LOOKING DOWN THE BARREL

TOM DVORSKE

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It’s 5 a.m. and this candle is burned down

to a nub like my drug-limp penis.

A car narrates the intersection.

Stop lights blink, de-programmed

for another hour at least. It’s cold

though my open window admits no

wind, only raucous bird songs that

hemorrhage in my eyes.

I’m practicing to forget, so when

I’ve forgotten it will surely never return.

This requires discipline, active

reenactment of what must be forgotten

so that forgetting affirms the absence

of purpose, ritual.

I’m constructing a culture.

The will to exclude is the first rule.

The second: to exclude.

The third: worse. And

the fourth: extreme prejudice.

One must be tolerant of these ideas

to affect larger issues.

There is no other way;

the object of exclusion does not matter.

Go ahead. Pick anything.