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Distractions. Too many distractions. When I set out from The New Arizona Territory I had one goal. Learn all there was to killin' a man so that I could take out the bastards that killed my family. I've taken too long. Let too many things get in my fuckin' way. I could have been in San Francisco Valley weeks ago if I hadn't been foolish, got bit, got tied up with gettin' locked up and these two. I care for ’em both, and that's the problem. I'm letting those womanly emotions dictate my actions. I couldn't just keep it all business, had to go and fall in love. Not once but twice! Fuck it all to hell.
J.D. has been showing me how to turn faster, how to stop it to be somethin' more in between. He says it'll be the way Jimmy and they’ll fight. Human agility with the power of their wolves intact. This will be the key to takin' them down. I'm eager to move on, but Violet keeps askin' just a few more days. She loves the access to the ocean. It's a gorgeous thing to see her stripped down at night with those big blue waves settlin' all around her. I keep caving to her demands. When she looks at me with those big brown eyes, I can't say no. We've been shoppin', takin' in a few theater performances, dinners all over the city. The woman likes good food. Her charm has even gotten her in the kitchens for tips!
I can't bring them with me. As much as they want to help. Violet talks about using the rifle from a distance and J.D.? He wants to fight alongside me. This isn't their fight, but bein' with me they're fixin' to make it so. I can't have that. I'm going. This time I mean it. I don't have any other choice. One last moon with him and I'm gone. I can already feel the itchin' all over my body. It'll be time soon. I know that the truth of it is, I'll move faster in my wolf form. If I take the mountain paths I can be in the Valley in about two months. That will give me time enough to scope out the area and hopefully catch wind of them before the next moon. I need to be at my strongest, which for me means human. I'm not strong enough or capable enough in wolf form to take on a whole pack. As I've said before, I'm not crazy or stupid.