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The guys all shook my hand, polite and respectful as Dad introduced me around. The sight of them, the smell of so many soldiers in a room on a hot day, brought back a vague memory of living on base when I was little. I shook my head to clear it away.

“Is there going to be a quiz to see if I can remember your names?” I asked.

“No, ma’am,” said several of the guys at once.

“Wait till you see the backyard,” Dad said.

As we walked through the house, he explained that they all served with an old friend of his, Roy Pinkney, and were on leave and headed north to Roy’s camp near Saranac Lake.

We stepped out of the back door and my mouth dropped open.

“Roy took one look at the backyard, hollered ‘Potential!’ and sent some of his boys into town to rent a mower,” Dad explained with a grin. “It only took an hour or so before they had the whole place squared away.”

For the first time in weeks, the backyard had been mowed. Mowed and neatly raked. A fire pit had been dug in the middle, circled with stones and piled with wood, ready to be lit. A soldier stripped to the waist was chopping wood with a splitting maul. Chairs and upended logs waited around the fire pit. Four small tents had been set up, too, poles straight and strings taut.

A tall, bald man walked up to us. “Do not tell me this is your little girl, Andy. No way.”

“Hayley Rose,” Dad said. “You won’t remember him, but this is Roy.”

I put out my hand to shake, but the man gathered me into a big hug and kissed the top of my head.

“Not possible,” he said, releasing me and smiling. “It is just not possible for you to have grown up this much.” He stepped back and looked at me. “I hope you thank God every night that you take after your mom instead of this ugly cuss.”

“Yes, sir,” I said.

“Do you remember the first time you handed this angel to me, Andy?” Roy asked.

“When we were living next to the PX?” Dad asked.

Roy nodded. “You must have been about, what, five months old?”

“I don’t remember, sir,” I said.

“Three months, I think,” Dad said. “Rebecca was still alive.”

My mouth dropped open for the second time because Dad never, and I mean never, said my mother’s name out loud.

“You’re right,” Roy said. “I can remember her laughing at me. You see, Hayley, your father handed you to me just as you were starting to do your duty in your diaper. And it was July, as I recall, so all you were wearing was that diaper. I’d just come from, I don’t know where, but it was something that required me to be in my finest dress uniform and I looked good.”

Dad snorted but Roy ignored him.

“So I sit down in your folk’s apartment and your sweet mother leaves to pour me some iced tea and your face goes all red and you start grunting—”

(I said a quick prayer of thanks that the shirtless guy chopping wood could not hear this.)

“—and Andy hands you to me, and I knew nothing about babies so I laid you on my lap. And then your diaper exploded.”

Dad and Roy both cracked up and I waited for the earth to swallow me. Roy gave me another hug, and then Dad did, too, and finally I laughed and I realized that there was no way in hell I was going to the stupid football game.

I stayed on the edges of the conversations for the next few hours. I made three dozen deviled eggs, ran the dishwasher, and kept an eye on my father, waiting for him to get drunk. But he didn’t. He drank soda and lemonade, even as all the other guys pounded beer and Roy sipped Scotch. This was a new version of my father, comfortable in his skin. Happy to joke about life over there and his scars and the bullshit they all had to deal with from desk-jockey officers and lying politicians.

I couldn’t believe what I was watching.

Dad hated talking about the war and never did it sober. Half the time he didn’t even want people to know he was a vet. Strangers often said things like, “Thank you for your service,” because they meant it and they thought that was the right thing to do, but the problem was it set off a series of detonations inside my father that sometimes ended with him punching a wall or the face of a jerk in a bar. The worst was when he accidentally found himself in conversation with the family member of a soldier who had been killed. The sadness in their eyes would blow another hole in his brain and then he’d go dead quiet for days.

And yet here he was, as sober as Spock and me, and being a soldier was all he could talk about. And he was laughing.

Roy had brought a couple of grills and soon the hot dogs and hamburgers were piled high and the guys in the backyard chowed down. I got a look at the cooler, which was filled with six kinds of ice cream plus whipped cream and a bunch of half-frozen candy bars that Roy told me were going to be chopped up and mixed with the ice cream, and I was a confused, but happy and grateful girl.

Until Michael showed up.

After Gramma died, Michael rented her house from my father; apparently, they’d been buddies in high school. He moved out when we moved in, but he came back more often than I liked. The way he looked at me creeped me out and I was beginning to think that he was the source of Dad’s weed. He’d never done anything that I could complain about to Dad, but whenever he walked in the door, I felt the need to be somewhere else. Roy and his guys would have Dad’s back if Michael wanted to do anything profoundly stupid.

Covering the football game for the newspaper seemed like a good idea after all.