Chapter Twelve
The sun was riding low over the horizon when Janie followed Tyler outside to his truck. “Thank you very much for all your help, but you really didn’t have to wash my dishes.”
“Sure I did.” Tyler grinned, the charm oozing from his every pore.
Janie couldn’t help but smile in response, even as she disagreed. “No, you didn’t.”
He leaned back against the open tailgate and crossed his arms. “I did if I want you to invite me again.”
“Oh, that was your plan, was it?” She laughed as she turned and leaned next to him, hands braced on the metal of his bed.
“Yup.” He shot her a sideways glance. “Did it work?”
“Yeah. I think it did.”
“Good.” He nodded. They both sat and stared toward the brilliant colors lighting the sky while the silence stretched between them, until Tyler broke it. “Do you ever hear from your dad?”
The question surprised her. “Not really. No.”
“Did he come to your husband’s funeral?”
“No. He called, but he was busy with work and couldn’t get away.”
The wound hadn’t quite healed over. She still felt the emotional scars when she talked about her mother’s death or her father’s emotional abandonment.
This conversation brought a little closer to the surface the dull ache she usually kept buried. She didn’t resent Tyler for asking, even if she was shocked he was interested. Most guys his age would be out with their friends, yet here he was, sitting on a tailgate at sunset talking to her about things much too serious for such a pretty evening. He was probably meeting his friends later and had to kill time until then. That scenario made sense.
She wondered where he went with his friends, and how the girls there reacted to the likes of Tyler and Colton walking into a bar. Given how good they both looked, they were probably swarmed the minute they got in the door.
“I’m sorry that all happened to you.” He covered her hand with his and squeezed before letting go.
The touch hadn’t lasted long, but long enough for her to know he meant what he said. That he was sincere in his empathy.
Janie should probably be getting used to Tyler doing the unexpected. She wasn’t. Surprised yet again by this guy, she said, “Thanks.”
The silence descended once more until he turned where he leaned and angled his body toward her. “So why are you only cooking for one?”
At the question, she turned her head to look at him. “Excuse me?”
“You said you don’t like cooking for only yourself. Aren’t you dating?”
That elicited a laugh she couldn’t control. “No.”
Dating. Who would she date? And where the hell would she meet him? Though thanks to Rene, she’d have to sit through church with a stranger her friend seemed intent on setting her up with. Maybe that was why she wasn’t dating. Interfering friends.
“Why not?” he asked.
Her mouth dropped open at his bold question. She expected this kind of prying from Rene, but not Tyler. Still, she felt compelled to answer. “It really hasn’t been that long since Tom . . .”
After a beat, Tyler asked, “How long has it been? I thought it was about a year.”
“Yeah, about.”
“So you’re not ready?” His eyes pinned her. He obviously wasn’t letting this go.
“I don’t know. I haven’t really thought about it. There’s been so much else to think about.”
“Like the hay harvest.”
“Yeah, that, and the broken fence.” And the lessons. And the bills. And the animals. She sighed. “Just everything.”
“So if someone were to, say, take care of that harvest for you, and that fence was fixed so you had time to think about yourself, do you think you would be ready?”
“To date?”
“Yup.” His intense blue eyes never leaving her face, Tyler dipped his head in a nod.
“I don’t know.” She shrugged. “I guess. Why are you so interested?”
“Because I’d like to ask you out, but only if you’re ready for that.”
Ask her out? She knew he could flirt with the best of them, and suspected he was a ladies’ man, but that Tyler might want to go out with her was so far off her radar, she nearly fell off the truck’s tailgate.
“So, what do you say?”
She didn’t know what to say. Even if she were ready to start dating, which she wasn’t, Janie had a feeling she’d never be prepared to be with a guy like Tyler. Too young. Too wild. Too tempting. “How old are you, Tyler?”
“I’ll be twenty-five next month.”
“So you’re twenty-four.” At least he was a couple of years older than she’d first assumed when she thought he was twenty. Still, he was too young. Or maybe she was just too old.
“Yeah. Technically, I’m twenty-four, for now. Why?” He shrugged. “Does it matter?”
She laughed. “Yes.”
“Why?” His brow creased beneath the brim of his hat. He really didn’t understand.
“Because I’m twelve years older than you.”
“I know, and next month you’ll only be eleven years older than me. You said you were thirty-six the night we met. So?”
She’d forgotten she’d mentioned her age that night. Maybe Rene was right. Maybe Tyler did have a Mrs. Robinson, older-woman sex fantasy. If so, she didn’t think she was the one to fulfill it. “What do you mean, so? That’s more than a decade.”
“And?”
“And that’s a big difference.”
He blew out an exaggerated breath from between his lips. “No, it isn’t. Janie, it doesn’t matter to me. Why does it matter to you?”
“I don’t know. It just does.” She didn’t want to tell him that being with him made her feel old. That her worst fear would be sitting in a restaurant with him and having the waitress assume she was his mother.
Tyler pushed off the tailgate and took a step so he was standing directly in front of her, so close that she was in the shadow of his hat.
“No. You’re not getting away with that answer. Tell me. What’s really wrong?” His voice had dropped low as he questioned her. It sounded husky, and even more sensual than usual.
With him standing so near, she could see the day’s worth of stubble darkening his cheeks and chin. She might want to think of him as a kid—it would make it a hell of a lot easier to not succumb to him—but Tyler was a grown man. And a hell of a man he was. She couldn’t deny that as she was eye level with the bulging muscles of his chest that stretched the cotton of his T-shirt.
Janie swallowed and tried to regain her focus. “You should be dating girls your own age.”
That was one truth about her avoidance she would tell him. Twentysomething guys should date twentysomething girls.
“I have. I’ve gone out with plenty of them, but not a one of them was anything like you.” His blue gaze pinned her even as she averted her eyes to avoid the intensity she saw in them.
Janie wasn’t used to being the object of a man’s attention anymore. At least, not like this. “So I’d be a novelty?”
“A novelty, no. But you are one of a kind, Janie Smithwick. Don’t you ever forget it.” He raised his hand to capture her chin between his thumb and forefinger before he lowered his head, close enough she could hear him breathing.
The brush of his lips against hers was so brief, so gentle, it was almost as if she’d imagined it. He pulled back, but his gaze grabbed and held hers.
“When you’re ready to take a chance on me, you let me know.” He released his hold on her and turned to walk toward the driver’s door.
She was still speechless, but managed to have the good sense to get off his tailgate before he drove away.
With one hand braced on the top of the door, he glanced back at her. “I’ll be back to hay that field as soon as I can.”
Janie nodded and he climbed inside, slamming the door after him. She realized she’d yet to speak.
What could she have said? Her lips were as numb as the rest of her from the shock of Tyler’s kiss. She watched him pull to the end of the driveway and stop before turning. He waved one arm out the window as he drove away, and only when he was out of sight did she remember to breathe again.
Tyler opened the kitchen door of his parents’ house and stopped at the sight of his older brother. Tuck’s six-foot frame was bent at the waist, his head hidden behind the door of the fridge.
“Hey.” Tyler closed the outside door and moved farther into the room. “What are you doing here?”
Tuck straightened and closed the fridge with a sigh. “Starving, apparently. There’s nothing in there but rabbit food. When the hell did Mom and Dad turn vegetarian?”
“It’s not that bad . . . yet. They’re not vegetarians, but she does have him on a strict diet as of last week.” One reason, but not the main one, that eating at Janie’s was extra appealing.
“Great. Perfect timing for a visit.” He swung the door open again and emerged from the refrigerator with a bottle. “At least there’s a beer.”
“My beer.”
“Thanks.” Cracking open the lid, Tuck raised the bottle in a mock toast before pressing it to his lips.
Tyler scowled. “Yeah.”
“So what’s with the diet all of a sudden?” Tuck dragged a chair from under the kitchen table and dropped into it, stretching his legs out in front of him. “Is this Tara’s doing?” he asked, mentioning their sister.
“No. Why would it be Tara’s doing? You know as well as I do she’s just about taken your hand off when you tried to steal the bone from her rib eye steak.”
“Things change. Now she’s got her sports medicine degree, she might think she’s some kind of doctor and want to get us all healthy and shit.”
“Nah. Tara had nothing to do with it. She’s hardly here anymore between work and Jace. She spends half her time on the road following the bull-riding circuit and the other half in Stillwater with her new beau.”
Tuck blew out a derogatory-sounding breath. “Yeah, that’s another thing. Tara and Jace not only dating, but actually lasting for what? Going on a year this fall? I never saw that one coming.”
Tyler snorted. “I did.”
“You did not.” Tuck screwed his face up with doubt.
“No?” Tyler raised a brow in challenge. “I sure as hell did. Tuck, two people can’t fight as hard and as long as Jace and Tara did and not be interested in each other on some level.”
“Yeah, well, it shocked the shit out of me when they came back from her internship and announced they were going to go out.”
Go out was clearly a euphemism Tuck needed to hang on to rather than think any more about their little sister’s sex life. When Tara had come back from that internship, she and Tuck’s best buddy Jace had the definite look of two people who were getting sweaty in the sheets together. Pure and simple.
Lucky for them, Tyler had been the one here that day she got back and Jace drove two hours like a madman to get to her, while Tuck had been blissfully ignorant back in Stillwater. Which raised Tyler’s original question one more time.
“You never did tell me why you’re here.” He was pretty sure Tuck hadn’t driven all those miles just to drink Tyler’s last beer.
“Emma and Logan had to come to make plans for the baby’s christening, so Becca decided we should come along and help them.”
Tyler laughed. “You? Help plan the christening? Do you know how?”
“No. When Becca says we, she means she wants to do something and I’ll keep my mouth shut and go along if I know what’s good for me. You’ll see when you’re married.”
“Um, yeah. Great. Thanks. Sounds real enticing.”
Tuck tipped his head to the side. “There are fringe benefits to the deal.”
Tyler knew exactly what Tuck was referring to. His brother always had been easily swayed by the promise of sex, one reason he’d ended up in a bad first marriage. At least he’d chosen better this second time around in marrying Becca.
“So, anyway,” Tuck continued, “while Becca and Emma and Logan are meeting with the pastor tomorrow after the service at church and meeting with the manager at the restaurant to plan some brunch for after the thing, I’m free.”
“Are you? You sure you don’t have to go—oh, I don’t know—sample christening cakes or choose party favors?”
“No, I already asked. I’ve been exempted from the party-planning stuff because I gave up fishing at the lake to come here with Becca instead.”
It was funny seeing his big brother so totally and completely whipped. “There’s a rodeo tomorrow. Wanna come?”
Tuck’s eyes widened. “Really?”
“Yup.” Tyler dipped his head. “Rohn’s supplying the bucking horses and bulls. One of the guys is still out hurt, so we’re down a man. We’re bringing a lot of animals and taking the big double-decker trailer. There’s room in the cab for a third, and Colton and I wouldn’t mind the company on the drive.”
“A’ight. I’m in.”
Tyler glanced at the cow clock on the wall of the kitchen. “You know, there’s still time to call in if you wanna ride.”
“You riding?”
“I am.” Tyler nodded.
Tuck looked clearly tempted. “Nah. I better not.”
“Why not?”
“I didn’t bring my gear bag. I don’t have my rope or any of my shit.”
“So?” Tyler shrugged. “I’ve got spare chaps, spurs, a vest, a rope, and a glove. You can borrow it all.”
“Yeah, but—”
“But what?” Tyler leaned back against the counter and crossed his arms over his chest, leveling his gaze on his brother. “Tuck, when I was little and you were just starting out riding pro, I remember times you couldn’t afford what you needed. You’d ride with borrowed equipment all the time.”
Tuck rolled his eyes. “It’s not that.”
“Oh, wait.” Tyler held up one hand. “The wife thing, right? You didn’t get permission.”
The frown that creased Tuck’s brow was so deep, it was comical. “I don’t need permission.”
Tyler wasn’t sure he believed that. “Then what are you waiting for?” He pushed off the counter and dug into his pocket for his cell. He scrolled through the recent numbers until he found the one he needed. He thrust the phone at Tuck. “There you go. That’s the call-in number.”
Tuck hesitated for way longer than any bull rider should when presented with a chance to ride before he finally nodded. “A’ight.” He punched the final button to connect the call and raised the cell to his ear, while eyeing Tyler. “If she pitches a fit over this—”
“I’ll take the heat. Blame it all on me, the bad influence who twisted your arm and made you ride when you didn’t want to.” Tyler already took the blame for most things, anyway.
He could deal with his sister-in-law. He’d talked his way around pissed-off women before, and he was sure he’d do it again. With Emma, Logan, and their three-month old baby right next door as a distraction, Becca might not even notice Tuck was gone for the day.
As Tuck entered the event, Tyler could only hope, because Becca could be one tough chick. Finally, Tuck hit to disconnect the call and tossed the cell onto the kitchen table. Tyler walked over to retrieve it.
“So, how you been?” Tuck asked, taking another sip out of Tyler’s last bottle of beer.
Tyler couldn’t help but think that an ice-cold brew would have gone down real nice and smooth right about now after a long hot day of working at both Rohn’s and Janie’s places. He’d have to go out and buy more if he wanted one, but he wasn’t sure it was worth the effort.
Tyler pulled out a kitchen chair and sat instead. “I’m good.”
“You’re home early for a Saturday night. No plans?”
Tyler raised a brow. “Why are you so interested? Living vicariously through me now that you’re an old married man?”
He wasn’t about to tell Tuck he was waiting for Janie to go out with him, and until she consented, he wasn’t going to waste his time, or ruin his chances with her, by seeing anyone else.
“Hey, I might be married, but I’m not old.”
“Don’t sell yourself short, Tuck. You are very old. At least, you’re older than me.” Tyler grinned.
“Pfft, since you’re twenty-four, that’s not saying much.” Tuck let out a snort. “And being your age is nothing I look back at and long for. I was young and dumb back then, just like you are now.”
“Thanks a lot. Real nice way to talk to your only brother.”
Tuck rolled his eyes. “You’ll live.”
“Yes, I will. Now excuse me. I need a shower.”
“You’re not eating?”
“I ate. Besides, you said there’s only crap in the fridge.”
“Yeah, I was just hoping you were going out and bringing something back.”
Tyler shook his head at his brother’s laziness. The man would run ten miles before breakfast, but he wanted Tyler to deliver dinner to him? Not gonna happen. “Where’s your lovely wife? It’s Becca’s job to feed you. Not mine.”
“Don’t let her hear you saying that. And she’s over next door with Emma doing christening shit. Invitations or something.” Tuck waved the detail off.
“Then go get Logan. The two of you should hang out.”
Tuck screwed up his mouth. “Logan’s on babysitting duty while the girls work.”
Tyler laughed at the image of Logan, a forty-year-old career army officer, being stuck home on babysitting duty. “You know, a real friend would be over there keeping him company.”
“Then I guess I’m a failure in the friend department. When it’s my baby, I’m sure I’ll be fine, but the kid barfed all over Logan the other day and I swear, I nearly lost it myself just seeing it. Ugh, and the smell. I don’t know what the hell they’re feeding that boy, but damn, it reeked coming back up.”
That image, combined with the expression on Tuck’s face as he told the story, was enough to have Tyler laughing until his stomach hurt.
When he finally got himself together enough to talk, he said, “I’m sorry, bro, but you’re on your own for food. I ate, I’m beat, and I need a shower. I’m fixin’ to watch a little TV and then hit the sack early. We gotta leave for Rohn’s at six to load the stock and then get on the road for Elk City.”
“A’ight.” Tucker sighed and stood. “Guess I might as well do the same. Ain’t nothing better to do.”
“Okay.” It wasn’t his job to entertain his brother, so Tyler started down the hall. He paused and turned back. “Don’t forget to tell your wife you’ll be gone all day tomorrow with me.”
“Yeah, yeah. Don’t worry about me.”
“It’s not you I’m worried about, bro. It’s her.” He didn’t need Tuck getting phone calls all day and being in a piss-poor mood because he was hours from home with no wheels of his own and had an angry wife waiting for him. “Remember, 6 A.M.”
“I heard you the first time. Don’t worry about me. You know damn well I’ve usually run ten miles, showered, and eaten by 0600, so you worry about yourself.” Tuck turned left down the hall toward the TV room while Tyler turned right toward his bedroom.
Just like old times, bickering with Tuck, Logan next door at his parents’ house—if Tara came home this weekend, it would really be like the old days, and they weren’t always the good old days, either. Things could get a little crowded around this house, not to mention hostile, when all the siblings were in residence. One more reason he didn’t mind working late at Janie’s. Not that Tyler needed another reason. She was enough inspiration.
He decided he was going to think about that inspiration the whole time he was in the shower. Maybe longer.