Letter from Warsaw, 1979

for Kathleen McDonald

Copernicus sits on the heart of Europe lost

in thought his back to the Academy

on the corner of Nowy Swiat the New World

His noble brow is dark his hand outstretched

the day itself is dark and cold the month

the year the boots the eyes the bones the ashes

In his left hand he holds the galaxy

in his right (sometimes) a pigeon also dark

The universe is dark he says the sun is farther

than we thought

                             The mind is free

He swivels his huge head He looks behind

You never heard this he says Don't quote me

He shuts his blackened eyes They open shrewdly

as I pass Change money? the pigeon cries

Here as everywhere the couples interlock:

more so than Paris more than Rome because

the Poles are perfect existentialists

neither happy nor free We burn like arrows

from the classic bow in helpless flight

or heat-led missiles nosing out the warmest

target to destroy on contact The bleak

apartments bloom through smoke

a futuristic garden where paranoiac

petals blow in the northern wind

Mother to what shall we cling? You'd say Love

and Music Both grow here: one trembles

without privacy in crowded buses

taverns thin-walled rooms The other

an alcohol available to all

spreads its dark pool

to close our eyes and numb the abscessed pain

Surprised by tears I listen to my friend

with unpronounceable name playing the Polonaise:

even the chandeliers applaud flowers

enough to fill a common grave

What is art but God in the blood

crying to get out into this world?

Mother

I remember listening to you play Chopin

the Marche funèbre Sonata in B-flat Minor:

nothing too difficult or esoteric

your trembling fingers and panic-stricken eyes

in the dark house in Brooklyn where Grandpa

and poor paralyzed Uncle George refused

to talk to one another for thirteen years

Chopin then was a lesson to be learned

He still is In Warsaw they played his music

punishable by death in shadowed rooms

off old Krochmalna Street long since destroyed

Arts isn't democratic after all

it isn't equal: children

don't write the Polonaise

their prodigal fingers plunking out

virtuoso combinations without heart

The static music of computers

blossoms in patches of dry paralysis

like Walden II or rolfing

or illustrated manuals of sex:

they soil the air with blooms unholy

and irrelevant Mother you wanted beauty

for your children and fresh air Where

can we go but to the dignified cathedral

whose soaring arches stretch us beyond ourselves?

The first law is clarity or should be

to see as under a microscope what's killing us

the shape of evil the number of its heads

the teeth in each head the sharpness of each tooth

To taste its brass and filth to make

the tongue retract mouth dry up the throat constrict

till every breath is pain Clean to the bone

Then to begin again

The second law is beauty or will be

when our cities are leveled to the ground

and the trees planted When houses

go up there will be space between them

high ceilings and relations between the spaces

where light and air mingle like music

on our souls I told you once we had none

and you cried But you were right:

I feel it here in Warsaw with the strains of Chopin

rising through the fog above the river

that has seen the beating heart of Europe

bleed like a crimson torrent down a slope

till every stone grew slick And still the music sings

Ah mother you Irish romantic

you would love the Poles You burned for beauty

in a world recalcitrant

to poor girls from Brooklyn You did all your work

and more Your teachers were as ignorant

as the fat pigeons burbling by our door

Mother my brave darling

the third law might have been

Love your mother

But we have too many laws

so the third law is

There shall be only those two laws