The Unattainable

Often, those first years of divorce,

his car windows are smashed. Often

in this case is thrice but I

can imagine often being once. Mouse

in a trap. Fire sky. Heard shot. He

lives in a minor key of fear but

also a lot in bed with a new woman

met one yellow day on the labyrinthine

passageways where only the cyclists

seem to know where they’re going,

endangering those who don’t. Safety

catch, melted crayon, broken string.

When she steps from the pool of her

uniform, her breasts…well, who

woudn’t sense the quick exhaustion

of descriptive language seeing those breasts,

say Parthenon? say comet? say lion running?

but luckily along comes Breton with

“handkerchiefs drying on a rosebush”

which is truer to the spirit than

any actual appearance. Bones of a canary.

Destiny. Often beauty is disguised

by appearance just as music can be

by sound, the dreaming wish by the waking

wish until there’s this terrible stress

because a thing must finally reveal itself,

break itself. Leaning shadow, cinder

heart, shouts. In Gorky’s The Unattainable,

the line begins to free itself from any

utility of contour and becomes a trajectory.

One day, Gorky hung himself from a beam

but left us in charge of these ravishments.

Hello interior of the sun. Usually alone

on Sundays, she won’t get off until late,

the man steams rice because it’s cheap

and easy and feels in its austerity poetic

like candles during a power outage

or trying on overcoats all afternoon,

buying none. Chosen feather, smoke smudge,

red parabola within flesh.