FIFTY

1995

Betty awoke the following morning at six-thirty, in spite of having turned off her alarm clock the night before in preparation for her first lie-in in nearly a week. For a moment she forgot that she wasn’t going to work and almost leaped out of bed. Then she remembered. Amy and the kids were in the Cotswolds. She was free until six o’clock. Then she remembered something else. What Alexandra had told her the night before. About a man called Sandy Beach. Or Godfrey Pickle.

Yes. He had existed. Whoever he was and whatever his role in Arlette’s history, he had existed. He had somehow, although there was no record of it, passed on his colorful name to a woman called Clara. Who may or may not have been Arlette’s child but had, in some mysterious way, been significant enough to warrant a sizable chunk of inheritance.

The facts and the stories: Gideon Worsley, Godfrey Pickle, the portraits and the houses on Abingdon Villas and Chelsea Embankment, the photos, the programs, the book inscribed to Pickle—she had it all now, more information than Peter Lawler ever had at his disposal. But it felt like it had all landed on her lap in the wrong order, like a ripped-up letter that she needed to spread out flat on the floor and find a way to fit together.

She tried to make herself go back to sleep, but it was no use, her mind swirled and spun, laying out the facts this way and that, till she felt almost dizzy with it and jumped out of bed, poker-straight and ready to start the day. There was one last thing she hadn’t investigated: the address in St. Anne’s Court, the last known address of Clara Pickle. Arlette had already tried, and so had Peter Lawler. But there had to be another way in, another little clue in there somewhere, to open up the picture. She dressed and left the house.

• • •

The building was scruffy art deco. It would have been brand-new when Arlette lived in London. Now its white walls were streaked green with mildew, and the windows were thick with grime. Regardless of its appearance, the important thing about the building was that it faced directly opposite the address mentioned on Arlette’s will and that it appeared, from street level, to be entirely residential.

Betty appraised the building. It was nine-thirty, early for a Soho Saturday, but she didn’t have time for polite consideration. She had no idea when she would next get a morning off work. She strode towards the entrance of the building, which was slightly recessed from the street, and before she lost her nerve, she pulled back her shoulders and pushed the buzzer for apartment number one. A male voice answered with a bright and robust “Good morning!” She breathed a sigh of relief.

“Good morning!” she shouted into the intercom. “I’m trying to trace someone for an inheritance, and I’m looking for someone who might have lived in this block for a very long time.”

There was a pause and a crackle, and the jolly-sounding man said, sounding almost disappointed not to be able to help, “I’ve been here for six months.”

“Oh,” she said, “never mind. Do you happen to know if anyone else in this building has been here longer?”

“Nobody in this building talks to anyone else,” he hissed camply. “Stuck-up Londoners.” She noticed that his accent was northern. “But there is a very, very old lady up on the top floor. Smells of wee. She might do you.”

Betty wrinkled her nose. “Oh,” she said. “What flat number is she?”

“No idea, love, but if I buzz you in, you could go up and knock on some doors.”

Betty paused. The building was dank and depressing, and she didn’t love the idea of an old lady who smelled of wee. But this was as close as she was going to get to some answers, so she said, “Yes, great, that would be brilliant.” And heaved the door open when he buzzed it.

The interior of the small block was every bit as unappealing as the exterior, and she picked her way up the concrete stairs gingerly. There were only two doors at the top floor; one was painted pink and decorated with plastic flowers and garden gnomes. The other was painted dark blue and had a threadbare welcome mat outside. She looked between the two doors, trying to guess which one might belong to the incredibly old lady, and decided on the blue one, knocking gently with her knuckles.

She heard noises behind the door, shuffling and scuffling, muttering and moaning, and she held her breath, nervous about the imminent encounter. Then she heard catches and locks being pulled across the door before it opened against a chain, and she saw a very tiny woman with dyed black hair and heavily penciled-in eyebrows staring up at her. “Wrong house,” she whispered. “You have the wrong house.”

Her voice was strongly accented—Russian, possibly, or Polish. She went to close the door again, but Betty put her hand against it. “How long have you lived here?” she asked urgently.

“Wrong house!” she shouted out again.

“Please!” called Betty. “I’m trying to trace someone who used to live over the road, for an inheritance.”

“What!” The lady stopped pushing against the door and cupped a hand to her ear. Her fingernails were very long and painted burgundy.

“I’m trying to find someone. For an inheritance,” Betty repeated, enunciating each word precisely.

“No,” said the woman, “I am not the right person. I do not have any inheritance.”

She went to close the door again, and again Betty held it open. “I just need to talk to someone who’s lived here for a long time. Please. Can I just ask you a question or two?”

The woman narrowed her eyes at Betty. “What is your name?”

“Betty Dean.”

The woman smiled, revealing three teeth. Betty took in the cavernous, rotten maw with silent horror.

“Pretty girl,” the woman said, peering at her. “Very pretty girl. Are you on the game?”

“No!”

“Drugs?”

“No! I’m a nanny!”

The woman narrowed her eyes again and finally pulled open the door. Betty’s eyes widened at the full sight of her. No more than four-ten, so thin that every bone in her body was visible through her clothes, she wore a tracksuit made of cream velour with a garish diamanté pattern picked out on the sleeves and a series of huge medallions around her neck that were so heavy they caused her to stoop. The tracksuit was encrusted in places with old food and other substances that Betty didn’t care to ponder on for too long, and she did smell very strongly of wee. Her alarmingly dark hair was piled on her head in an unsavory bird’s nest, with three inches of snow-white roots.

Betty stayed where she was, feeling quite strongly that she did not want to enter the lady’s flat. Instead, she smiled encouragingly and said, “What year did you move in here?”

The lady winced, as though the consideration of such a fact were physically painful in some way. “I have been here since 1943. I came during the war. With my baby.”

Betty nodded, silently acknowledging the likelihood of a terrible story behind her words.

“I am seventy-seven years old. Although I look much older.”

Betty shook her head. “No, you don’t, you—”

“I look a hundred. I feel a hundred. I want to die.”

Betty looked at her in alarm.

“Don’t be worried about this. It is normal. One day you will be old like me, and you will not be pretty anymore, and your child will be dead and your husband will be dead and your lover will be dead and you will live alone in this terrible place and you will also want to be dead. Believe me!”

Betty jumped slightly and then smiled sympathetically, a slightly inconsequential reaction to the words, but all that she could come up with. “When you came to live here,” she asked, “do you remember at all who lived across the road, in those flats above the Mexican restaurant?”

“Mexican restaurant? What Mexican restaurant?”

Betty pointed through the small window on the landing towards the street. “Down there,” she said.

“Ach,” said the woman, “the last time I went out there, it was a French restaurant. Everything changes. All the time.”

“And the flats.” Betty steered the conversation back to saliency. “Do you remember who lived there before they turned them into offices?”

The woman put her door onto the latch and shuffled towards the window. Betty drew in her breath against the sour aroma. “Yes,” she said, “I remember.”

Betty’s heart began to race. “You do?”

“Yes. How could I forget? It was a home,” she said, “for unwed mothers. Mainly call girls and foreigners. Run by the Church.”

“The Church?”

“Yes. St. Anne’s. Do-gooders. No place for children, I would have thought. But there were still children in that place up until a few years back. You could hear those babies screaming. One stopped, another started. That one stopped, another one started. All through the night. And then one day”—she turned and smiled again—“all the babies left, they boarded it up, and so it was until they turned it into offices.” She turned back to the window. “And then, of course, I missed the babies.”

“How long do you think it had been a home when you moved here?”

The woman shrugged, her tiny bones of shoulders jutting almost out of their sockets. “I do not know,” she snapped. “Ask the Church! Ask the do-gooders!” She relaxed her shoulders and sighed. “So,” she asked, “who is it? Who is this lucky person who is going to get your inheritance?”

“I don’t know,” said Betty. “But I think it might be one of those screaming babies across the road. Someone called Clara Pickle. Or Clara Jones.”

“What was her date of birth?”

“We don’t know.”

“Then how are you going to find her?”

Betty stared through the window at the smart offices where Clara Pickle might have started her mysterious life. “I don’t know,” she said.

“That is a lot of not knowing.” The woman looked at her skeptically. “Go and talk to the Church.” She tapped her veined temple with one gnarled old finger. “Get yourself some knowledge.”

Betty breathed in huge gulps of fresh air when she left the building a moment later. She tried not to think too much about the lady, whose name she had never asked, tried not to think about her dark day-to-day life or who cared for her, or how it might be to be so old and care so little for life. She headed straight for St. Anne’s Church on Wardour Street, hoping desperately that her run of good luck was not about to run out.

• • •

The church looked odd, perched between the bars and restaurants, the gaming lounges and betting shops, as if it had been left there accidentally. A plaque commemorated its reopening by Princess Anne after it had been blown apart in World War II. And on this sunny Saturday morning in June, the church and its community center were buzzing with people and activity in an encouraging manner.

Betty found the vicar talking with a grimy, tearful man of the street, who kept sniffing loudly and wiping his streaming nose on the sleeve of his tattered jacket. She sat and waited patiently for a few minutes until the homeless man smiled widely, hugged the vicar, picked up a filthy rucksack, nodded at Betty, and left the building.

“Good morning,” the vicar boomed in a soft Scottish accent. “Are you looking for me?”

Betty nodded and got to her feet. “Yes,” she said, “do you have a moment or two to spare?”

“I have many moments to spare. Today is my official day of spare moments.” He beamed.

Betty smiled back and said, “Do you know anything about a home for unwed mothers that your church used to run in St. Anne’s Court?”

He held an arm out towards her. “This sounds like a moment for spending in my office,” he said. “Do come with me.”

She followed him into a smart office, across a courtyard, located slightly away from the church.

“Now,” he said, holding the door open for her, “we’ve only been on these premises for a few years, but I’m pretty certain that everything came with us. For a long time there was no church here to speak of, just a wreck, so all the paperwork was kept together by necessity. And I do vaguely recall something about the home for unwed mothers. Sit.” He waved at a green chair. “Tea?”

“Yes, thank you.”

He called through his door to someone in an adjoining room for two mugs of tea and then turned back to Betty. “Tell me what you need to know.”

“I’m looking for a beneficiary. For my grandmother’s will. She’s called Clara Pickle. And she lived at the address of the home at some point. And that is all I know.”

“Right, so, no date of birth?”

“No date of birth. I think she might have been mixed race. And her mother’s name might have been Arlette. Or might not have been Arlette. And if it wasn’t Arlette, then I have no idea what it might have been.”

“And her father?”

Betty blinked. She gulped. “Yes,” she said, “the father. I can tell you all about the father. His name was Godfrey Pickle. He was a really famous musician.”

The vicar pulled out a large box folder and said, “Right, let’s start at the beginning: 1920. That’s when the home was opened. Let’s start there and see where we end up. I’ll call out names, you tell me to stop if you hear anything interesting.”

It took only about five minutes for the vicar to get to the name Esther Jones.

“Jones!” said Betty. “That was the other name on the will, Clara Jones! Does it say what her baby’s name was?”

He peered at the piece of paper. “Let me see, hmm, hmm, yes, here it is. Esther Jones was signed into the home on the twenty-second of October 1921. And she gave birth in November 1921. To, yes, a baby girl. Called Clara Tatiana. She weighed seven pounds and fifteen ounces. Mother and baby both well, it says here.”

Betty felt tingles racing up and down her spine.

“And it says here that they moved out in January 1922, and that, oh, this is interesting, it gives the name of the father here. And it’s not your Mr. Pickle. No, it says here the baby’s father was called Edward Minchin. Yes. Edward John Minchin. Of 24 Rippon Road, London SE.”

Betty furrowed her brow. “That makes no sense. Why would my grandmother have left all her money to a girl born to two people I’ve never heard of?”

The vicar shrugged. “I have no idea,” he said. “Although you’ve never heard of them, your grandmother clearly had. And now you have the girl’s real name.”

She looked at him quizzically.

“Yes. You’ve been looking for a Clara Pickle or a Clara Jones. But she was neither of those, was she? She would have been a Clara Minchin. Clara Minchin of Rippon Road.” He leaned back into his chair and eyed her conclusively. “I think your search might almost be over.”