Heal your wounds, Dear Girl,
so your daughter
isn’t born
with the same ones.
She does not report her rape
because neither did her mother or grandmother;
in fact, they did not call it rape
they called it sex
and sometimes love.
She does not report her rape
because she has never been taught
that her body has value
and her voice has worth.
She drinks to soothe the pain
that lived in her mother’s heart.
As much as we might hope,
we are not so different from our mothers.
Her pain
is my pain,
and my pain
is my daughter’s.
To break the chain of trauma
heals a constellation of wounds.
They do not speak about the tragedies that have come and gone from their four walls.
As if silence is more palatable
then the words that need to be spit.
In silence, there is trauma,
legacy passed down from seed to embryo to the first beat of a heart.
To break the chain of anger
you need not bear it
on the back
your mother built for you.
She tears down others
because, since birth,
she was taught
to tear down herself.
To get through it,
you must go through it,
and yes
it will hurt,
but you—
you will survive.
Split open your wounds for me,
I know how to heal them.
One silky word spills from my lips,
I know how to heal them.
I have healed my own.
I have cut them open
just to know they were real.
And I have sewn them up
just to know I could.
If you feel consumed by your trauma,
seek healing.
For I once believed
I could never let go
of my demons,
and now I live with them,
trailing behind,
visiting them when I want
but only when I want.
How do you bear
what you cannot bear
so beautifully
it makes it look easy?
At my most broken,
I saw beauty
in just one thing:
looking at the pieces of myself
scattered and shattered,
I wanted to be put back together.
Dear Boy,
when you touch her, remember your power
to love or to break.
When you touch her, remember you may watch porn, but you are not in it.
When you touch her, remember her body was born from a mother like yours.
Dear Boy,
your hands leave imprints,
visible or not.
Remember your power to love or to break.
We all have a shadow side,
I just never knew
his was so dark.
I am still guilty of fighting my body
to fit a standard of beauty
that is attainable only with
surgery and starvation,
and yet
it’s a battle
I can’t seem to stop fighting.
Cruelty comes from our very own wounds.
You might believe the words you speak are weak,
but the echoes of words
can start revolutions.
Use your words to mend—
you and you alone
hold all of that power.
Growing up,
the world taught me
that vulnerability should be a secret.
I grew up believing
that the hero of a story
never showed signs of weakness.
I disguised my demons
so there was no sign of struggle.
My vulnerability is not my weakness;
it is my superpower.
I wear it like a cape
and watch mouths gape
at the sight of
a warrior
wearing wounds like crown jewels.
My vulnerability
is more powerful
than wielding a sword
or a shield.
No one teaches us that
resilience rises like a wildfire
from pain.
The battles you fight do not take away
from who you are.
Dare to teach the world
that weakness doesn’t exist.
Weakness
is just a seed
that no one sees
sprouting into genius.
Own your story
like you wrote it
by yourself.
You are the hero.
The hero is imperfect.
Wear those wounds like crown jewels.
You are leading a deeper life now;
it’s not one that you’ve chosen
but it’s deeper.