The son lay in his bed. The mother downstairs, the mother having coaxed the son to waking, having held and wished and prayed above him until the son opened up his eyes.
The son had told the mother about the ants. He said it over and again until finally she’d lifted him up and led him through the house to see how all was well, nothing was there, not a thing, no ants. Not even one. Nor inside him, she said. Never.
Again alone, around the son the air was clear.
Alone the son lay cocked still and looking up, transfixed with something there above him, in his thoughts—breath burnt like scratched black barns in yards of long grass smudged and smoldered—the son crimped and creaming—the son as a thing not in the room but of it—the son as a field of cells—the son—the son’s backbone—the son’s miles of intestine, fat with grease and shit and knitting—
The son stopped thinking for a second and when the breath inside him broke he swung, sat up.
The son heard something near him moving. The lights inside the room were on.
The son moved and put his feet down. He turned around and saw behind him where ants were still there coming right in through the wall—through cracks, in hordes of slow procession from the bathroom to the closet where they’d gather in a mass. The son sneezed. He smiled. The ants. He’d said it. His mother did not know.
The son rose up from his chair and crossed the room.
The son moved into the closet with the ants beneath him and stood and looked among his stuff—the leagues of old dolls he’d once collected against his father’s will, with sets of eyes each, the outgrown clothes, the many knives, the clippings of local outbreak he’d collected since his own sick, spread on the air—sick that since had kept a certain air about him, dirt and pickles—as well the snips he’d taken from his hair in private for safekeeping, as had the father, stashed in little baggies marked with dates—so much the son had stowed, not knowing.
The ants were not after these things.
The ants were swarming the black package.
They were all around it.
Mashing. Massive.
Clicking eyes.
Click clack.
The son had had the package in the closet all this time.
The son had stepped over it naked, getting dressed.
The box had seen his dick.
He’d walked around it like something that’d been affixed for ages, something built into the house and in the son’s life—common as a keyhole or an eye.
The ants were all around the box. The son could hardly see. He could hardly remember where it’d come from.
He could not remember.
With the flat skin of his small hands, the son brushed ants’ bodies from the box.
At his touch the ants seemed to die or stiffen or go dumb, sloughing off the box in crippled hordes.
The son lifted the box against his body and carried it back into his room.
In the exact center of the carpet he held the box between his knees.
The box’s outer lining was a silky, stretchy putty that would not quite come off with his nails. The son stretched the stuff in strands of sheeting, slurring his cuticles, stuck deep. It burned.
The son went to the closet, hearing nothing. The son got out exactly the right knife.
There were no markings on the outside of the package except for two small watermarks the son could not see.
Under the black lining was another lining.
Under that lining was a box.
The box was a cloth-wrapped package, blackened, and kind of smashed along the sides. The addressee’s name had been removed. The son split the seam edge on this new box with another certain kind of knife. He opened this new box as well and found inside it yet another. This next box was bubble-wrapped and wound around with tape. This box had a new address that had also been marked out.
When the son shook the package he could hear something in it move.
In the third package was another package.
In the fourth package was another package.
And the fifth, the sixth, the seventh.
What came out of the seventh package seemed too large to have fit inside the others. It was nearly four times the size of even the original black package. It was writ with words, which ants were still swarmed over, crawling up the son’s arms and in his armpits and his teeth.
Across the street, the enormous box upon the neighbor’s yard—a mirror image of this seventh box, here—was changing shape.
The son had a tattoo now on his back. The tattoo was of a tree. It discolored the son’s already discolored skin. The tree’s branches spread up his shoulders, up his neck toward his eyes.
As the son unwrapped the center of the seventh box the tattoo sunk into another layer.
The son was made of layers, too.
In the seventh box’s single center—fat and bloodred—there was a nodule.
The nodule had a lever.
The son pulled the lever and the center bloomed—bloomed out into a light—a light as large as many rooms—
—& the son could not stop shaking.
He could not stop.