THE SPORTING LIFE

BOB HICOK

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He and his wife have split.

As an atom does when violently asked, when struck by a hammer

of some kind.

Release of energy sounds so polite, a bird of lightning

shown an open cage, a hurricane

issued a passport.

An hurricane, yes.

There are standards, I see that.

An hurricane in the shape of my friend is nine-ironing beer bottles

off the roof of his apartment.

That’s what he said he was going to do, his chin a smaller roof,

me on the opposite side of his car, eyes closed,

listening to his moon-dust voice,

voice of being two hundred and fifty thousand miles away.

Twenty years since someone told me, mine are not the toes for her,

not the bad breath of her dreams.

As if a saw—band or circular, your hardware, your choice—

cut through my shins and again just above the knees, a section

removed, one critical to standing, one certain to be noticed

in an inventory.

I’ve learned this much: empathy is shit.

Not to bother telling him, I’ve been there, as if being told to go away

is a place, magazines on cheap tables, mug shots of open sores

on the walls, a plant flowering eye teeth in the corner,

a window overlooking a trade school for maggots.

I get to kiss my wife any time her lips aren’t in another state,

they’ve been in Washington, Michigan, New York, her lips

would like to visit all fifty states by the time it’s over,

visit Greece, birth place of western lips, visit Paris,

City of Lips.

I could feel the wind before he left, knew his arms and legs, his hair,

were spinning around a center where nothing is felt, dead place

where the only sound is the word hello ripped on the head of a nail

poised above a knee cap, there’s a child, you see, sound of daddy

on the telephone, the coffin click of goodbye.

We’re poorly designed.

Too porous, too prone to flesh, we should be, not the wire

but what thrives in the wire, just hum, flow, all together

in a soup of plasma, fuck the differentiated self, the cliché

of identity, here’s to vanishing, to forgiving a man

shouting four before a rain shower of brown glass.

It could be, was you, is me, we all go boom, just wait, so what

exactly.

Which leaves only his swing to discuss, choice of clubs, those silly shoes

golfers wear, the ones with spikes in the bottom, like they’re at war

with grass.