On March 30, 1877, the New York Herald, one of the largest newspapers in America, printed a lengthy love letter that had been written on September 12, 1758. Not exactly hot news, you might say. Had the editors lost their collective marbles? The Herald’s editors did not think so. Nothing they printed that day created more of a sensation among their readers. The letter was from George Washington. Here is the heart of its text, exactly as it was printed:
Tis true I profess myself a votary of love. I acknowledge that a lady is in the case and further I confess that this lady is known to you. Yes, Madame, as well as she is to one who is too sensible to her charms to deny the power whose influence he feels and must ever submit to. I feel the force of her amiable beauties and the recollection of a thousand tender passages that I could wish to obliterate till I am bid to revive them. But experience, alas, sadly reminds me how impossible this is, and evinces an opinion which I have long entertained, that there is a destiny which has control of our actions, not to be resisted by the strongest efforts of human nature. You have drawn me, dear Madam, or rather have I drawn myself into an honest confession of a simple fact. Misconstrue not my meaning; doubt it not nor expose it. The world has no business to know the object of my love declared in this manner to you when I want to conceal it. One thing above all things in this world I wish to know, and only one person of your acquaintance can solve me that, or guess my meaning. But adieu to this till happier times, if I shall ever see them.
In this welter of indirection and hinted meanings was George Washington crying out, “I love you! Do you love me?” The Herald’s headline was: “A Washington Romance.” Beneath it was a subtitle: “A Letter from General Washington Acknowledging The Power of Love.” Then came an introduction to the text:
In a collection of rare and autograph letters which will be sold by Bangs & Co. this afternoon we find the accompanying letter written by General Washington at the age of twenty six and never before made public. The present owner purchased it in England some years ago for the sum of L15. The letter is addressed to Mrs. Sarah Fairfax at Belvoir. This lady was a Miss Cary, to whom George Washington once offered his hand but was refused for his friend and comrade, George William Fairfax. Irving asserts that it was a sister of Mrs. Fairfax, Miss Mary Cary, after Mrs. Edward Ambler.
“Irving” refers to Washington Irving, author of an acclaimed five-volume biography of Washington. But the Herald reporter dismisses Irving’s assertion by citing an article that was published in Scribner’s magazine in June of 1876, in which a Fairfax descendant insisted it was Sally Cary, Mrs. Fairfax, for whom Washington “had a tenderness.” He quotes from the article: “It is fair to say that papers which have never been given to the public set this question beyond a doubt. Mrs. George William Fairfax, the object of George Washington’s early and passionate love, lived to an advanced age in Bath, England…Upon her death at the age of eighty-one, letters, still in possession of the Fairfax family, were found among her effects, showing that Washington had never forgotten the influence of his youthful disappointment.”
Next came a gaffe that underscores why newspapers are often called history’s first draft. The reporter noted that in the sentences preceding the confession that he was “a votary of love,” Washington rebuked Sally Fairfax for suggesting in a letter to him that he was preoccupied with “the animating prospect of possessing Mrs. Custis.” The reporter blithely dismissed this reference to Washington’s future wife: “It is hardly probable that Washington means to express his love for Mrs. Custis, for her husband was then living—in fact did not die until twenty years after the date of this letter.” Readers who had access to Washington Irving’s biography swiftly discovered that Daniel Parke Custis had been dead more than a year when Washington wrote this September 12, 1758, letter to Sally Fairfax. Worse, on or about June 5, 1758, he had become engaged to marry Martha Dandridge Custis.1
For Americans who regarded George Washington as a virtual incarnation of divinity—and they were numerous in 1877—the letter created consternation. It was only three months after the fervent yearlong celebration of the one hundredth anniversary of independence, in which Washington had been portrayed as the ultimate hero. Today, the Bangs auction house would have been rubbing its hands with unconcealed glee and kiting the price of the manuscript into the stratosphere. In 1877, no bidding took place. Bangs merely announced that the letter had been sold for $13. Even in 1877, when the dollar was worth perhaps thirty of our depreciated dollars, the price is much too low to be believable. Rumor long maintained that the purchaser was J. P. Morgan, but no evidence has been discovered to support that assertion. Whoever he was, the buyer evidently felt he was performing a patriotic act by removing the letter from sight.
For the next eighty years, the original letter remained unexamined by scholars, which spurred violent arguments about its authenticity and meaning. Some people were eager to dismiss it as a forgery. But the first two collectors of Washington’s papers reluctantly decided to include the newspaper text because the style was so unmistakably authentic, and no one could produce an adequate reason for forging it. Not until the late 1950s did a determined Washington biographer find the original in the files of Harvard’s Houghton Library. That discovery has not prevented people from continuing to disagree over its meaning.2
Some historians have argued it is a good-humored joke, the sort of risqué banter that men and women often exchanged in the eighteenth century. John C. Fitzpatrick, who spent several decades on his monumental edition of Washington’s papers, maintained that the letter was a paean of praise for Martha Custis. He took ferocious issue with those who said that Washington was professing his passion for Mrs. Fairfax in spite of being engaged to Martha. If they were correct, Fitzpatrick wrote, every decent person would be forced to conclude that George Washington was “a worthless scoundrel.”3
II
Sally Cary Fairfax was the daughter of one of the wealthiest planters in Virginia, Wilson Cary, possessor of a splendid estate at Ceelys, on the James River overlooking Hampton Roads, not far from Newport News. The family also enjoyed comfortable town houses in Williamsburg and Hampton. Wilson Cary’s father had been rector of the College of William and Mary; the younger man had studied there and at Trinity College in England. His houses were stocked with the latest English books and magazines, and he took pleasure in teaching Sally and her three younger sisters how to read and write French. He was one of the leaders of the colony’s legislature, the House of Burgesses, which meant that each year the Carys enjoyed the brilliant social season in Williamsburg while the burgesses were in session. It was a world of fancy balls, lavish dinners, and witty conversation that made the pursuit of happiness a fact of life long before it became a phrase in a political declaration.4
An anecdote passed down in the Cary family gives a glimpse of Sally that suggests she was the center of male attention at an early age. She was returning to the family’s Williamsburg house while one of the colonial wars with France was raging and the town was patrolled by sentries. One of these soldiers demanded to hear the password of the night from Sally’s coachman. The man was flummoxed into silence. Sally stamped her foot and cried, “But I am Miss Sally Cary!” The sentry gulped and said, “Pass.” It seems that the officer of the watch was an admirer and had made “Sally Cary” the password as a compliment to the young lady.5
At eighteen Sally married George William Fairfax, son of William Fairfax, the proprietor of Belvoir, on the Potomac River not far from Mount Vernon. The bride enjoyed the dizzying expectation that one day she might become not merely the mistress of this fine mansion but the wife of a bona fide nobleman. George William stood a better than even chance of becoming the next Lord Fairfax. This would not only entitle him to sit in the House of Lords in Parliament and preside over a vast English estate; it would make him owner of five million acres in northern Virginia that King Charles II had given to a maternal ancestor of Lord Fairfax in 1673.
This potentially glorious future was probably the best explanation for the match. William Fairfax had sent his son to England at the age of six to be educated by his family, describing him as a “poor West India boy.” George William was the product of a marriage that Fairfax had made in the Bahamas with the obscure widow of a British artillery major. Someone launched the rumor that the woman had Negro blood. For fifteen years, George William endured the unlovely experience of his wealthy English relatives eyeing his skin color and debating whether he was a mulatto.6
The result was a slight, rather timid young man with a dour, down-turned mouth surmounted by a strong hooked nose and shrewd close-set eyes. His letter to an influential Fairfax kinsman in England reporting his engagement to Sally did not exactly seethe with passion. He made it sound like it was something he had worked into his schedule while attending the House of Burgesses. He described Sally as an “amiable person” and reported that he had obtained her and her father’s consent to an early marriage. He closed by noting that “Col. Cary wears the same coat-of-arms as Lord Hunsden.” (The first Lord Hunsden was a cousin of Queen Elizabeth, Henry Carey.) This apparently was as important to George William as Sally’s charms.7
A portrait of Sally painted by a not very talented artist around this time reveals a slim, dark-haired young woman most people would call handsome rather than beautiful. But the narrow face is striking nonetheless: the deep-set dark eyes emanate a subtly mocking intelligence; the nose is strong and the mouth, firm and confident. Her waist is narrow and her bosom ample. It is not hard to imagine her as the leader of some lively revels.
Sally came to Belvoir as a bride in 1748 and soon met sixteen-year-old George Washington. He was a frequent guest at nearby Mount Vernon, where his older half brother, Lawrence, was happily married to Anne Fairfax, George William’s older sister. Lawrence was doing his utmost to rescue George, already six feet tall, from the clutches of his headstrong widowed mother, Mary Ball Washington, who was trying to convert her oldest son into a surrogate husband and father figure for her four younger children.
III
George’s father, Augustine Washington, had died in 1743, when George was eleven; later George mournfully remarked that he had only a blurred recollection of this huge, muscular man, a sort of rural Hercules famous for his feats of strength. For much of the time, Augustine had been an absentee father, traveling between his scattered farms and an iron works that required a great deal of his attention. Enterprise was in Augustine Washington’s blood. Since the arrival of the first Washington in Virginia in 1657, a refugee from the English civil war, the males had made a habit of marrying well and acquiring land. Augustine Washington had continued this tradition, expanding his holdings from 1,740 acres at the time of his first marriage to almost 11,000 acres at his death.8
Compared with the Carys, the Byrds, the Lees, the Randolphs, and the other first families of Virginia, the Washingtons remained “middling gentry.” Their house on 250-acre Ferry Farm, across the Rappahannock River from Fredericksburg, where George grew up, was an eight-room frame structure, not even faintly comparable to the stately brick mansions such as Robert Carter’s Nomini Hall or William Byrd’s Westover. Augustine Washington owned forty-nine slaves. Robert “King” Carter had over 600 toiling on his 60,000 acres. It is easy to imagine young George Washington’s awe when he visited Belvoir. Elegant English-made couches, chairs, and tables filled the parlor. At Ferry Farm, the parlor contained three beds.9
George’s mother, Mary Ball, was Augustine Washington’s second wife. Her mother was illiterate, and Mary received no education worth mentioning. She was a physically imposing woman, large and vigorous, with an explosive temper. One man described her as “majestic.” One of George’s boyhood playmates said he was “ten times more afraid of her” than he was of his own parents. One day, Mary stood up in her carriage on Fredericksburg’s main street and cursed and lashed a slave because he had mishandled the horse. As her oldest son, George was exposed at an early age to his mother’s tantrums. Worse, he inherited her violent temper.10
There are more than a few intimations that George Washington’s home life with this turbulent woman was unhappy before as well as after his father’s death. Second marriages, especially ones in which children of the first wife must be dealt with, are often uneasy. Augustine Washington’s decision to send his two sons by his first marriage, Augustine and Lawrence, to school in England at considerable expense may have been motivated in part by Mary’s sharp tongue and short temper.
In one of his boyhood notebooks, in which George laboriously copied such things as Rules of Civility and Decent Behavior in Company, he included in his strong, firm script a poem, “True Happiness.” It was a portrait of domestic tranquility. The “truly bless’d” enjoy a “good estate” with productive soil, a warm fire in the hearth, a simple diet, “constant friends,” a healthy mind and body—and “a quiet wife, a quiet soul.” Almost certainly, this portrait was the opposite of what George encountered on Ferry Farm. Were it not for the intervention of Lawrence Washington, it is dismaying to think what George Washington might have become.11
IV
Fourteen years older than George, Lawrence had inherited Mount Vernon from his father. His marriage to Anne Fairfax, William Fairfax’s daughter, had catapulted him from middling gentry into the heady stratosphere of Virginia’s aristocracy. Fairfax was the cousin and land agent for the sixth Lord Fairfax, who owned those five million acres between the Potomac and Rappahannock rivers. Virginians had done everything in their power to invalidate Charles II’s generosity, but the courts had upheld the royal prerogative, thereby making Fairfax the most influential name in Virginia. In swift succession after his marriage, Lawrence became adjutant of the Virginia militia and a member of the House of Burgesses. Add the polish of his English education and his love of martial glory and it is easy to see how he became a formidable figure on young George’s horizon.12
Thanks to Lawrence, George became a close friend of George William Fairfax. Seven years older than George, Fairfax accepted the elongated teenager as a companion at fox hunts at Belvoir and on trips to the Shenandoah Valley, where more Fairfax acres were being surveyed for sale. Under his genteel influence, Washington was soon spending the money he earned as a surveyor on stylish clothes and feeling at ease in the elegant atmosphere of Belvoir. To Mary Ball’s mounting exasperation, George spent more and more of his time on the banks of the Potomac.
Then came tragedy. Lawrence Washington was stricken with tuberculosis and slowly died before George’s grief-stricken eyes. In a desperate attempt to regain his health, Lawrence journeyed to the island of Barbados with George, hoping a winter spent in warm sunshine might restore him. The experiment proved fruitless for Lawrence—and doubly painful for George. He caught a bad case of smallpox, which he barely survived. Lawrence was as generous to his younger brother in death as he had been in life. He named George the heir of the Mount Vernon estate, if Anne Fairfax Washington predeceased him. In the meantime, George leased the house and lands from her for a modest sum. When Anne died in 1761, he became Mount Vernon’s owner.13
V
Mount Vernon was young George’s refuge from Mary—and nearby Belvoir was a place where he met some of the most sophisticated young women in Virginia. Sally Cary Fairfax’s sisters and numerous friends were frequent visitors. George soon proved himself more than vulnerable to their charms. One belle, who remains nameless, inspired some of the worst poetry ever committed by an adolescent:
O, ye Gods, why should my poor resistless heart
Stand to oppose thy might and power
At last to surrender to Cupid’s feather’d dart
And now lays bleeding every hour
For her that’s pitiless of my grief and woes
And will not on me pity take.
This atrocity may have been committed on behalf of “a lowland beauty” who particularly tormented George. He told his friend Robin during a sojourn in the Shenandoah Valley at Lord Fairfax’s hunting lodge that there was “an agreeable young lady” living in the house, but every time he looked at her, he thought of the “lowland beauty,” which was only “adding fuel to the fire.” There seems to be little doubt that George was powerfully attracted to the opposite sex—hardly surprising for a healthy, vigorous teenager.14
George’s romantic emotions slowly acquired a darker tinge. Sally Fairfax seems to have been a coquette who tantalized, teased, and dominated the men around her. She soon realized that one of her conquests was George Washington—a discovery that did not displease her. The contrast between the tall, muscular Washington and her short, precise courtier husband, whose greatest talent was assiduous flattery of his superiors, could not have been more complete. As they performed together in amateur theatrics, danced minuets in Belvoir’s ballroom, and exchanged gossip about the amorous doings of their contemporaries, George Washington fell violently in love with his close friend’s wife.
One of their favorite plays was Cato, written by the celebrated essayist and poet Joseph Addison in 1713. It was the most popular drama of the century; more to the point, it had two parts made to order for lovers and would-be lovers. Marcia was Cato’s devoted daughter; Juba was a North African warrior who rallied to Cato’s side when he resisted the rise of Julius Caesar. Marcia confessed her love for Juba, but Cato refused his approval because he was a mere colonial. Juba nevertheless remained devoted to the untouchable beauty.15
VI
By the time George realized what was happening to him emotionally, he was on his way to becoming Virginia’s best-known soldier. Grown to his full six feet two and one half inches, he stood, in the words of one eyewitness, “as straight as an Indian.” Thanks to his Fairfax connections, he was appointed a major of the militia at age twenty. The following year he won a skirmish against a French patrol that became the opening shots of the world’s first global conflict, the Seven Years’ War. Next, in spite of strenuous objections from his mother, George become a favorite aide of British general Edward Braddock and miraculously survived the rout of his army of regulars when they marched into western Pennsylvania to oust the French from Fort Duquesne, where Pittsburgh now stands. Ignoring four bullets through his coat and two horses killed under him, Washington was among the few who distinguished himself on that chaotic battlefield.
He staggered back to Mount Vernon a very tired man. A letter from William Fairfax reveals how closely the residents of Belvoir followed Washington’s military career: “Your safe return gives an uncommon joy to us and will no doubt be sympathized by all lovers of heroick [sic] virtue,” Fairfax wrote. He hoped a Saturday night’s rest would refresh the weary warrior enough to enable him to come to Belvoir in the morning.
Sally added a saucy note, cosigned by two visiting women friends, accusing the hero of “great unkindness in not visiting us this night. I assure you that nothing but being satisfied that our company would be disagreeable would prevent us from trying if our legs would not carry us to Mount Vernon this night; but if you will not come to us, tomorrow morning, very early, we shall be at Mount Vernon.” This is a letter from a woman who knows she has a certain gentleman virtually at her beck and call.16
VII
Washington soon became the colonel of a regiment of Virginia regulars that struggled to defend the 700-mile-long frontier against French and Indian incursions. George William Fairfax wrote him admiring letters, vowing that he would be honored to serve under his leadership. But Fairfax never got around to volunteering, even when his younger brother Bryan joined the seemingly endless and extremely dangerous wilderness war and another brother became an officer in the British regular army.
Washington’s relationship to Sally Fairfax during these years resembled a roller-coaster ride. He wrote her letters from the frontier, hoping she would honor him with a reply. But when his messages became too emotional, she abruptly ordered him to stop writing to her. At another point, she apparently banished him from Belvoir. He accepted this treatment with remarkable patience.17
Late in 1757, Washington suffered a physical collapse and staggered home to Mount Vernon, seriously ill with dysentery, a nameless fever—probably malaria—and a cough that reminded him alarmingly of Lawrence’s fatal malady. He took to his bed in Mount Vernon and asked Sally to obtain various medicines a local doctor had recommended. George William Fairfax had sailed for England to deal with his difficult relatives. His father, William, had recently died, giving his British cousins a chance to bring up the ruinous suspicion that George William was a mulatto. Washington’s younger brother, John Augustine (“Jack”), and his wife, who had been staying at Mount Vernon as caretakers, were away. Sally brought Washington his medicines—special wines, jellies, and other delicacies beyond the ability of Mount Vernon’s kitchen. Was it during these months that some or all of “the thousand tender passages” occurred that Washington struggled to forget in the letter he wrote a year later?18
We simply do not know. The other letters Washington and Sally exchanged have all been destroyed, except for one or two fragments and a puzzling note that he wrote to her when he first arrived at Mount Vernon in 1757. It is as laconic and impersonal as one can imagine, asking for help with his medicines. In mid-February Washington received a letter from George William, reporting he had survived the perils of the wintry Atlantic. He forwarded it to Sally, adding: “When you are at leisure to favor us with a visit, we shall endeavor to partake as much as possible of the joy you receive on this occasion.” This does not breathe deep passion, to say the least; it also suggests that Sally’s visits had been infrequent.19
During these months, Washington was a very sick man. He wrote a plaintive letter to the doctor who had treated him on the frontier, James Craik, reporting that he was not getting better. Dr. Craik replied that he was not surprised; his malady had “corrupted the whole mass of blood.” The physician ordered the patient to stay in bed and avoid any and all exertion, saying, “The fate of your friends and country [he meant Virginia] are in a manner dependent on your recovery.” This was flattering stuff, but not the sort of message that inspired a depressed, anxious man to become an impassioned lothario.20
VIII
Something else has to be factored into the situation at this point: Washington’s relationship to the Fairfaxes. William Fairfax had been almost as much a substitute father as Lawrence. After Lawrence’s death, William had regarded George as a member of the family and used his considerable power to push his military career whenever possible. When William Fairfax died, Washington had left his regiment and journeyed over the mountains to his funeral, ignoring the dysentery that was already making his life difficult. In a letter to his brother Jack, he remarked, “To that family I am under many obligations, particularly to the old gentleman.” To some extent these obligations extended to George William Fairfax. He had befriended George, the teenage country bumpkin, as Lawrence’s brother, and their relationship had remained close for the previous decade. There is not a hint in any of Washington’s letters of a change in opinion or attitude, even when he emerged as Virginia’s most notable military leader.
In fact, it can be argued with some force that this role of military hero only made the possibility of George realizing his desire for Sally Cary Fairfax more remote. In a sense George had become the man Lawrence might have been—and that only intensified his sense of obligation to the Fairfaxes. Honor was the brightest word in Lawrence Washington’s vocabulary—a beacon that both guarded and guided his conduct. The thought of doing something that Lawrence would have judged grossly dishonorable was a more than believable reason why George chained his desire deep within himself. It was another lesson in the harsh school of self-control in which destiny seemed to be matriculating him.
This does not mean that George Washington was inhibited by puritanical views of sexual conduct. Puritanism was almost as foreign to eighteenth-century Virginia as Mohammedanism. Life on the frontier was by no means devoid of women. Every eighteenth-century army had “camp women” who were married or pretended to be married to soldiers and followed them into the war zone. One of his officers wrote to Washington while he was home on leave, wondering if he was “plunged in delight…& enchanted by charms even stranger to the Ciprian Dame.” A Ciprian Dame was an available woman, sometimes a prostitute. Another officer wrote him from South Carolina, telling him that the local women lacked “the enticing heaving throbbing alluring…plump breasts common with our northern belles.” Such letters have enabled some writers to imagine a blazing covert affair between Sally and George that lasted months or even years.21
Far stronger is evidence that suggests Washington struggled to put Sally out of his mind and future. George pursued several other women, notably strong-willed Mary Philipse, heiress to a swath of the Hudson River Valley. But his efforts were halfhearted—proof, it might seem, either of his longing for Sally or of Mary’s temperamental resemblance to Mary Ball Washington. This was the situation in March 1758 when the ailing bachelor, still convinced that he was in his final days, mounted his horse and rode slowly to Williamsburg to see Dr. John Anson, the best physician in Virginia, hoping against hope that this medico might have a cure but fearing that he would deliver a death sentence. Before he departed, George told his British superior on the frontier, Colonel John Stanwix, that he had “ruined [my] constitution” and was thinking of “quitting my command.” He was convinced that he had tuberculosis and foresaw little but “approaching decay.”22
To Washington’s amazement and delight, Dr. Anson assured him that he was recovering nicely and had prospects of living to a vigorous old age. The reincarnated patient strode into Williamsburg’s spring sunshine and began thinking about what to do with the rest of his life. One of his first thoughts was marriage. The sequence inclines this writer to wonder if during the long winter of his illness, he and Sally had not told each other—or at least hinted—that they realized their love had no future. Another scenario, perhaps more likely, has Washington reaching this glum but unavoidable conclusion during the long, lonely night hours in his sickbed.
Realistically, in 1758 Virginia, there was no way that Colonel George Washington could marry Sally Cary Fairfax. It would have triggered an immense scandal that would have made them both social outcasts. A clandestine affair could easily have led to the same result. Either way, Washington would have exposed himself to a ruinous lawsuit from her outraged husband. Lurking in the background of both their minds was the memory of an earlier sex scandal: Lawrence Washington had sued a neighbor, accusing him of raping Anne Fairfax before her marriage. The lawsuit had been reported in salacious detail in newspapers throughout Virginia, Maryland, and Pennsylvania. Before it was over, everyone wished Lawrence had never mentioned the incident to anyone, no matter how much the vile deed may have haunted his wife.23
IX
With marriage on his mind, Colonel Washington rode from Williamsburg to the nearby estate known as The White House, on the Pamunkey River, to visit Martha Dandridge Custis. They undoubtedly knew each other already. The elite society of eastern Virginia was fairly small, and Martha and her husband, Daniel Parke Custis, had participated in its lively social world with enthusiasm. George and Martha had probably met and may have danced at more than one fancy-dress ball in Williamsburg.
A recent widow, Martha was receiving a veritable stream of suitors. In Virginia during these years, money was frankly accepted as a significant item in a marriage. Newspapers regularly stated the amount of a bride’s net worth. Elizabeth Stith, for instance, was described as “a very amiable lady with a fortune of a thousand pounds sterling.” Cash was often the baldly stated reason for mingling youth and age. Such women aspired to—and often expected—a certain amount of respect and independence. In Martha Dandridge Custis’s case, she could expect a great deal of respect and virtually unlimited freedom of choice. She was the richest widow in Virginia.
George was more than pleased with Martha’s warm, affable manner and was even more charmed when she invited him to stay overnight. He played cheerfully with her two children, John, four, and Patsy, two. As he departed, he tipped her servants extravagantly, a sure sign that he wanted their comments about him to be favorable.24
A week later, he returned for another visit and something seems to have been arranged. On May 4, the colonel ordered a ring from Philadelphia and a suit of “superfine” broadcloth from London to fit a “tall man.” By this time he was back on the frontier, once more in command of his regiment. They were soon part of another British army committed to ousting the French from Fort Duquesne.25
X
Here the aftershock of the turmoil stirred by the New York Herald’s publication of the letter to Sally Fairfax intrudes on our story. On July 20, 1758, George Washington supposedly wrote in a letter to Martha Custis:
We have begun our march for the Ohio. A courier is starting for Williamsburg and I embrace the opportunity to send a few words to one whose life is now inseparable from mine. Since that happy hour when we made our pledge to each other, my thoughts have been continually going to you as to another Self. That an all-powerful Providence may keep us both in safety is the prayer of your ever faithful and affectionate friend.26
A number of reputable historians have concluded this letter is a forgery. It was included in the first two editions of Washington’s papers, but John C. Fitzpatrick noted tersely, “The location of the original is not known.” Perhaps most important, the statement about beginning a march to the Ohio is wrong. On July 20, much to Washington’s exasperation, the British army was still sitting on the edge of the wilderness, debating which route to take. He was not even sure he and his troops would be included in the expedition. Furthermore, the word “courier” was never used by Washington during these years; he preferred “express.” Other words in the letter strike similar false notes. Perhaps most convincing, the style is extravagantly emotional from a man who has spent comparatively little time with Mrs. Custis.
Where did the letter come from? Was it concocted in an attempt to counter the 1877 revelation of the letter to Sally Fairfax? We know this much: it first appeared in 1886 in a sentimental biography of Martha Washington titled Mary and Martha, Mother and Wife of George Washington. The author, Benjamin Lossing, claimed he had seen the original, but it was never found by anyone else. It seems likely that the letter was forged by someone who was trying to make the letter to Sally seem like a fake. It might have been written by a Washington family descendant, who imposed it on Lossing, or by someone else with patriotic motives such as the mystery purchaser of the letter to Sally Fairfax in 1877.27
XI
These explanations enable us to see Colonel Washington grumbling and cursing in Fort Cumberland, Maryland, while the British ignored his advice on the best way to march on Fort Duquesne. Meanwhile, the evidence of George’s plans for the future were unfolding at Mount Vernon, which Washington had decided to expand and rebuild with all possible speed. George William Fairfax, back from Europe, was asked to help with advice and supervision. This inevitably led to Washington telling him about his engagement to Martha Custis. Fairfax naturally told his wife about this interesting change in the fortunes of their mutual friend. Into an envelope with a letter from George William about the Mount Vernon renovation, Sally slipped a letter of her own.
With that mocking style she preferred, Sally apparently teased Washington about his complaints that the campaign was moving too slowly. Was he impatient because he had become a “votary of love”? She was of course referring to his engagement to Martha Custis. But the lonely warrior, facing an Indian-rife wilderness in which there was a strong possibility of a bullet with his name on it, read a very different meaning into the inquiry. What came back to Sally was nothing less than an explosion—a jumbled cry of anguish from a man who could bury his feelings no longer. As usual, Sally was discreet. Her answer was apparently indirect; some historians think she pretended Washington was joking. The letter is lost. We have only Washington’s answer:
Do we still misunderstand the true meaning of each other’s letters? I think it must appear so tho I would fain hope the contrary as I cannot speak plainer without—But I’ll say no more and leave you to guess the rest.
He gloomily added that he was almost certain the expedition to the Ohio would end in disaster. Then he added words that had deep meaning for both of them: “I should think my time more agreeable [sic] spent, believe me, in playing a part in Cato with the company you mention and myself doubly happy in being the Juba to such a Marcia as you must make.”
He closed with some offhand speculation on the marital plans of several friends but made no mention of his own. Then came a last burst of emotion:
One thing more and I have done. You ask if I am not tired at the length of your letter? No, Madam, I am not, nor never can be while the lines are an inch asunder to bring you in haste to the end of the paper. You may be tired of mine by this. Adieu, dear Madam, you possibly will hear something of me or from me before we shall meet. Believe me that I am most unalterably, your most obedient and obliged….28
In his surviving letters to Sally, Washington never before wrote “most unalterably.” Once more he was telling her the secret that they would share for the rest of their lives. They were lovers that destiny had tragically separated, as history had forever parted Marcia and Juba.29
XII
Four months after he revealed this passionate longing, George Washington married Martha Custis. If romance was not uppermost in his mind, there is evidence that Martha felt a few tremors. Her first husband, Daniel Parke Custis, had been fifteen years older than she—and he was by most accounts a rather pathetic (though extremely handsome) man, browbeaten all his life by a miserly father. Towering Colonel Washington was not only Virginia’s foremost soldier, but he must have been a breathtaking sight in the suit of superfine blue cotton broadcloth that he had ordered from England for his wedding. To the end of her life, Martha saved a piece of her wedding dress—deep yellow brocaded satin threaded with silver—and the white gloves her new husband had worn to the ceremony.30