SAFIA ELHILLO

AFTER

after Danez Smith, with a line by Ol’ Dirty Bastard

if you read this in red maybe i didn’t

survive every day i go missing one

eyelash at a time or sometimes all

at once         & in the heaven for

blackgirls gone away         we walk in

& out of rivers & wear     our good silks

our good brown velvet bodies     dripping

with sunlight     we sprout leaves & no one

decides for us to cut or keep them     we

bear fruit & self-sustain         we tread water we

pluck the moon for our hair & another grows

in its place         we are sistered or unsistered

but never again to a dead thing somewhere

a rope turns & turns & our feet never touch

the ground        somewhere a song plays

& plays & names us with each touch of a needle to our

round black surfaces

i’m hanging out          /partying/with girls/that never die