Frottage

How goofy and horrible is life. Just

look into the faces of the lovers

as they near their drastic destinations,

the horses lathered and fagged. Just

look at them handling the vase

priced beyond the rational beneath

the sign stating the store’s breakage

policy, and what is the rational but

a thing we must always break? I am not

the only one composed of fractious murmurs.

From the point of view of the clouds,

it is all inevitable and dispersed—

they vanish over the lands to reconstitute

over the seas, themselves again

but no longer themselves, what they wanted

they no longer want, daylight fidgets

across the frothy waves. Most days

you can’t even rub a piece of charcoal

across paper laid on some rough wood

without a lion appearing, a fish’s umbrella

skeleton. Once we believed it told us

something of ourselves. Once we even believed

in the diagnostic powers of ants. Upon

the eyelids of the touched and suffering,

they’d exchange their secretive packets

like notes folded smaller than chemicals

the dancers pass while dancing with another.

A quadrille. They told us nearly nothing

which may have been enough now that we know

so much more. From the point of view

of the ant, the entire planet is a dream

quivering beneath an eyelid and who’s to say

the planet isn’t? From the point of view

of the sufferer, it seems everything will

be taken from us except the sensation

of being crawled over. I believe everything

will be taken from us. Then given back

when it’s no longer what we want. We

are clouds, and terrible things happen

in clouds. The wolf’s mouth is full

of strawberries, the morning’s a phantom

hum of glories.