March
Lucy's Age: 9
I'm so hungry right now it hurts. Last week I snuck a letter into the mailbox with Mrs. Agosti's name on it. I knew that it probably wouldn't ever make it to her, but I had to try something. The mailman sent it back because there wasn't a valid address on it.
I guess I knew that it wouldn't work, but I kept hoping that someone at the post office would find a way to track her down and deliver it to her. I wish she would come take me away, but if she doesn't know where I am then there isn't any way for her to come get me.
Usually I'm the one to get the mail. It's one of the few times I get to leave the house since Renworst even has our food delivered right to our door. Yesterday I lost track of time though and Renworst went and got the mail instead.
He was mad, really, really mad, and I think a little scared when he found the letter. Not of me, but of my father. I could tell that he wanted to hit me, but I remember the one and only time that Renworst hit me. He was in a cast for what seemed like forever. Dad broke his arm and then made sure that I knew he'd done it so that I understood that Renworst wasn't to hit me anymore.
Instead of hitting me, Renworst locked me up in my room without anything to eat. I fell asleep crying last night and I've cried a lot today, but Renworst has refused to come unlock my door. I'm starting to get tired again. I hope that he lets me out soon to eat or I'm not sure that I'll be able to sleep tonight.
For a few minutes I thought maybe that Renworst would have to let me out when my tutors came by, but then I remembered that today is Saturday. They won't be by until Monday, so there isn't anything to stop him from being as mean as he wants to be.
I had the nightmare again last night. Everything is on fire and then someone steps toward me and he's got something sharp in his hand.
The nightmares are always the worst when Renworst locks me up or punishes me somehow. They'll probably be really bad tonight.