her cast, due to come off in a few weeks, and wished it had been on her right arm instead of her left. If it had been, she couldn’t have shot Alex.
“Look, Greer,” Jolie said fiercely, though she was stroking Greer’s back as she spoke, “the cops will give you a day or two to catch your breath, then they’re going to be in your face, wanting a lot of answers. Talk to us.”
“I didn’t kill Alex!”
We ushered her back to the living room and sat her down in a leather armchair, facing the empty fireplace.
“You can tell us if you did,” Jolie said. “We’ll help you.”
Greer shook her head. “It was probably that bitch Beverly,” she said. “I need wine.”
“No, you don’t,” Jolie argued quietly. “I know you’ve had a shock, and I’m sorry. But you can’t afford to crawl into a bottle and pretend none of this is happening, because it is. When did you see Alex last?”
Greer considered. “The day after Lillian’s funeral,” she replied. “He came by to pick up some of his things. He said he wasn’t really leaving—that we just needed some time apart to get perspective.”
Greer might have been getting perspective, I thought. Alex had probably been getting nooky instead.
“Where was he going?” I asked after a sour glance at Jolie, thinking hey, I’m the detective around here.
“He said he’d be staying at the Biltmore.”
That figured. The Biltmore is posh—nothing but the best for Alex Pennington, M.D., and the bimbo du jour.
“Did you check?” Jolie pressed. “Call the hotel to find out if he was really there alone and not staying with a girlfriend?”
Greer’s right hand knotted into a white-knuckled fist. “No,” she said, gazing up at me. “I paid Mojo to do that kind of dirty work.”
“I was a little busy,” I pointed out.
“I want my retainer back,” Greer said.
“Fine,” I told her.
“Stop bickering,” Jolie said. “Both of you!”
Greer and I both subsided.
“A man is dead,” Jolie informed us. “Let’s stay on the subject.”
Greer let out a wail.
A man is dead, I thought with a mental snort. Gee, maybe I ought to offer Jolie a partnership in Sheepshanks, Sheepshanks and Sheepshanks. She had such a keen eye for detail.
But then, she’d expect a paycheck.
Back to sole proprietorship.
“I think Beverly killed him in a drunken rage,” Greer said with frightening clarity. “Alex just spent a fortune to send her to some fancy rehab center, but I’ll bet she was swilling gin on the plane back. Are there any more cookies?”
The whole conversation went like that. I wondered why anybody would want to be a cop—or a private investigator, for that matter. And I seriously considered applying for a blue greeter’s vest at Walmart. The dead guy and I would probably get along fine.
* * *
AT SIX-FIFTEEN THAT evening I pulled into Helen Erland’s dirt driveway. She lived in a double-wide on one of those acre plots with “horse facilities,” meaning pipe fences, a rusted feeder and a beat-up tin roof the animals could stand under to get out of the merciless Arizona sun. When the place had been new, it was probably pretty remote; now it was surrounded by the ever-encroaching stucco houses people like Helen couldn’t afford.
There weren’t any horses.
Before I could knock, the inside door opened and Helen peered out at me through the screen. She was wearing baggy shorts and a short-sleeved plaid shirt, and her feet were bare, with blue foam cushions wedged between the toes. Not too grief stricken for a pedicure, then, I reflected, and instantly hated myself for thinking that way.
Lillian used to tell Greer, Jolie and me that you couldn’t help the thoughts that came into your head, but you didn’t have to let them stick around.
“Thanks for coming,” Helen said, stepping back so I could come inside.
Gillian was sitting in a little rocking chair over by the fake fireplace, the kind with light-up logs inside.
I didn’t acknowledge her, of course, until Helen turned away to clear some laundry off one end of the couch so I could sit down.
Gillian returned my thumbs-up signal—I guess it qualified as sign language—but she looked so sad and small sitting there.
I sized up the living room. Despite the laundry, it wasn’t messy. The carpet looked clean, and there was no dust on top of the TV, which was muted but on, or beer cans on the coffee table. An electric picture of Jesus and the apostles in a boat filled most of one wall, but the plug was pulled.
“That belonged to my mother,” Helen said fondly, having followed my gaze. “It’s awful, isn’t it?”
Before, I’d just felt sorry for Helen Erland. Now I began to like her. But I wasn’t stupid enough to dis a picture of Jesus, even if it did light up.
“Mom treasured it,” Helen went on when I didn’t comment. “I keep it around because it reminds me of her.”
I nodded. I barely remembered my own mother, since she’d died when I was small, but I’d just lost Lillian, and her ratty old chenille bathrobe was hanging in my closet at the apartment. I had her tarot cards, too.
I understood about keeping things.
“You want a beer or a soda or something?” Helen asked. She was a little nervous. Putting me on the trail of Gillian’s killer had probably seemed like a good idea at the time. Now I figured she was having second thoughts.
“Diet cola, if you have it,” I said.
Helen got up and pigeon-toed it into the kitchen. Her toenails glowed neon-pink.
Gillian and I exchanged looks again.
I signaled for her to leave the room.
She shook her head and sat tight in the little rocker.
“Tell me about your husband,” I said when Helen came back and handed me a cold can of soda. “I understand he was arrested for solicitation of a minor.”
“That was before I met him,” Helen said. “And he said she came on to him, that girl.”
I decided I’d never get the straight story on that from Helen, and made a mental note to look elsewhere. Like straight into Vince Erland’s eyes, when and if I got to speak to him. I did say, “Men sometimes lie about things like that.”
Helen flushed. “Vince didn’t do it,” she reiterated. “He didn’t proposition a teenage girl, and he sure as hell didn’t kill Gillian.”
“Let’s go back even further,” I said moderately, popping the top on the diet cola. Gillian’s last name was Pellway, not Erland, so there must have been an ex-husband or a boyfriend in the picture. “You were married before, right?”
Helen tested her toenails for dryness and pulled the blue foam cushions out. Set them carefully on the end table beside the old leather recliner and sat down. A dull flush rose under her ears. “Yes,” she said. “To Benny Pellway. He’s doing twenty to life in the state pen for armed robbery.”
I didn’t need to take notes. The Damn Fool’s Guide to a Photographic Memory. “He’s Gillian’s biological father?” I asked.
Helen lifted her ponytail off her neck and fixed it to the top of her head with a pink squeeze-clip. “Yes,” she said.
“Are there any other children in the family?”
Helen shook her head, and her eyes brimmed with tears. “No,” she replied. “Vince and I were talking about having a baby, though.”
“Where does Vince work?” I was miles behind the police, I knew, but I could still ask his fellow employees what kind of man he was. And it was always possible that Tucker and the others might have missed something.
“He was between jobs,” Helen said. Her chin jutted out a little way, as though she expected me to denounce Vince Erland as a bum, and she was prepared to defend him.
“How far between?” I asked.
“He worked for a furniture company, delivering couches and stuff, until about six months ago,” she said. “Then he got downsized.”
“Do you have any family pictures or albums or anything?” Except for Jesus and the disciples, the paneled walls were bare.
Helen sniffled, got up out of the chair and opened the cabinet under the TV. Brought out several framed school photos of Gillian, along with a couple of thick albums.
“I had to put them away,” she said, referring to the shots of a smiling Gillian, posing against a plain blue background.
“I understand,” I told her.
Gillian began to rock slowly in her little chair.
“It’s the oddest thing, the way that chair moves on its own sometimes,” Helen said.
“Probably a draft,” I answered, unable to look at her.
“Probably,” Helen agreed with a sigh.
I turned to the albums. There weren’t a lot of pictures, and most of them were old. In one, a couple in sixties garb stood beaming in front of what looked like the same double-wide we were sitting in.
“My mom and dad,” Helen explained, her face softening. “This was their place. It was new back then.”
I swallowed, thinking of my own dead parents. “They’re both gone?”
“Both gone,” Helen confirmed.
I flipped more pages. Helen, growing up. Helen, on horseback, then dressed for a dance, then graduating from high school. Helen, standing with a smarmy-looking guy in a wife-beater shirt and cutoff jeans, holding a baby in her arms.
Benny Pellway looked like the kind of guy who ought to be doing twenty to life in the state pen. I decided to make sure he hadn’t escaped. Shortcut: ask Tucker. The police would have checked that first thing.
After that, the snapshots were mostly of Gillian, usually sitting alone on a blanket, clutching a ragged stuffed dog.
“She always wanted a pet,” Helen said with painful regret. She’d been leaning in her recliner so she could see the pictures, too.
Gillian signed a word, and I was pretty sure it was dog.
My throat squeezed shut again. “She’s here,” I said. I hadn’t planned on saying that—it just came out of my mouth.
“What?” Helen asked, blinking.
I figured she was about to throw me out, but it was too late to backtrack. “I can see Gillian,” I said. “She’s sitting in the little rocking chair by the fireplace.”
Helen turned in that direction. Signed something.
Gillian duplicated the sign eagerly.
I love you.
I hadn’t gotten very far in my studies, but I knew that one.
My heart sort of caved in on itself.
Helen got up, walked toward the chair.
Gillian instantly vanished.
What did that mean? I wondered.
I knew Gillian wasn’t afraid of Helen Erland. She obviously liked to be with her, wanted very much to get her attention somehow. Maybe just to say goodbye.
“Is she still here?” Helen wondered softly.
“No,” I said.
Helen, standing in the middle of the living room now, turned to study me narrowly. “Are you some kind of psychic or something?”
“No.”
“But you saw my Gillian?”
I nodded. Looked up at the electric Jesus picture and had a sudden, strange urge to plug it in. “Yes.”
“Can you talk to her?”
“She doesn’t speak, but she reads my lips sometimes. And she wrote ‘Mom’ in the dust on the dashboard of my car yesterday. That’s why I came into the store. Because she wanted to see you.”
Helen’s legs buckled, and she dropped heavily to the floor, landing on her knees.
I knew she hadn’t fainted, so I stayed where I was. Waited.
It was an intensely private moment, to say the least, and I felt bad for being there to see it.
Tears poured down her face. “My baby,” she whispered. “Oh, my baby.”
I didn’t say anything.
Helen looked up at the light-up picture. “Why?” she demanded. “Why is she just wandering around, lost? Why isn’t she in heaven?”
I wasn’t sure if she was asking me or Jesus. Both of us, probably.
I looked at the picture, too. The ball’s in Your court, Big Guy, I thought.
“I don’t know for sure,” I answered when I could get the words past the lump in my throat, “but I think it has to do with finding her killer.” Justin’s mother, Mrs. Braydaven, crossed my mind. Helen Erland had just seen her only child buried. She wasn’t ready to hear that she’d need to let go of Gillian at some point.
Helen turned again, studied me, still on her knees in the middle of the living room. She opened her mouth, but before she could say whatever she’d intended to, the front door opened and a slim teenage girl walked in without bothering to knock.
Seeing Helen kneeling, her face wet with tears, the girl turned on me. “What did you say to her?”
I remembered catching a glimpse of her at Gillian’s funeral. She’d been with the camerawoman.
“It’s all right, Chelsea,” Helen said, getting up. “This is Mojo Sheepshanks. She’s a private investigator. Mojo, this is Chelsea Grimes. She’s—she was Gillian’s babysitter.”
Chelsea studied me suspiciously. She had short blond hair, blue eyes and wore a skimpy pink T-shirt—the kind that leaves most of the stomach showing—and low-cut jeans. A silver ring glinted from her belly button.
On most people, the bare-belly look is unflattering. On Chelsea Grimes it definitely worked. She was probably only sixteen or seventeen, and she was clearly protective of Helen.
“Helen’s been through a lot,” Chelsea said. “She doesn’t need somebody over here giving her a nervous breakdown.”
I stood, still holding the photo albums.
“Chelsea, it’s okay,” Helen said.
Chelsea followed me outside to my car. The way she picked her way over the gravel finally clued me in that she was barefoot. Since there wasn’t another vehicle in sight, I guessed she must live nearby, but it was possible someone had dropped her off.
“Look,” Chelsea said, “the cops have been all over Helen since they found Gillian. Her husband is in jail. Cut her a break and don’t go asking her all kinds of questions, okay?”
I was too tired and too despondent to smile. “How long were you Gillian’s babysitter, Chelsea?”
“Forever,” Chelsea said, cocking a thumb toward a cluster of spindly eucalyptus trees. I could see the outline of a small house beyond. “I live just over there, with my mom.”
I nodded. Opened the passenger door of the Volvo and set the photo albums carefully on the seat. “Do you think Vince Erland killed Gillian?”
Chelsea flushed. “The police already asked me that,” she said. “About a million times. And the answer is how should I know? I told them that. I told Tucker. Vince never put the moves on me, but he’s a sleazeball, so anything’s possible.”
I told Tucker.
“You know Tucker Darroch?”
“Yes. I know Tuck—Mr. Darroch. I babysit Daisy and Danny sometimes.”
Cave Creek is a small town. It wasn’t a surprise that Chelsea knew the Darrochs and looked after their children. It did bother me a little that she’d referred to Tucker by his first name.
But then, she’d called Helen Erland “Helen.”
Manners have changed since I was a kid.
“Why is Vince a sleazeball?” I asked.
Chelsea shrugged. “He can’t hold a job, but he sure doesn’t mind spending whatever Helen brings in on beer and cigarettes. My dad was like that, but he had the good manners to shoot himself in the head three years ago—problem solved. Except that my mom’s still in the market for another loser.”
“You’re pretty bitter,” I said, “for somebody so young.”
“You would be, too, if you were me,” Chelsea said. “I can’t wait to get out of this hole. One thing’s for sure—I’m never going to hook up with some bum who can’t even support his own family.”
“I guess Vince promised Gillian a dog, and then went back on his word,” I said, testing the ice.
“I could have told her not to believe a word he said, if I knew how to speak sign language.” She huffed out a disgusted sigh. “Even Tucker, hot as he is, moved out on the wife and kids and took up with some slut who lives over a biker bar.”
“Is that so?” I asked moderately.
“You can’t trust them,” Chelsea went on. I was surprised by all the chatter, given that she’d been so protective of Helen Erland a few minutes earlier. I let the whole slut issue slide. “Men, I mean. Not even the ‘good’ ones.”
“Right,” I said.
Evidently finished, she turned and stomped back inside.
I got behind the wheel and backed out of the Erlands’ driveway, onto the road.
I’d call Helen Erland later, I decided, and see if she’d spoken to Vince’s lawyer about that visit.