THEY HAD GONE to the spring prom together in ‘86. By July, Denny Runyon had left town and Lindy was married to Bernard Steeple and pregnant with Declan. She lived for more than ten years in a house that became a prison to her with a man she grew to despise. Then she flew the coop, with only two postcards to indicate the direction of her flight. Five years later, Denny Runyon died in that same house.
“It explains one thing,” said Dec.
“What’s that?”
“Why they didn’t want me at the inquest.”
He waited for Ezra to refute what he had said with some implacable logic. But Ezra only nodded.
“You’re right. It would have had to come up. Probably that’s why Mahood was at the inquest.”
Dec looked stonily at the table. First bell had come and gone. Second bell as well. They were all alone at the table outside guidance and no one seemed to care. The yearbook still lay open in front of them. Dec felt numb.
Finally, Ezra patted him on the arm. “The coroner obviously reached the conclusion that there was no connection between Lindy and Runyon’s relationship and Runyon’s death.”
“How can you say that?”
Ezra shrugged. “If there was even a hint of foul play, the case would have gone to court for a proper trial. That’s what an inquest is all about.”
The news did little to relieve Dec of the niggling doubt he felt, or of his resentment. It stuck in his craw. Why all the secrecy? Why had they treated him like a child? He felt his mother at his ear whispering to him, cajoling him.
Ezra took off his tiny thick glasses and cleaned them on the tail of his shirt.
“You know,” he said, “they might have had a good reason for not telling you.”
“Like what?”
“Like it would make the accident seem worse.”
Dec scoffed. “The guy died. How much worse could it get?”
“Look at it from their point of view,” said Ezra. “They figure, hey, this kid is traumatized enough. If he finds out Runyon wasn’t just any old stranger, maybe it’s going to plunge him into despair.”
Dec grinned. “Plunge me into despair?”
Ezra placed his specs back on his nose. “A sensitive guy like you,” he said. “Who knows?”
Dec felt foolish. He was sensitive — too sensitive for his own good. He looked at the picture of his mother, the smile in her eyes. He looked at the boy whose neck her arms were draped around. There was no tattoo there, not yet.
Ezra closed the yearbook. “Talk to your dad, Dec,” he said. “The truth shall set you free.”
And that was what he planned to do. But his dad wasn’t home. He was in Kingston, according to Mary, Sunny’s babysitter. Wouldn’t be back until that night sometime. Dec wasn’t about to ask Birdie. They weren’t fighting, exactly, but their communications had reached the pass-the-butter stage. Sometimes when their eyes met he saw a reflection of his own resentment. And sometimes he thought he saw something like fear.
Sunny’s ear was still bothering her. She kept whining and wanting him to read to her. By dinner he was Sunnied out, so, ignoring his apprehensions about the place, he grabbed his backpack and his computer and headed once more to the big house. He had a ninety percent average he planned to keep come hell or high water, and exams were just around the corner. Getting out of here had never seemed more important.
Steeple Hall loomed before him. He had lost his mother there and found her again, but not the mother he had expected. He wasn’t sure if his memory was betraying him or enlightening him, but either way, he didn’t think he could take much more of it.
He set up his iBook in his grandfather’s study and stared at the screen, trying not to listen for a voice in every creak and groan of the wind-shifting night. His imagination wanted to wander off up the spiral stairs or drift down into the cellar. He tried not to think of the cellar at all.
He finished “Frozen Music,” ending the paper with a quote by Frank Lloyd Wright. “The physician can bury his mistakes, but the architect can only advise his clients to plant vines.” It was a good quotation. It made him think of the fairytale in which briars grew up around the castle where the princess lay in a dead sleep. It made him think of how the briars, sharp as razors, grew so thickly that they completely consumed the castle until it was lost to view.
He closed his laptop. It was after nine. He knew he should go, but he stayed another moment. He wasn’t sure why.
There was a telephone on the desk. It was a homely black article with the number PAcific 2-3039 typed on a little circle of yellowing paper in the centre of the dial. He picked up the receiver. It had been disconnected a long time ago. The new phone line would only service the security system. There was no way to call out of the House of Memory. He put down the receiver and imagined a telephone that connected you to the past.
The wind was picking up. It rattled the windows in their sockets. He pushed himself free of the desk, glancing below it, glad to see the space empty. Opening the door, he stepped into the hall. He reached back to turn off the study lights, and she was on him like a shot.
“Where have you been?” she demanded.
He cringed. “Leave me alone!”
“Oh, don’t be such a wimp,” she said. “You are so like your father sometimes.” Then she took him by the hand and started dragging him upstairs.
“You’re hurting me,” he cried. His hand was so small, her pull so large. He felt her fingernails dig into his skin.
“Mommy,” he said, pleading.
She wasn’t listening. She was agitated about something, wanted to show him something. He fell on the stairs and she dragged him back up to his feet as if he were a dog on a leash. She led him to his father’s childhood room and slammed the door behind them.
“There,” she said triumphantly, her body pressed against the door.
“I don’t want to play hiding on Daddy,” whined Dec.
“Then you haven’t been paying attention,” she hissed. She returned to the door, listening intently, as if someone was after them. When she was satisfied that no one was coming, she turned to him. “Time for a history lesson,” she said.
She looked old. There were bags under her eyes and her skin looked as pale as bread dough. She was wearing raggedy jeans and a pink T-shirt with a kitten on it. Her hair was tied back in a scruffy ponytail. There was a slur to her speech, as if she’d been drinking. She liked to burn the candle at both ends, she had told him once. He had wondered how you did that, where you held the thing.
She led him to a corner of the room where a magnificent construction sat. It was made of Meccano pieces. The Super Excavator.
“Look,” she demanded.
The Excavator stood on its own small stand. She turned on the light above it.
“I want to tell you a story,” she said.
“About Daddy’s excavator? I know that story.”
“Not all of it,” she said sharply. “It required one hundred and fifteen parts to make this thing, Dec.”
“I know, Daddy told me. The Master Engineer’s set. He got it for Christmas.”
“One hundred and fifteen parts,” she said again, as if trying to find her place in the story. “But that wasn’t all the parts in the Master Engineer’s set. When he was done, there was a handful of stuff left in the box.”
Dec was quiet now. This was new territory. His father hadn’t told him about spare parts.
She knelt behind him, steadied herself with a hand on his shoulder. She reached out to turn the crank, make the bucket go up and down, up and down. Then she leaned close to whisper in his ear, so close that the smell of alcohol made him feel woozy.
“I asked myself what he did with the leftovers.”
Dec didn’t understand. He was mesmerized by the bucket going up, going down.
“What do you think, huh?”
Dec bit the inside of his mouth.
She laughed. “Well, I’ll tell you then. He chucked them.”
He reached out to try the crank himself.
“He threw them away, Dec.”
She pulled his hand away from the crank. “Are you even listening to me?”
“Yes,” he said, his voice barely a whisper.
“Think of it,” she said. “The set was brand new that very day, a Christmas present. And he just threw out what he couldn’t use.”
Then Dec felt her wrap her arms around his chest and lay her head against his back. He felt the weight of her on him. He felt her voice more than heard it, felt it resonate through his torso, her voice journeying back to him through so many years.
“You see, he doesn’t really keep everything” she said. “Whatever doesn’t fit, he gets rid of.”