Several months after the miracle at the grotto, I began working on strengthening my body to speed my recovery. I started a workout program and a new food plan. I remembered how light I felt in Heaven; I wanted to feel that way here on Earth.
Although I kept to myself and told no one about what happened to me, I definitely felt different. I was more peaceful, grateful, and aware. I noticed how connected everything was, and I didn’t go through a single day without seeing tiny miracles. To this day, my eyes are open to God’s divine hand in all things, and I see what I would surely have missed before the accident.
I began to see butterflies flying all around me. I watched the birds in the sky. I noticed the grass and the flowers and their beauty. The trees seemed like my friends. I often stopped to touch them and bond with them, because now I knew that they could feel me and that my connection to them helped us both. All trees share a consciousness, and their purpose is to oxygenate the air we breathe. They provide us with shade, with food, with grace, and with love.
One day I was sitting in a park. A kid started whacking a tree with his baseball bat. With every strike of the bat, I felt the tree’s pain. I got up and asked the boy, “Do you know the tree feels pain when you hit it?”
“Really?” he asked, wide-eyed. He put down his bat and hugged the tree.
In the evenings, I made it a habit to stargaze. I never took time for this before. Now I tried not to miss an opportunity to see the phases of the moon and the stars twinkling. I never saw the Star of Bethlehem again, but I know it’s up there somewhere, and that gives me great comfort even today.
When it rained, I waited to see if I could catch a glimpse of a rainbow. Rainbows in Heaven are truly spectacular, but any rainbow anywhere is magical. Rainbows connect us to God’s handiwork.
On the weekends, I went to the beach. After the ocean experience with Jesus in Heaven, I felt compelled to ground myself in the ocean waters. I loved sitting by the sea, becoming part of its rhythm. I loved the way the hot sun felt on my skin, and I liked watching all the sea life make its way in and out of the water.
I had been changed! I was very different from the man I was prior to the near-death experience. I could see and feel the vibration and energy of everything around me. I knew for certain that there is no death and that I came back with new gifts that were astonishing to this simple man with no college education and no medical training whatsoever.
The first new gift I noticed right away was the deep connection I felt to every living thing. I felt connected to people, to animals, to plants, the ocean, and of course, all the flowers and trees. I could feel the Vital Force vibrating all around me. I was a part of it all and connected through all my senses. I could actually sense and feel love pulsating within all living things. In my mind, I could see how everything is all connected, even if our eyes see things around us as separate, discrete objects. That separation is an illusion; we are all connected to each other and to everything in nature and on the planet. I remembered that connection was the first revelation that Jesus taught me because it is the foundation for all other knowledge.
As I interacted with people, I discovered that I could see within a person in ways that were impossible before the accident. Jesus had told me I was becoming more and this certainly was “more.” It was almost like I had X-ray vision or something.
My near-death experience had altered and widened my perceptions to such a degree that I was able to see the state of a person’s health. I could “tune in,” particularly to areas of health or mental and emotional anguish and grief. I couldn’t read minds, but I could feel beyond a person’s words. It was like I could access a blueprint of a person’s body and know intuitively what the problem areas were. I could sense emotional and physical pain, heartache, inflammation, injury, and disease. I could see if a person was filled with light and love and faith, or if they were lost or suffering and alone in their beliefs.
I was also able to assess a person’s capacity for healing based on the vibration of their mind, body, and spirit. Jesus really emphasized how we all have the capacity to self-heal, and I could see blockages in people’s energy fields just by looking at them. I could tell a person’s capacity to emanate Divine Unconditional Love. I don’t have great eyes, but my “inner vision” was certainly 20/20! I “saw” and felt more than ever before.
I also could perceive auras around people. Jesus had described our electromagnetic nature when he taught me the Revelation of Grounding. The reason we can use the Earth to ground ourselves and detoxify our bodies is because we are electromagnetic and so is the Earth. That energy produces an aura that some human beings can perceive. These auras surround us and change color to reflect our state of being at any given moment.
I also discovered that my intuition seemed stronger and enhanced. I felt like I was plugged in to universal truths and knew how things worked much differently than before. As a plumber, I understood how water flowed through pipes, how blockages occurred, and how to increase water pressure and flow. If you think of human health and the role energy plays in our abilities to heal ourselves, it’s really not that different. The higher our vibration, the more energy can flow through our bodies comfortably without blockage. This makes it easier for the body to detoxify and process out the elements that hurt our health.
The next and most important feeling within myself was a deep sense of gratitude. Because I was more connected than ever before, I noticed all the little miracles around me that I took for granted or didn’t stop to notice before my accident. The beauty of nature, the butterflies, the blue skies, the rainbows, the wonderful smell of freshly cut grass, the sounds of the ocean, the birds . . . I saw and felt it all and it all felt like a miracle. How could all of this have slipped by me before? It was almost as if I had been sleepwalking and not aware of the world and its magnificence. I had always been pretty upbeat and social but I think I was missing some of the awe and wonder that surrounded me every single day. Now, I saw it all. I was awake and truly alive.
I thought often about how Jesus told me He was imprinting His teachings onto my brain so that I could become more. I still wasn’t sure what “more” meant, but I could see that my senses had been heightened and my perceptions had been widened.
Mother Mary alleviated my physical pain, but my body was still healing from the broken bones and fractures I had sustained. Yet after several months, I no longer felt unsteady and unsure about being back here. I had returned feeling sorry for myself and way too immersed in my own situation. Now, as the teachings filled me again, I couldn’t seem to focus on just myself. Jesus’s training had profoundly and fundamentally changed how I looked at everything and everyone.
It was like being reborn.
My spirits stayed high, but my physical recovery was slow. I decided that if I could practice stillness, I could learn more about why I came back and why I was chosen to have the experience.
And then there was another sign.
I was sitting at my desk at home in prayer and meditation. All of a sudden, I felt this amazing force, some incredible energy coming toward me. The energy felt familiar, like the energy I felt in Heaven and at the grotto—a very high vibration of Divine Unconditional Love. I couldn’t see the energy, but I could feel it as something very powerful but also very warm and loving, just like in Heaven.
Minutes later, I saw a large, bright ball of blue light come through the wall and streak through my apartment from one end to the other. The power of this blue ball of light made the lights in my apartment and the entire neighborhood go dark. All I could see was this amazing light. After a few minutes, the blue energy ball disappeared. The lights in my apartment and the neighborhood came back on. After witnessing this energy appear and disappear, I felt stronger and somehow revitalized. I felt even more connected to everything and more comfortable in my body.
Hidden in that ball was the gift of understanding. It was in this unforgettable moment that I received divine guidance and the answer that I had been seeking since I returned from Heaven. The reason I came back was so that I could someday share the revelations about how to access divine healing and help people better understand the nature of health and healing.
There was a reason—a plan—for why I was hit by a car, delivered to Heaven, and patiently taught precious revelations by Jesus. I was given the ability to see the new purpose for my life. I was meant to be able to understand the complexities of energy, learn how to self-heal, and help people understand that death isn’t something to fear.
To honor what I was learning, I settled into as much of a routine as possible. I prayed and meditated every day. I expressed gratitude. I continued to eat cleanly, meaning no processed foods or artificial ingredients. I monitored my thoughts for negativity, which I knew would produce only bad outcomes. Through faithfulness, positivity, and self-love, I became the architect of my own reality.
With all these new ideas and insights flowing into me, my spirit was soaring, but there was a negative side. I began to realize that my relationships prior to the accident had fallen by the wayside, most certainly because I was a changed man, unrecognizable to those who knew me before. Loneliness and isolation set in and began to grow.
I suspect they grew because I kept to myself. I didn’t share my experience with anyone. I thought it would sound too crazy, too over the top. I couldn’t imagine going up to someone new and saying, “Oh, yeah, I died and came back, and by the way, I met Jesus and God, and they taught me about the purpose of life and how to create a divinely inspired life.” Hearing that, who wouldn’t think I was crazy, self-righteous, or self-important? Down deep, I was just afraid of being ridiculed. Despite my trip to Heaven, I was still imperfectly human.
As time went on, though, I realized I was continuing to struggle with my old issues of self-worth, self-love, and balance. Maybe my reluctance to share my story also stemmed from the fact that I didn’t always honor my miracle. My life had many unhealed aspects, and there were stumbling blocks ahead.