Chapter Ten

Jamie's eyes snapped open. At first he couldn't remember where he was. Then it all rushed back, sending a knot to the pit of his stomach. The crappy mattress beneath him was better than last night's rocky ground under the bridge, though not by much. The pillows, little more than thick cardboard, left his neck aching. He felt old and weary. Probably looked like crap too.

Rolling to his side, Jamie looked at the gap in the curtains on the window. It was still dark outside, and the face of the digital clock read three. Not bad, all things considered. He'd managed to snag a few hours sleep and still had enough time to shower before he was to meet Scott. He'd soon cross the border for safety in Canada, where there were plenty of places to hide in the north where they wouldn't come looking for him. Thanks to Dad and his insistence on summer days in the mountains, Jamie had no hesitation about spending some quality time there now.

He got up from the bed, stretched his arms above his head and tried to smooth out the kinks. The face that looked back at him from the mirror was almost unrecognizable. His skin was always pale; it went along with the red hair both he and Paul inherited from their Scottish ancestors. Tonight, or rather this morning, he was well beyond pale. There didn't seem to be a drop of blood in his complexion, and he wondered if this was how dead people looked. The thought sent a chill up his back as though his thoughts were somehow indicative of things to come.

Despite the fact he'd gotten himself into the mother of all bad situations, it didn't mean he was ready to die even though he already missed Kendall. He'd see her again one day—he hoped. God would forgive him, wouldn't he?

He turned away from the mirror. On the scratched and dented table that served as a desk were several pieces of stationery, the edges curled, and a pen that no longer had a cap. Anxious as he was to get on the road, he sat down at the desk and picked up the pen. He glanced over at the mirror, staring for a long minute at his deathly complexion. His green eyes were huge and ringed with dark circles. His face reminded him of the bad vampire makeup he'd sported at a long ago Halloween party. Wasn't his best look back then, made him look like shit now. Hopefully it wouldn't draw unnecessary attention from the border patrol. He'd have to come up with a plausible story like a bad case of the flu.

He ran a hand through his hair and stared at the blank paper. Paul always pissed him off with his good looks, natural athletic abilities, and success. Jamie never intended to be a screw-up. He'd dreamed of just the opposite; he wanted to be everything Paul had been. Jamie had really wanted his brother to be proud of him.

His earliest memories centered around an ice rink, skates, and the idea that one day he'd would be in the NHL. Dreams aside, all he could remember hearing were comments like "too bad he's not more like his brother" or "he'll never be the player Paul is." By the time Jamie was ten, he'd abandoned his dreams and stopped trying. He'd learned early he could never live up to his big brother, so why even make the effort?

Don't even get him started on love. Who even bothered to look at Jamie when Paul was around? Jamie was good-looking, but just wasn't Paul. And the worst part—Paul never seemed to care. He'd been oblivious to all the attention while Jamie had been defeated. Paul didn't work for a date in his entire life while Jamie was forced to fight for every scrap of attention he got. His only real success, the only time he dared to be himself, was with Kendall. Poor, dead Kendall. He was a loser all over again.

Tapping the pen against the paper, He thought about what he wanted to write. As angry as he was with Paul, Jamie worried about the what-ifs. He was confident once he was across the border, he'd find safety in the anonymity afforded by the Northwest Territories. What worried him was the possibility something would go wrong because honestly, more often than not it did for him. Paul could take care of himself. Jamie worried more about the folks. Mom and Dad had stood by him time and time again, when they should've walked away. Anybody else would have dropped him, just like Paul did. Not their parents, who'd been there again and again and again. Jamie owed them everything and if something did go wrong, he'd need to make amends. Only one way to do that.

He leaned his head down and began to write. An hour later, he stopped by the front desk and asked the clerk to mail the letter. It wasn't much, but it was the best he could do under the circumstances. Rolling the very heavy motorcycle tire, Jamie walked the half mile from the motel to the egg company where he found Scott busy loading his trailer for the early morning run north.

His arms screamed with pain by the time he hefted the wheel and tire to the trailer. He rubbed them as he sat in the tractor and listened to the rumble of the Freightliner's engine. Soon, he'd be on the powerful motorcycle headed for safety.

* * * *

Louie woke up alone and wondered first, how long she'd been asleep, and second, how long she'd been alone. Even on the hard ground, the cold night air all around, she'd drifted off into a warm and comforting sleep. She hadn't meant to. After all, they were here to work even if making love on the forest floor made it look otherwise. She didn't have to delve deep to figure out why she drifted off. For the first time in many long years, she'd been relaxed and comfortable. It wasn't that she'd been a nun forever, but she'd be the first to admit it had been a long dry spell.

After the shooting, she'd more or less folded into herself and her focus had been one hundred percent on finding the person responsible for her brother's condition. There'd been little time left over for personal affairs and she hadn't cared all that much. The few relationships she'd been in were over quickly and with little emotion involved. Paul was different. Something about him was different and she was afraid to delve too deeply into why.

Her hastily discarded clothes were now folded and within easy reach. Beside her clothes were handcuffs, her holster, and her gun. She lifted her head and saw him leaning against a tree, a dark shadow in the muddy light of early morning. As she dressed she watched him, his back straight, his head never moving as if something of grave importance unfolded in front of him.

What was he thinking? Was it regret? Or was it something more along the lines of what she felt … confusion? She didn't just jump in bed with men and she didn't roll around on a forest floor buck naked for God and everyone to see. Except she had and without so much as a minute's hesitation. All the stars had aligned in that moment and lovemaking was as right as anything had ever been. Even now she should feel ashamed of herself for being not only unprofessional, but downright indecent. Except that she didn't. It was true that all it would have taken was one passerby glancing over to see a naked butt and they'd have been busted.

Actually, that thought made her smile. Chris always told her she was a little too serious and that life had to be challenged, had to be pushed to really enjoy it. That was the philosophy that had taken him to the Army Rangers and then on to DEA. She'd been the careful one, the detail person who stayed within the bounds, who always colored within the lines.

At least until she met Paul McDonald. Now she had a bit of an idea what Chris tried to tell her. She felt wicked and alive, and not in the least bit ashamed of herself. The last couple of days her life had been filled with twists and turns she could never have imagined. Some of it was good, like making love to Paul, and some of it not so good, like the bullet killing Kendall Stewart.

For now, Louie would let things be. She'd been trying for years to make life conform to her way and that hadn't worked out so well. Just for one day, she was going to let things roll. She'd let go and let life take control.

Dressed and with her jacket slipped back on, Louie shivered, the dampness of the early morning seeping through her despite her clothing. "Hey," she said as she touched Paul's shoulder.

He didn't turn his head. "Look," he began, his tone very serious.

She stopped him before he could say anything further. "If you say you're sorry I swear to God I'll shoot you, McDonald."

His shoulders began to shake as laughter burst forth, a startling sound in the quiet brush. He turned to look at her, his eyes full of joy. "You're something else, Russell."

"I know you mean that in the best possible way."

"Absolutely."

"Have you slept at all?"

He sobered and shook his head. "It wasn't that our little tryst didn't calm me down a whole bunch, it's just I'm both furious and worried about Jamie. It's sad that with a beautiful, naked woman next to me all I could think about was Jamie."

"Aha, and here I thought you couldn't stand your brother."

He ran both hands through his hair that curled even more as the damp air worked its way in. "Yeah, I thought so too. I guess when it comes down to it, I'm furious with him because I care. I mean I'm so pissed off I could kill him, but at the same time I want to protect him. Jamie's gotten himself into more trouble than even I believed possible, and I'm scared he's gone too far this time. I don't know if anyone can help him."

She put an arm around his waist and pressed her cheek to his arm. "It'll be okay. We'll grab him when he comes for the bike and have him back in custody before lunch. He'll be safer behind bars than anywhere else."

He put his arm around her shoulders and pulled her close. She loved how warm his body was and how a slight scent of cologne still clung to him. "I hope so," he said. "I really hope so."

She heard the note of question in his voice and honestly couldn't blame him. Even her statement was more reassurance than fact. James McDonald was into something very dangerous and he was in deep. She'd been around crime all of her adult life and knew what dangerous looked like. Putting him in jail was somewhat protective so she wasn't lying to Paul. It wasn't, however, foolproof and James might find himself in trouble inside the bars as well as outside. There were no guarantees. Some powerful people had a very long reach.

The sun was beginning to peep over the mountains and she was glad. The sooner they got their quarry and were back in the nice warm car, the better. She was ready for the hunt to be over even if she wasn't quite ready to let go of the hunter. She hugged him even tighter and waited for the sound of approaching traffic.

She didn't have to wait long. Ten minutes passed, and they heard the rumble of a big truck. Soon a semi bearing the logo of a Spokane egg company on the trailer pulled to the side of the road behind the leaning Fat Boy.

The passenger's side door opened and Louie caught a glimpse of red hair as someone jumped down and slammed the door shut.

"Thanks, Scott." The voice carried in the still morning air.

Paul's body tensed, and Louie's arm dropped away. Without conscious thought, her hand strayed to her back, her fingers closing around the handcuffs on her belt right next to her gun.

The driver also jumped out and both men went to the back of the truck. The driver swung the big door open and James appeared a moment later with the motorcycle wheel. The driver locked the trailer up again and climbed inside once more. The truck pulled away and James McDonald began to roll the tire to the motorcycle.

Paul started to walk out of the brush and toward the highway, his back straight and his green eyes focused on his younger brother. He seemed to have forgotten Louie was with him. She hurried to keep up with his long and determined strides. The gentle lover from hours earlier was nowhere to be seen in the somber man in front of her.

"Jamie." Paul's voice carried over the air with a timbre of authority that only one accustomed to being in command could carry off. The air seemed to crackle with electricity.

James stopped rolling the new tire. His head snapped up. The motorcycle wheel and tire he'd been rolling tipped over on its side. He took several steps back as if he was thinking about bolting.

"Paul?" Shock was clear in his voice.

Louie hurried to catch up with Paul. Man, could he move fast when he wanted. No wonder he was such a terror on the ice. If he could walk this fast, what could he do on skates? Her leg muscles burned with the effort of keeping pace.

They were almost to James when a loud, unmistakable sound shattered the morning quiet. Paul stopped.

"What…" Louie gasped as her right hand dug into her jacket to grab the gun at her waist. The sound came again and again. One, two, three.

His momentary paralysis gone, Paul took off at a run, screaming a single word. "No!"

Louie's head whipped to the right, the direction the shots had come from. She dropped to a shooter's stance and scanned right to left, left to right. Nothing, not a flash, not even a rustle. Nothing. The cop in her wanted to run in the direction of the shots, to give chase. The woman in her wanted to turn and rush to Paul's side. The woman won. She abandoned the visual search and rushed to Paul, on the far side of the road next to the motorcycle.

Paul knelt, cradling his dying brother in his arms. A red stain was growing larger and larger in the middle of Jamie's chest. His face was gray.

She'd seen that color on a man's face more than once.