11. Birds

At dawn Dom and Fred are back at The Letters.

The birds squawk quietly.

It’s freezing.

Fred

A few days later, I read—

“Dom is no longer in a ‘relationship’ and is ‘single.’”

Pause.

What happened?

Dom

You wouldn’t understand.

Fred

Try me.

Dom

We talked all night last night.

I could’ve cried out every tear in my body and died.

She says she’s really happy when she’s with me.

That I was kind, that I was funny, that I was attentive.

She says she loves me,

she loves me, Fred!

She says I make her laugh with my cotton clouds

and my bulldozer arms.

I told her about that, told her how I was a bigger person

when I was with her.

But even with everything—

the butterflies in our bellies,

the messages we send every eight seconds,

my name in lipstick on her bedroom mirror,

even with all that,

. . .

She can’t.

Fred

What?

Dom

Be . . .

with “a girl who’s pretending to be a guy.”

And with all the comments and looks from other people.

At our legs walking and our hands holding.

At her profile page.

And in real life.

When I was with her I actually felt like showing up to school every morning.

You were right—love always ends badly.

Pause.

Fred

Things aren’t exactly peachy for me either,

if it makes you feel any better.

Dom

It doesn’t.

Fred

I almost killed myself.

Dom

What?

Fred

The night of Valentine’s Day.

I almost jumped.

Off the bridge.

Dom

What?

Fred

But I changed my mind.

Death is a bit too . . . permanent.

Dom

Don’t do that ever again.

Fred

Okay.

I’m— I’m sorry.

Dom

It’s okay.

Pause.

Fred

When I was on the bridge, I told myself:

If I survive the fall,

maybe I’ll be normal after, because of the shock.

Maybe that’s all I need.

A long pause.

Dom

I know what you need.

Fred

I don’t feel like smoking now.

Dom

That’s not what I’m talking about.

Fred

Then what?

Dom

Fred.

Fred

No.

Pause.

Stop.

Don’t be stupid.

Never gonna happen.

Dom

Come on. Let’s do it.

Fred

No.

Dom

We’ll show them!

Fred

Today? In front of everyone?

Dom

You’ve been talking about it long enough!

Pause. A sigh. Something gives.

Fred

Okay . . .

Dom

Yes.

Fred

I’m scared!

Dom

I know.

Fred

What are they going to think? What are they going to say?

What are they going to—

Dom

They’re just a bunch of stupid chickens!

Just picture everyone naked.

Fred

Good idea!

Dom takes out some eyeliner.

Dom

Face me.

Fred

I don’t know.

Dom

We can wait until tomorrow, if you want.

Fred

No! Today’s the day.

Dom

Look up.

And don’t move.

Dom does his best to draw a line under Fred’s eyes, cheered on by The Letters and the cliff.

Fred

How . . . how does it look?

Dom

Hey, Fred!

Fred

Dom has his phone out in a flash.

Dom

And I take a selfie, to capture the moment.

Fred

There’s someone in the picture

who looks like me.

But better.

That guy is who I am.

I am that guy.

Dom

All of a sudden, the birds gather above us, wings flapping, applauding us.

Pause.

Fred

And I do it.

My father drives us to school and I tell him, “You don’t need to worry, Dad.”

Then I walk into class, like this.

. . .

And then . . .

Pause.

Dom

Nothing.

Fred

Well, sure, Jimmy and his sheep make their usual comments.

Dom

No worse than before.

Fred

At lunchtime, people I don’t even know come up to me and ask if I want to listen to music after school.

Dom

You’re—really beautiful.

Fred

Who, me?

Dom

No, your cousin, dummy!

Fred

You think so?

Dom

I’ve never seen you look this beautiful.

Fred

I’m embarrassed.

Dom

Me too.

Pause.

Fred

You too.

Dom

Me too?

Fred

Yes. You too.

Pause . . . It’s pretty awkward.

Did we just make the spring come, Dom?

Dom

Are you nuts? It’s still freezing.

Fred

Like you said, it can be hot out if you want it to.

Look, Dom!

Look, the sun’s coming out.

The temperature’s going up, up to thirty, thirty-five degrees.

Snow’s melting all around us.

Melting as we watch.

Giant palm trees are sprouting in the streets and knocking over houses.

The schoolyard’s covered in sand.

The river’s turned into an ocean, Dom.

See for yourself, if you don’t believe me.

No one’s ever seen waves like this before.

People are coming and putting up umbrellas.

They’re selling cotton candy and beer.

Actually, they’re giving it away for free, even to minors!

Your mother (See? She’s not so bad.) and my father are catching some rays, and for once they’re smiling at us.

No more winter jackets—we’ve got bathing suits on.

What kind are you wearing, Dom?

Dom

Just shorts. I don’t have boobs, anyway.

Dom holds Fred’s hand.

Fred

That’s okay, I don’t either.

We’re both here, wearing shorts, and we run into the ocean.

The water’s warm, the fish are warm, the sharks are leaving us alone,

we’re getting burnt to a crisp but who cares.

At the crest of a wave, we give everyone the finger. Screw you!

No more laws, not anymore, even gravity can’t keep us down now!

We don’t care what anyone thinks.

We get carried far, far away, Dom.

We swim with the jellyfish. They say jellyfish are immortal.

We turn into jellyfish and become immortal, too.

It sure is hot out, isn’t it, Dom?

Dom

I’ve never been so hot in all my life.

While Fred was speaking, absolutely everything appeared: palm trees, jellyfish, cotton candy . . .

They float in the ocean with their shirts off.

Their smiles say “screw you.”

Fred

Dom?

Dom

What, Fred?

Fred

Are you holding my hand?

Dom quickly lets go of Fred’s hand.

Dom

I’m, I’m . . . sorry.

Pause.

Fred

It’s okay.

Dom

Don’t think that—

Fred

That what?

Dom

I mean—

Fred

Of course not!

Dom

Because, you know—

Fred

I know!

There’s no way we could ever actually date, Dom.

Pause.

Dom

Why not?

Fred

Well because . . .

How would it . . .

What would I be?

Dom

I don’t know. But I’m sure we’d figure it out!

They laugh.

Pause.

They stop laughing.

Hey, I didn’t tell you. The old bird called me to her office.

First time anyone ever praised me for anything at school.

And all I did was show up for class.

I said it was your fault. I had to defend you.

Fred

Very funny.

Dom

Compliments lead to buying bungalows.

We’re not going to be like them, huh, Alfred?

Fred

No matter what, Dom,

we’re never going to be like them.