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Devil’s Tongue Weed (Japanese Slipperyweed, Red Lettuce), Grateloupia turuturu

Trust

for Rolan

The beckoning world began when he was little,

beetles, their wings a rush of water and bright metal, filled

his pockets, lizards leant curious heads from between his fingers,

their lithe bodies beating a pulse into his palm, bird wings

were the flight of his heart. Later came the gait

of different creatures, the thump of rabbit feet sending

a blood-shiver deep as tree-roots, the warmth of fox pups

sinking soft, fleet shadows in his skin. Doves, love birds,

ducks, dingoes, wombats, cats, horses, snakes; a bestiary

as disparate as the Arc. In adolescence he haunted

the sea, its salt-lure as strong as Circe’s, the animals

extraordinary in their self-containment and coldness,

their names leaping them from fish to friend,

Blenny, Goby, Cowfish, Weedfish, Stargazer, Grubfish, Kelpfish, Damselfish, Bullseye, Silverbelly, Velvetfish, Spinyfin, Sandpaperfish, Crusthead, Hardyhead, Wearyfish, Whiptail

and most endearing of all, the Handfish, crawling

with pectoral fins along the bottom, the size

to cup in his own hand. The river teemed, running

with its own music, separate to the world of air,

the fur-filled, warm-blooded world. Now it is his sons

who catch skinks and bluetongues, pocket beetles,

snails, slugs, worms, keep soft-furred rabbits in a hutch

in the garden and tadpoles completing miracles

in a green bucket. Walking the rocks, their fingers

anemone-like in his own, they spot eel, skate,

octopus, dolphin, seal, but he knows the handfish

are endangered and crayfish, once richly abundant

as their colour, are hard to find. It is a different song

he hears now, the refrain slow but inexorable:

Northern Pacific Seastar, Japanese Seaweed, Pacific Oyster, raw sewage spillage, atrazine, cadmium, mercury, zinc, lead.

He reads the latest reports, insists they only fish

in waters swept by Southern Ocean currents,

while each day, his sons salvage bones and fossils,

shells and starfish to line their bedroom window sill,

pulling the river one wave closer each time

until at night it laps at their ears and they sleep,

their world too small yet for pollution, poison, extinction,

knowing only renewal, their trust huge in his hands.

Adrienne Eberhard