My teacher has revealed so much to me. It’s ironic, but I feel truly and completely alive for the first time! I finally understand how things really work and what is truly important.
I have no idea how long I have been here. There are no clocks in Heaven, and I can’t seem to measure time at all. Time feels different, like it doesn’t matter. There’s no sense of urgency, no rush.
I’m still not sure if I am alive or dead, although I’m leaning toward dead, since I know that I’m in Heaven. I did see my father and my grandmother again, and they have been gone for years, so it stands to reason that my time on Earth is finished, too.
Before this moment, I felt deep down that if I asked the wrong question at the wrong moment, my whole incredible experience would abruptly end, and I would stop feeling this wonderful love and peace. I’m now sensing something has changed, and I feel free to ask some big questions to the man who has been accompanying me throughout this experience. He has been such a patient guide, and I can feel his great love. It is in every word, every look, and every gesture. He is encouraging me to ask him what is in my heart.
Courage and a boldness of spirit swell inside me. So, I begin.
I ask him, “Can you tell me now why I am here?”
My Teacher looks at me with the greatest love in his eyes and says words I will never forget.
You are here at the present time in your life to learn the true meaning of self-love, awareness, and faith and also how to heal the mind, body, and spirit.
Who are you?
You know me as Jesus the Christ.
Somehow, I knew this all along, but I waited for him to confirm what I believed: that this man is indeed Jesus, God’s son. But I almost can’t believe it—Jesus! This must certainly be the greatest moment of my life—to meet the Jesus of my Catholic upbringing! I cannot express how awestruck I am. I know I have been blessed beyond words.
Humbled deeply, I ask him with the utmost respect, “If you are Jesus, who is God?”
God is omnipresent in All That Is. God is the Creator and my Father, but he is also your Father and everyone else’s Father. He lives in each of you as an aspect of himself.
I don’t understand what he is telling me about God, so I press further. I ask Jesus most humbly, “Can I see him? Can I see God?”
Yes, I will show you an aspect of God so that you can see him.
Jesus then raises his right arm over his head. As he lifts his arm, a bright orange, yellow, white, and blue light appears. The light is the size of a baseball, and it is radiating absolute love and peace. It’s not like any light I have ever seen here or anywhere. The light is alive and conscious and so filled with love. It is so bright that it is hard to look at it. I know deep inside of me that either I or the light is being modified in some way so that I can actually see it. The light is as bright as the sun, maybe brighter.
There are long, beautiful rays of light emanating from the center of this ball of light. Jesus moves his right hand down, and the ball of light moves with it, hovering over his hand but not quite touching it. Jesus’s hand is now outstretched in front of me, and this ball of light hovers over his hand as I watch in amazement. Tears are streaming down my face, and I find that I am trembling from head to toe. Rays of light from this ball are rotating in all directions. The source of light in Jesus’s hand is glowing and living. The beauty and power and love from this source of light cannot be described. There are no words that can fully capture this experience. I can only say that I know deep within myself that this is some wonderful, beautiful part of what is God. I fall to my knees in awe and gratitude.
The ball of light disappears. Jesus brings his hand over my head, and I am flooded with more love and warmth than I have ever felt, even deeper than what I have been feeling throughout this whole experience. Nothing can compare to this moment.
Jesus looks at me with the greatest love and explains:
This is what God looks like in this moment as pure energy, but He can take any form. I chose to show you God in this way because you cannot be with Him fully yet. It is too much. This moment is enough. You have seen your Father in All That Is.
As I formulate my next question, my celestial surroundings suddenly change. I am pulled back into the tunnel of light, this time going headfirst, on my back, in reverse. I speed through streaks of light that are everywhere, still feeling totally at peace, the same way I felt before. Within moments, I find myself back in my physical body. It’s like a jolt! I am alive! I am awake! I am lying in a hospital bed, and I am in the greatest pain and agony I have ever felt.