THE MONARCHS: 20

ALISON HAWTHORNE DEMING

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I remember a line from some classic

movie—that nature gives us loneliness

so we’ll find each other. Coming out

of bad love—a man with a bag of tricks

and evasions that he flaunted from the start

and couldn’t stop, even when he wanted to,

which I believe he genuinely did want

to do, though some emotional template

stopped him—I know there’s no more room in me

for that kind of hurt. The moral sense,

I told a friend after the relationship was over,

is like the back or the knee, a rough draft,

long way to go before it works as well

as the tongue, the cock, or the stomach.

My good friend listened, while we drove

the old La Honda Road, keying wildflowers

in his field guide, then stopping on the coast

to savor oysters at Duarte’s, then check out

tidepools, brack and lunge of wave slosh,

where a single anemone, like a feathery uterus,

waved its lacy gullet in the tidal breeze.

Only one, I thought, how strange, until

together we found the others, dozens

stranded above the tide, their bodies

closed like fists, camouflaged to match

the rocks on which they’d grown.