I See a Lily on Thy Brow

It is 1816 and you gash your hand unloading

a crate of geese, but if you keep working

you’ll be able to buy a bucket of beer

with your potatoes. You’re probably 14 although

no one knows for sure and the whore you sometimes

sleep with could be your younger sister

and when your hand throbs to twice its size

turning the fingernails green, she knots

a poultice of mustard and turkey grease

but the next morning, you wake to a yellow

world and stumble through the London streets

until your head implodes like a suffocated

fire stuffing your nose with rancid smoke.

Somehow you’re removed to Guy’s Infirmary.

It’s Tuesday. The surgeon will demonstrate

on Wednesday and you’re the demonstration.

Five guzzles of brandy then they hoist you

into the theater, into the trapped drone

and humid scuffle, the throng of students

a single body staked with a thousand peering

bulbs and the doctor begins to saw. Of course

you’ll die in a week, suppurating on a camphor-

soaked sheet but now you scream and scream,

plash in a red river, in sulfuric steam

but above you, the assistant holding you down,

trying to fix you with sad, electric eyes

is John Keats.