DIVORCE DREAM

MARK HALLIDAY

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The marriage was in a last hour of honeycombed decay,

you could tell by the moaning sound of trolleys

and the way memories had gone scaley-thin, one puff of wind

would blow marriage fragments all over the city;

I climbed the dark stairs and sprawled on the sofa,

my wife was extremely not home. The clock was loud

and busy and imperturbable in such dry air.

A phone call to my father seemed a good idea;

seemed necessary; it was the only idea.

I looked around for the phone. Things were different—

because of our being so wrong Annie and I let small things

go awry: the tail of a dead mouse stuck out

from behind a dresser and squirrels played polo

inside the walls so the house trembled

and my stomach too trembled like a dog in its sleep

and our black phone was gone. Then our landlords walked in,

our fat Irish landlords except now they were our tenants

and their children were Chinese and they all spoke

cheerfully about packages of dried noodles and puttered away

in a cloud of happy family. I should call my father—

room to room I walked behind a ribbon of shadow

emitted from a song called “I Don’t Wanna Fade Away”…

All the lightbulbs were fading; on the carpet

were plops of Thanksgiving gravy; nothing mattered

compared to what mattered. Annie knew this.

Finally in her room I found the phone but it was not black

it was yellow, and it was so complicated, you had to plug it in

three different ways and wind it up and little crucial

knobs and hooks and rings kept falling loose in my hand.