JANE JERDON WAS floating above the river in the sunshine, her feet barely touching the ground, her body as light as thistledown, as if she were flying, and Mr Cartwright was floating beside her, holding her hands, smiling into her eyes – oh so tenderly – and telling her how much he loved her. ‘Yes,’ she was saying to him. ‘Yes, oh yes!’ It was a perfect, joyous moment, to love and be loved in return, but just as she was enjoying it, feeling full of wonder and happiness, never wanting it to stop, she became aware that there was somebody pulling at her arm. She twisted away, irritated by the intrusion. ‘No. Not now,’ she said. ‘Later.’ But the tugging went on and on. She couldn’t shake it off and the sun was right in her eyes, dazzling her, and Mr Cartwright was beginning to melt as though he was made of ice. ‘No. Not now. Please.’
‘Ma!’ Milly said, urgently. ‘Wake up. ’Tis the baby.’
Baby, Jane thought. What baby? There’s no baby here. Nor like to be. ’Twould fall in the river, poor little thing, and be drowned. But the river was disappearing and so was the sky and the grass was sliding from under her feet and swirling the last drifting shadow of her dear Mr Cartwright away and away and away. And she knew she was in bed and that there was a lighted candle on her bedside table shining into her eyes and that her daughter was shaking her arm.
‘She’s frightened to death, Ma,’ Milly said. ‘She’s been asking for ’ee this last half hour.’
Common sense returned. There was work to be done. She got up, put on her dressing gown and her slippers, lit her candle. ‘Have ’ee sent for Mrs Hardcastle?’ she asked.
‘Long since.’
‘Then go and wake Mrs Cadwallader and tell her we need a dish of gruel and a pot of good strong tea. There’s the key to the caddy. Plenty of sugar, tell her. She’ll need sustenance, poor woman.’
As they reached the second floor she could hear Lizzie sobbing. ‘I’m coming,’ she called. ‘Hold on! I’m coming.’ And she strode into the master bedroom on a breeze of urgency and compassion.
The bedclothes were tossed all over the floor, there was no sign of Mr Hudson, and Lizzie was rolling about on the bed, her face streaked with tears. ‘’Twill die,’ she wept. ‘I know it. As sure as fate. ’Twill die. I shall lose it.’
‘Die?’ Jane said trenchantly. ‘What sort of nonsense is that, wi’ me here to look out for ’ee and Mother Hardcastle on her way? ’Twill be a fine strong baby. You heard what she said. A fine strong baby. Now let me get ’ee comfy afore we have her here.’
‘Coming along lovely,’ the midwife said when she arrived. ‘Get this nice gruel inside you and build up your strength, for we shall have this one here in no time at all.’
In fact it was born a long two hours later when the sun had risen and the room was washed with light, and it was another boy, small and extremely pale, but full of life, with a cap of very fair hair and a comically pained expression.
‘Where’s his father?’ Mrs Hardcastle wanted to know.
‘He went to the blue room,’ Lizzie said, not looking up from her new son’s now contented face. ‘He needs his sleep, do y’see, on account of all the important work he does.’
‘Does he so?’ Mrs Hardcastle said grimly. ‘Well, he can wake up betimes this morning, on account of we got summat even more important to tell him. Mrs Smith’ll rouse him, I’m certain sure. Won’t ’ee, Jane?’
‘’Twill be a pleasure,’ Jane said equally grimly. Why should he slug-abed when his poor wife’s been labouring all night? ‘I’ll do it now.’
She could hear her master snoring as she stood outside the blue room door. The sound irritated her, so she gave the door a sharp rap and walked in. He was lying on his back with his belly mounded before him and his mouth fallen open. Not a pretty sight, she thought, and spoke to it loudly.
‘Mr Hudson, wake up.’ And when he didn’t stir, she shouted her message again. ‘Wake up. You have a son. Which is the third you’ve fathered besides a daughter you don’t give a fig about.’
He turned on his side, grunting. ‘Whassat?’
‘A son,’ she told him firmly. ‘Just born, what I’ve no doubt you want to come and see.’
He groaned. ‘Is that all?’ he said. ‘Tell her I’ll be along presently – oh, and tell Cook to bring me up a pot of tea. Well, don’t just stand there. That’ll be all.’ Then he turned on his back again and closed his eyes.
Heartless pig, Jane thought, glaring at him. You don’t care about that poor little baby nor about my poor Lizzie. It’s just you, you, you all the time. Your sleep. Your money. Your railway. Your tea. And her long-held need to be revenged on him roared up in her as strong as it had ever been.
Nathaniel Cartwright arrived on Mr Hudson’s imposing doorstep at a little after ten o’clock that morning. He was clean shaven, dressed in his best clothes with a new cream-coloured cravat to set off the russet brown of his jacket and full of cheerful determination. As always, now that he’d made up his mind to do something, he couldn’t wait to get on with it. And what he was going to do was buy a house and propose to his delectable Mrs Smith. The sun was warm on the nape of his neck, there was a blackbird singing in the may tree in a garden across the street and no doubt in his mind at all.
‘Mr Cartwright,’ he said happily to the housemaid when she opened the door, ‘come to see your housekeeper.’
‘If you’ll just step inside and wait, sir,’ the housemaid said, opening the parlour door, ‘I’ll go up and tell her.’
He waited as patiently as he could, but it seemed an age before she arrived and then he was disappointed to see that she was hard at work for she wore a Holland apron and long Holland sleeves over her grey gown.
‘I’ve only got a minute,’ she said rather breathlessly. ‘I promised to be straight back.’
‘I’ve come at a bad time,’ he said, his heart sinking a little, and he gave her a slight bow by way of apology.
‘No, no,’ she said, reassuring him. ‘Quite the reverse. ’Tis the best of times. Mrs Hudson has just had her baby and what could be better than that? I would spend more time with you if I could, but I promised to stay with her.’
‘Naturally,’ he said, smiling at her. ‘That is quite understood. In that case I will call again this afternoon, if I may.’
‘I shall look forward to it,’ she said, which was nothing less than the truth.
And so will I, he thought, as he walked out of the house. It was a disappointment but only a temporary one. If she couldn’t advise him, there was always Mr Hudson’s brother-in-law.
He found the draper’s shop with no difficulty, for he vaguely remembered seeing it on his way to Monkgate, and there was the name helpfully printed above the window. Hudson and Nicholson. The door was open so he ducked his head under the lintel and went in.
There were two people in the shop, a fair-haired young man in a very well-cut blue jacket and an apprentice boy in poor-quality breeches and a crumpled waistcoat who was staggering towards the nearest counter carrying three fat rolls of cloth and grimacing as if the weight was too much for him.
‘How can I help you, sir?’ the young man said, ignoring the grimace.
‘Mr Nicholson?’
The young man gave a slight bow. ‘The same, sir.’
Nathaniel explained what he wanted.
‘I say,’ Richard Nicholson said. ‘What sport! And what luck! You’ve come at just the right time. I know just the place. Old Mr Melly’s got it. Been on his books for ages. It’s right by Bootham Bar. Lovely house. Spanking new. Just the style. Come and see it.’ And he turned to his apprentice, saying, ‘You can keep the shop, can’t you, Sam?’ and without waiting for an answer, disappeared into the office to collect his hat and cane. ‘That’s more like it,’ he said as he stepped through the door into the sunshine. ‘To tell ’ee true, a shop can be too much of a good thing when the sun’s shining. There are days when I can’t be doing with it.’
They strode off together along Goodramgate towards Low Petergate, scattering passers-by with their onrush, visited Mr Melly’s little office above the corn chandlers and were given the key. And then they were off again, this time heading for Bootham Bar, where the stones of the city wall were honeyed with sunshine and the Bar stood before them, humping its elderly shoulders as if it was disgruntled. Then through the archway and out into a grassy field and a quiet road, where there were three new houses, two in occupation and one plainly empty.
Nathaniel was taken with Shelton House as soon as he saw it. It was so modern and upright, with its fine door and its well-balanced windows. This new style is so elegant, he thought, as he approached it, and he was prepared to like it even before he’d set foot in the place. They explored it from the kitchen to the attic, telling one another what a fine place it was, admiring the dining room with its marble mantelpiece and its beautifully moulded ceiling – as good as Mr Hudson’s any day of the week – and climbing the easy rise of the stairs to the upper rooms, where the master bedroom was just right for his delectable Mrs Smith and then up again to the three small attic rooms that were the servants’ quarters. And they were just right too, for he was a gentleman now and his wife should have servants in a house this size.
‘I shall take it,’ he said as the two of them stepped out into the sunshine.
Richard Nicholson was locking the door. ‘What sport!’ he said, beaming at his new friend. ‘I say! Never thought I’d sell a house when I got up this morning an’ that’s a fact. This beats drudgery any day. Take my tip though. Don’t give him the asking price. You could beat him down by several pounds, if I’m any judge of it. Fifty at least.’
‘I shall bear that in mind,’ Nathaniel said, admiring the elegant frontage again.
‘You’ll be needing a solicitor,’ Richard told him. ‘I know just the man. Name of Leeman. George Leeman. Fine feller. He’ll see you right.’
Nathaniel knew his new friend was talking sense. He would certainly have to find a solicitor, but he couldn’t think about it at that moment. He was too busy trying to imagine how the face of his lady love would look when she heard what he’d done.
When Lizzie Hudson had fed her baby for the second time and had satisfied herself and Mrs Hardcastle that he really was taking enough milk to sustain him, she settled into her pillows and fell asleep, her plump arms lying heavily on the counterpane and her face smoothed with content. Jane stayed on in the room for a quarter of an hour just in case she woke again but by then it was plain that this was going to be a long sleep and that she could leave the midwife on watch while she went back to the kitchen to attend to her own affairs. There was plenty to attend to, the soiled bed linen waiting in the copper for the laundry maid, fresh food to buy at the market, the usual evening meal to be cooked. And as if that weren’t enough, there was also the possibility that Mr Cartwright would come to see her again. While she’d been busy with the mistress and the baby she hadn’t given his morning visit much thought; now it pricked her mind with curiosity. He’d arrived because of something important. That much was obvious. The subdued excitement in him had been proof of that. Now she was itching to know what it was.
As she walked towards the larder to check supplies, her peculiar early-morning dream inched back into her mind and she was reminded that she’d been extremely foolish while she was asleep, thinking she could fly and that Mr Cartwright was telling her he loved her, and she told herself quite sharply that she really ought to take her thoughts in hand and try to check her stupidity. For that’s what it was. Just plain stupidity and it was folly to give in to it. But scolding herself didn’t help her at all, because it set her thinking. What if that odd excitement she’d noticed meant that he was thinking of proposing? It wasn’t at all likely when they’d only known each other for such a short time but what would she say if he did? It had been the oddest sort of day, so odd that anything seemed possible, and her dream certainly seemed to be pointing in that direction, so what if…? I must be sensible, she scolded herself, lifting the lid of the flour bin. I’m not a child. I’m a woman grown and a mother, what’s more, not a silly girl full of silly dreams but twenty-seven with a daughter who’s twelve and old enough to work. I ought to have more sense than to give in to fantasies. But the dream flew in and out of her head as she worked and she couldn’t get rid of it. She was so preoccupied that when young Sally appeared at her elbow to tell her that she had a visitor, she jumped as if she’d been bitten by a wasp.
‘Who is it?’ she asked, trying to sound nonchalant about it, and failing.
‘’Tis that Mr Cartwright, Mrs Smith ma’am,’ Sally told her. ‘Him what come a-calling this morning, dratted man. D’you remember? We wor all that busy we wor fair wore out and why he should’ve come to plague us at a time like that I can’t for the life of me imagine. I’ve put him in the parlour.’ She was still ruffled by the unsuitability of that visit.
It was necessary to be calm and businesslike. Jane took off her apron and smoothed the skirt of her grey gown. ‘Go upstairs,’ she said, ‘and see whether Mrs Hudson is still sleeping. Tiptoe in, mind, and don’t go knocking on t’door. She needs her sleep. But if she’s awake and she wants to see me, come straight to the parlour and tell me.’
Then she went up the back staircase to see the man of her dream.
There was no doubt about his excitement now. He seemed to be twice the size he’d been in the morning, like a turkey-cock with his feathers fluffed out, and he was smiling like sunshine. He strode across the room towards her as soon as she set foot inside the door and took both her hands in his and held them and gave them a little shake. While he’d been waiting for her he’d convinced himself that he was going to break this news to her gradually and calmly, like a man of sense; now he couldn’t wait to tell her. ‘I’ve bought a house,’ he said. ‘What do you think of that?’
‘My dear heart alive,’ she said, gazing up at him. He really was exceedingly handsome
‘Now I want your opinion of it,’ he said, still holding her hands. ‘Could we walk out to look at it, do you think, or are you too busy?’
‘Well, as to that,’ she said, trying to be sensible, which was very difficult when her heart was racing fit to leap out of her chest, ‘’twould depend on Mrs Hudson an’ how she’s feeling. If she needs me to be here, I must stay with her.’
‘Happen you could ask her,’ he hoped.
But there was no need, for the door was opening and Sally was making an entrance, her face bright with importance. Her expression changed to a scowl when she saw that her unnecessary nuisance of a visitor was holding Mrs Smith by both hands but she stayed perfectly proper and gave her message notwithstanding her disapproval. ‘If you please, ma’am, Mrs Hardcastle said to tell ’ee, Mrs Hudson is still asleep.’
‘Good,’ Jane said, retrieving her hands. ‘Then I shall be free to inspect this house of yours, Mr Cartwright, and give you my opinion of it. If you will just wait till I get my bonnet.’
‘Standing there as bold as brass he was, holding her hands,’ Sally said to Mrs Cadwallader when she was back to the kitchen. She was pink with the effrontery of it. ‘Did you ever hear the like?’
‘Many’s the time,’ the cook said. ‘Happen they’re courting. Don’t surprise me. She’s a handsome woman.’
‘Courting!’ Sally said in horror. ‘She can’t be. ’Tis unfitting.’ And she was quite put out when Mrs Cadwallader roared with laughter at her.
When they were through the crush at Monkgate and out in the welter of the crowds pushing their way along Goodramgate, Nathaniel offered Jane his arm and smiled with satisfaction when she took it. There was a warmth and intimacy between them now that neither could ignore. As they stepped into the darkness under the low archway beside Mr Nicholson’s shop, he put his arm round her shoulders and pulled her protectively towards him and he left it there for several happy seconds when they emerged into the sunshine of Priest Row.
‘It’s not very far,’ he said, as they passed the dilapidated frontage of St William’s College.
Jane didn’t mind how far it was. There was such an extraordinary sense of unreality about this day she felt that anything could happen. A walk was nothing compared to what could be coming. They passed the humped shoulders of Bootham Bar, strolled through the central arch, were out in the quiet fields and there was the house he’d bought, warm-bricked in the sunshine, its windows gleaming. She loved it at once.
He escorted her from room to room, opening every door with a flourish and watching her face to see if she approved. And eventually, he led her out into the meadow that would one day be their garden and they stood together among knee-high grasses and looked out at the fields where they’d walked and talked together in their short, extraordinary courtship. It was time for his declaration.
Now that the moment had arrived, he was horribly nervous, afraid that he might say the wrong thing or that this was, after all, the wrong time. She was smiling in a dreamy sort of way, which might be taken as an encouragement, but on the other hand …
‘’Tis a fine house,’ she said.
‘I thought so as soon as I saw it.’
‘And you’ve bought it,’ she prompted.
‘There are still some legal matters that will require attention,’ he told her, ‘but Mr Leeman has it in hand and, to all intents and purposes, ’tis mine.’
Then he was lost, for it wasn’t the house he wanted to talk about or, at least, not in this serious businesslike way. He cleared his throat. ‘What I mean to say—’ he said and then stopped.
She waited, her face bright with expectation, although she was doing everything she could to keep her expression under control. Was he going to propose? Or was she being foolish? Oh do go on, dear Mr Cartwright. This waiting is too much for a body to bear.
‘What I mean to say,’ he started again. ‘The thing is. The thing is …’ And then because she was smiling at him so hopefully, the words came tumbling out. ‘I knew this was the house for me the moment I saw it. I mean, I knew I wanted it to be my house. I wanted to live here. With you. I do not wish to alarm you, my dear Mrs Smith, I would not alarm you for the world, but the truth of it is, I have loved you ever since I first set eyes on you. I knew then that I wanted to marry you, that I would marry you if you would have me. I know this may sound unlikely – possibly not even proper – we have known one another such a very short time, but it is the truth notwithstanding. I loved you as soon as I saw you standing on the doorstep in your grey gown. You cannot imagine how much I loved you. You cannot imagine how much I love you now. More than I can possibly tell you. Oh, say you will have me, my dear, dear Mrs Smith. Say you will have me and live with me here in this house. I will make you a loving husband, I promise you.’ And then he had to pause for breath for he was quite overcome.
For a few seconds she was speechless. ‘My dear heart alive!’ she said at last and smiled at him with such transparent happiness that he knew she was going to accept him.
He took her hands in his and looked down at her glowing face. ‘Is that an affirmative or a negative?’ he asked. It was a needless question.
Their troth was sealed with a kiss for they were blessedly private out there in their garden and there was no one to see them. It was as if they had the world to themselves. And naturally, after that first kiss, they took another and another, until they’d kissed one another breathless. Then they exchanged Christian names and agreed that they would marry as soon as the house was ready for them and, naturally, they had to kiss again. It wasn’t until they were walking slowly back to Monkgate, arm in happy arm, that she remembered Milly and Lizzie and her mother and all the people she was responsible for.
He smiled at her happily, his mind full of plans. ‘I will arrange the wedding as soon as Mr Leeman tells me that the house is mine,’ he told her. ‘How long will you need to prepare? You must have a wedding gown, of course, and a bonnet and they must be the best that money can buy. How if we say a fortnight from completion?’
It was a dream, an unbelievable, dizzying, totally delightful dream. They had barely known one another a fortnight and yet here he was planning their wedding. She held on to his warm, solid, loving arm, feeling she would turn faint and fall without his strength to support her.
He was still planning. ‘We will send our invitations as soon as we have a date,’ he said. ‘You must give me a list of all the people you would like to be there. We shall have our wedding breakfast at the house. Now as to your daughter.’
‘Milly,’ she told him.
‘Aye indeed, Milly. She shall come and live with us, naturally, and have a room of her own and be the daughter of the house, if that is agreeable.’
It was very agreeable.
‘Then ’tis settled,’ he said. ‘She shall want for nothing, I promise you. I will treat her as though she were my own.’
His generosity was all-enveloping, overpowering. He seemed to have thought of everything. She could just see Milly in that elegant house. What a total change of fortune this was.
‘As soon as I know that the house is mine, I will send to tell you,’ he went on happily, ‘and then you may hand in your notice to Mr Hudson and be the lady of your own house.’
Talk of handing in her notice made Jane remember poor Lizzie, lying abed with her newborn baby beside her. She hadn’t given the poor lady a thought since she’d left her and it was a jolt to her mind to remember that the baby had been born such a short time ago. Was it really only this morning? If he means us to be married within a fortnight, she thought, I shall be leaving her just when she’s up and about again. And she wondered what Lizzie would say and how she would manage without her. I must tell her as soon as I get home, she thought. I’ll write to Ma first and then I’ll go straight up to the bedroom.