CHAPTER 21
How Gertrude prayed for death.
ONCE, as Gertrude received Holy Communion, she found herself so weak that she inquired of the Lord if her end was near. He replied: “When a bride hears that there are many messages from her betrothed, treating of the conclusion of their alliance, she begins to prepare herself for it. In like manner, when you feel inward suffering and illness, you should begin to prepare for death.” “But how shall I know when that desirable hour will come which will release me from the prison of the flesh?” Our Lord answered: “Two of the noblest Angels of the celestial court shall whisper in your ears, through golden trumpets, this melodious song: ‘Behold, the Bridegroom cometh; go ye forth to meet him.’ ” She replied: “And, my Lord, in what chariot shall I be taken to behold Thy blessed Face?” He said: “My love will pour itself forth on you, and bring you to My kingdom.” “And whereon shall I repose in this chariot?” Our Lord answered: “Your seat will be, confidence in My mercy, from which you must expect every good.” “Shall I have reins to guide this chariot?” she inquired. He replied: “Your fervent love will supply this need.” The Saint continued: “As I know what will be necessary for the journey, I will not inquire further; but I ardently desire to travel on this road.” Our Lord answered: “Your joys will exceed all you can hope or desire; for whatever may be imagined by My elect as to their future blessedness, will be far exceeded by the reality.”