“Sit up,” Mrs. Wickware instructed Molly again, “and spread your butter more gently.”
Their new governess was a middle-aged beauty with blond hair, pale green eyes, and a single piece of jewelry: a white-gold ring in memory of her husband. The siblings were eating breakfast at the long mahogany table in the sky-blue dining room. Molly and Mrs. Wickware sat at either end, and Nicholas sat in the middle, on the side near the windows. A band of morning sun cut the tabletop in two.
Molly was ravenously hungry. Mrs. Wickware fed them far less than they were accustomed to eating, and most of their meals included foods that spoiled Molly’s appetite. This morning it was tea and toast, a boiled egg, and a kipper. The kipper was beautifully prepared but Molly loathed the taste of fish: an aversion Mrs. Wickware considered both unnatural and curable.
This morning the governess spoke to Nicholas at length about his health.
“I wonder that your father failed to recognize the problem,” Mrs. Wickware said. “Excessive hours in the library, a musty room without windows, lacking sun and open air, have been the cause of your infirmities, rather than relief from their effects. The remedy is exercise. Exercise and work.”
Nicholas sipped his tea with an unsteady hand, looking grayer and weaker than the time, seven years ago, when he had nearly died of an undiagnosed ailment of the blood. In the weeks since Mrs. Wickware’s arrival, he had endured a daily regimen of work and strenuous movement that Molly believed was threatening to kill him. He dusted, swept, hauled firewood, boiled linen, emptied chamberpots, and mucked the horses’ stalls, beginning at sunrise and finishing at dusk, his only rest coming at meals and thirty minutes of reading before he slept. It was enough to grind a healthy man down, but Nicholas had struggled through—gasping, coughing, often collapsing—not only without complaint but with the zeal of a happy convert. Still, the strain had left him wan.
“If you cannot sit up straight, you will stand,” Mrs. Wickware said to Molly.
The governess motioned to her manservant, Jeremy, a swarthy clod whose jaw accounted for nearly half of his enormous, square head. He seemed perpetually uneasy in a fine set of clothes and frequently adjusted his collar and his cuffs. Jeremy rarely spoke, appeared to think even less, and was content to stand aside and wait for clear instructions.
He grabbed Molly’s chair and tipped her off the seat before returning to his place several steps behind her. Nicholas focused on Mrs. Wickware throughout, having pondered and agreed with her assessment of his health. Molly stood and cracked her egg on the corner of the table. She meant to eat it whole—how she loved a boiled egg!—but Mrs. Wickware laid her silverware down and stared at the broken shell that Molly had strewn around her setting.
“Delicate foods for delicate manners,” the governess said. Her skin looked as lovely as the egg in Molly’s hand, and at the subtlest smile on her dainty pink lips, Jeremy took the egg away before it could be eaten. “Nicholas may have it,” Mrs. Wickware said. “Molly may have Nicholas’s kipper.”
“I already have a bloody kipper!” Molly said, close to tears.
Her objection was ignored as if she hadn’t really spoken. Jeremy delivered her egg to Nicholas, who accepted it with a nod, and then he took the second kipper from Nicholas’s plate and placed it next to Molly’s. He licked his fingers clean and waited for further instruction.
“Eat,” Mrs. Wickware said.
“No,” Molly answered.
“If you refuse to eat them now, you will see them again at midday. You will have nothing but kippers until you have learned to accept what you are given.”
So it went with all of Mrs. Wickware’s punishments—repetition, multiplication, more and more of the same. Molly longed to sit in her chair and finish her toast and tea.
“I’d rather starve,” she said.
“They say a starving man will eat his own boot before he dies,” Mrs. Wickware replied. “You will surely eat fish before the day is done.”
Molly tossed her kipper to the middle of the table, but before she could throw the second, Jeremy caught her arms and pinned her wrists behind her back. His grip was so strong she couldn’t free herself or turn. Nevertheless she tried, flinging her hair about and stomping.
“Enough,” Mrs. Wickware said to Jeremy, who gave himself an extra few seconds to comply.
Molly rubbed her wrists and backed away from the table.
“In my busy years as governess,” Mrs. Wickware said, “I have come to know a great many young women and men. Your strengths are not unique. Neither are your failings. You no doubt think yourself extraordinary, for it is a trait that young people share: the conviction that their youth is startling and new. But I cannot be surprised, Molly. I have seen it all before, and I intend to lead you firmly to predictable maturity.”
Molly looked to Nicholas and watched him finish his egg. Instead of acknowledging the argument, he said to Mrs. Wickware, “May I please be excused? I need to tidy my room before dusting the frames in the garret.”
“The frames in the gilt room. There aren’t any portraits in the garret,” Mrs. Wickware corrected, disappointed he would make such a ludicrous mistake.
“Yes,” Nicholas said, bowing his head and smiling at his foolishness. “I’m sorry, yes. The gilt room.”
Mrs. Wickware excused him. He folded his napkin next to his plate, straightened his chair, and left the dining room.
Molly watched him go, picturing the garret.
* * *
Molly sat alone in her room, where she was supposed to be writing copies of the household schedules and rules. She had been told to copy them once on the first day of Wickware’s reign, and the number had doubled with each refusal—two, four, eight, sixteen, and now the ridiculous thirty-two, which may as well have been thirty-two hundred as far as Molly was concerned. The sole reason she remained in the room was that to be caught elsewhere in the house would lead to Jeremy hauling her back, locking her in, and staying at her side the rest of the afternoon. So she sat at the window overlooking the street, jealous of the midday action there below: gentlemen in hats, ladies riding carriages, children unfettered in the late summer air.
Then she spotted Mrs. Wickware and Nicholas leaving the house to purchase leeches at the market. They would be gone for more than an hour, and as her hunger had grown unbearable, she decided to risk escape and crept downstairs, moving furtively and listening for Jeremy’s plodding footfalls.
She entered the kitchen with its cool stone floor. Vegetables and herbs were strewn across the tables, cheese and feathered foul dangled from the rafters, and a glorious wholesome stew burbled in a cauldron. Two fresh pies—crushberry and apple—puffed aroma from the knife-slit X’s in their crusts.
“You mustn’t be here!” said the kitchen maid, Emmy, a girl of Molly’s age who happened to be the cook’s own daughter. The two of them looked at Molly with startled expressions and identical snub noses, the younger holding a broom, the elder with a cleaver.
“We have instructions,” said the cook, “not to slip you any food.”
“I’m given kippers,” Molly said. “You know I hate kippers.”
“And who do you think prepares ’em?” asked the cook, looking wry. “I use the very best butter I can find to make ’em flavorful, and all of it to waste, all of it returned.”
She resumed cutting mutton to avoid Molly’s face, sorry that she couldn’t cook the siblings what they wanted.
“Mrs. Wickware told us you was copying the rules,” Emmy said.
“Which we’re waiting for to read,” the cook snapped, redder than the mutton she was carving on the block. “Though we know the rules already and we don’t intend to flout ’em.”
“What if Jeremy finds you here?” Emmy asked, sweeping a circle at her feet and listening, like her mother and Molly, for heavy-footed steps.
“We’ll be sacked, same as Stevens,” said the cook, cutting both Molly and the mutton simultaneously.
A week earlier, Molly had visited the stables without Mrs. Wickware’s permission. Stevens, the kindly coachman who had driven Frances to her new home, threatened Jeremy with a riding crop when he dragged Molly away. Jeremy reported the incident to Mrs. Wickware, and Stevens was immediately fired after six years of unimpeachable service. It had been the first of very few rebellions, since Mrs. Wickware’s severity—combined with the scarcity of alternative employment in Umber’s strained economy—had shaken the servants even more than Frances’s dismissal.
“Are we to spend the next year as pitiful as dogs?” Molly asked, stomping forward.
Emmy backed away, trembly as her broom.
“Dogs have homes,” the cook replied with bloody hands. “Those that don’t starve in gutters. You must be more—”
“Like Nicholas, I know.” Molly picked a napkin off a table and said, “Just a quarter loaf of bread.”
“A quarter will be missed.”
“The heel,” Molly said. “I’ll hide it in the napkin.”
The cook chopped a bone and put down the cleaver, wiping her hands across her apron and turning her back to the room. She pulled Emmy close and showed her where to sweep. Once the pair had averted their eyes, she said, “I meant to throw it out or crumble it into the stew, and you had best scurry off before the lot of us is caught.”
Molly laid the napkin down and covered it with her hands.
“I’m sorry to have worried you,” she said. “Thank you for the very best butter on the kippers.”
“Which is wasted if the kippers aren’t eaten!” yelled the cook, turning to find that Molly was already gone, the heel of bread remained, and the crushberry pie was missing from the table.
Molly carried her prize halfway up the stairs and froze before the landing. Jeremy was coming just above her to the left. Before he turned the corner, she slid down the railing with a flowery poof of skirts. The quick descent and the sumptuous aroma of the pie made her dizzy and she almost dropped the dish, but she escaped through the parlor and reached the stairs on the opposite side of the house.
There was Newton, the liveried footman, trimming lamps and pleased to see her. He snipped a wick and said, “Nicholas desired you to know that he and Mrs. Wickware will return at three in the morning. I suggested that he may have meant three this afternoon, but he was most adamant, repeating it distinctly. Perhaps it was confusion from his terrible exhaustion.”
“I’m sure you’re right,” Molly said, hearing footsteps behind her. “If Jeremy inquires where I am, please inform him I have hastened to my room after a necessary trip to fetch more ink.”
“I will indeed,” Newton said, widening his nostrils to appreciate the pie.
He stepped aside to let her pass and trimmed another wick.
Molly reached the upstairs hall just as the parlor door banged open, and the last thing she heard before she padded away, silent in her stockings, was the placid voice of Newton saying, “Yes, Mr. Jeremy. She has hastened to her room…”
* * *
Molly behaved during dinner, neither arguing nor slouching, and ate two whole kippers of the three that she was served. After days of sour looks and worsening petulance, her placidity seemed all the more angelic, like the hush when a newborn finally stops wailing. Molly sensed Jeremy’s animal frustration as he stood behind her chair, unable to manhandle her without Mrs. Wickware’s say-so, and Mrs. Wickware herself was nervously attentive, wondering why her troublesome charge was suddenly a model of decorum. It was as though a sparking fuse had fizzled at the bomb; the explosion didn’t come and yet the fear of it increased. Molly pleased and thank-you’d, curtsied and apologized, and the tension of her manners persisted after the meal to the weekly bloodletting.
The leeches Mrs. Wickware had purchased with Nicholas’s help were six inches long, greenish-brown with a fine red stripe along their dorsals, and were kept in an earthenware jar. They had suckers fore and aft, one for leverage and the other, triple-jawed with a hundred minuscule teeth, to open a wound and feed. Mrs. Wickware believed them to remedy fatigue, aches, fever, infection, tired blood, melancholy, sanguinity, and countless other ailments, and so had ordered weekly bleedings for the entire household, including Jeremy and herself.
Nicholas’s health called for three weekly bleedings.
The first and only time Molly had been bled, she’d fought until Jeremy had tied her arms to the chair. He had used the wrong knots, however, and Molly had shaken free so dramatically that most of the leeches had flown from her arms and landed, with viscous plops, along the edges of the room.
Tonight, Mrs. Wickware again brought the leeches into Molly’s bedroom, where she placed the jar on a nightstand and set aside the lid. Jeremy had been practicing knots all week and stood behind a chair in the center of the rug. He had a length of dirty rope and looked eager to employ it, but Molly took a seat and rolled up her sleeves unbidden. The room seemed to shrink with all of them together. Mrs. Wickware plunged her hand into the jar; leeches could be heard writhing at her fingers.
She turned and asked Molly, “Will you need to be restrained again?”
“No, ma’am,” Molly said, turning up her forearms to better show the veins. Her sweat thickened when the first slippery leech was brought toward her. It was hungry and had already drawn blood from Mrs. Wickware’s wrist, but Molly stared at it directly and refused to flinch away.
“Do you hope to be exempted on the grounds of good behavior? This is not the proper attitude,” Mrs. Wickware said. “Leeching, though unpleasant, should not be viewed as punishment, you see, but as a beneficial practice we must all of us accept.”
“I understand,” Molly said. “I think it’s humbug and hideous like everything you do. But I will patiently submit because I know I cannot win.”
Mrs. Wickware flushed and looked at her triumphantly, her countenance enlivened, her rigidity dissolving. “I am satisfied to hear it. We learn by rote and force what later we believe through wisdom and experience. You cannot see the benefit but bow to my authority. I ask for nothing else. You needn’t love me to obey me.”
Jeremy loomed close, twisting on his rope. Molly balled her fists and didn’t shrink away as Mrs. Wickware attached the first leech below her elbow. There was a momentary sting. She waited and it passed. “Leech saliva dulls the pain,” Nicholas had told them over dinner, “allowing them to feed undetected on their hosts.”
Undetected, Molly thought, if she were swimming in a pond—not sitting in a chair and witnessing the meal.
And yet she sat and let it happen, even when Jeremy leaned down to watch the leeches suck, and Molly imagined they were each a little Wickware at dinner, comfortable and swelling up full enough to pop.
* * *
Molly lay in bed, waiting for the Elmcross Church bells to toll three o’clock. She worried she had missed it, having heard the bells at two so very long ago—what if she had dozed and missed the long-awaited cue?
Her bed had been moved to the room immediately adjacent to Mrs. Wickware’s chamber, the better to ensure that she behaved after dark. On most nights, Jeremy forced her to the room and locked her inside. If Molly thumped or shouted, trying to disrupt Mrs. Wickware’s sleep, Jeremy would lock himself in Molly’s room and watch her sleeping from a chair all night long.
Tonight, however, Molly had climbed into her bed without being asked. Her door was locked as always but Jeremy had departed, and thanks to Molly’s docility in the latter half of the day, Mrs. Wickware’s suspicions fell away and soon her purring snores could be heard in the neighboring room. Molly passed the hours reading, and when Elmcross Church finally tolled three, she blew her candle out, crept to the third-story window in her shift, and quietly opened the sash.
A thick warm fog had drifted over Umber from the sea, and all she could discern, thirty feet below, were the wrought-iron spikes of the fence surrounding the house. The rest of the street was pillowy mist, seeming substantial enough to catch her if she fell. She stepped out onto the narrow ledge and closed the sash behind her, fearing a draft under the door would rouse Mrs. Wickware. The only light came from the moon, which was gauzy in the fog and illuminated the haze rather than anything within it.
She had climbed throughout her life and had rarely fallen, thanks to her natural balance and an absolute, delusional belief in her abilities. The day in the library when Nicholas cracked his tooth had been the closest she had ever come to serious harm, but now, creeping farther and farther away from the safety of her window, she thought of the iron spikes and lost her purchase on the wall. She flailed her arm in circles, grabbed the corner of a shutter, and pivoted on her toes until her body swung outward like a door upon a hinge.
Her shift flapped. Her hair swung darkly in her eyes. A second later, she was back against the wall, clinging tight, panting against the shutter wood and doubting her resolve. Then a long knotted rope tumbled to her side, dangling from a window of the garret overhead, where Nicholas, invisible, was waiting in the shadows.
She safely reached the rope, and then she climbed and shut her eyes, still reeling from her slip, and didn’t look again until her hands were on the sill. Nicholas pulled her in; his feeble grip was actually more a hindrance than a help. She clambered into the garret and sighed against the wall. The effort had exhausted her, but her weariness was nothing compared to that of Nicholas, who sat on the floor and shivered in the damp night air. When she hugged him, he was cold and smelled of chemicals and sickness. He had long been known to dose himself in secret when he needed. Yet his eyes were ghostly bright, reflecting the moon but seeming to glow much stronger from an indwelling light.
He opened a basket at his side and handed her a fat buttered roll, a small flask of wine, and a cold piece of mutton he had somehow procured without detection. Molly kissed his cheek and fell immediately to eating, greasing her lips and buttering her fingers.
“How were your leeches?” Nicholas asked, pleased to see her eat.
“I don’t know how you bear it three times a week.”
“I remember they are creatures feeding to survive. I cannot loathe a leech for following its nature.”
Molly held his wrist, examining the veins, and said with a mouthful of roll, “I’m astonished you have any more blood left to suck.”
Once her eyes adjusted to the dimness of the garret, she saw its cobwebbed corners and unadorned walls, along with a rocking chair, covered by a sheet, that Mrs. Wickware had stored after rearranging the house. It had been Frances’s chair in her bedroom, a room now occupied by Jeremy, whose burliness and weight had called for stouter furniture.
“Has she written?” Molly asked.
“Possibly,” Nicholas said. “The mail is taken to Mrs. Wickware directly from the door. I have hit upon a way to send letters out. Receiving them, however—”
“Have you told her how we’re treated?”
“The news would make her suffer. I have told her we are well and miss her every hour.”
Molly flumped backward onto her heels, sitting apart from Nicholas and lowering her head. The roll that she’d been chewing turned doughy in her mouth.
“She’d be here if not for me. It’s all my fault! Frances, Mr. Stevens … Most of the servants try to avoid me. And you,” she said, looking up to glower. “I know you play a role when Mrs. Wickware is watching, but you play it so well it almost breaks my heart. Even here alone, I would swear that you were angry.”
“I am,” Nicholas said, speaking so calmly, and with so little movement, that it seemed as if the words had issued from his mind. “I am angry at Father and at my own futility. And yes, I am angry at you—irrationally so, I openly admit. You are no more to blame for acting as you did than the leeches are to blame for feeding on our arms. Mrs. Wickware herself is merely who she is. I admire her extremity.”
“Admire!” Molly yelled, standing up and stomping around the garret. “She has all of us in misery and buckled to her will!”
“She does it perfectly,” he said. “Do you not find it wondrous that in so little time, she has screwed down the house tighter than our father? The servants are rewarded for exemplary performance. They are handsomely rewarded for informing on each other. Have you heard about Emmy?” Nicholas asked. “This very afternoon, she informed against her mother for giving you the pie.”
“I stole it!” Molly said, spinning around to face him.
“But the pie was hers to guard. The woman’s own child turned her in within the hour and received half a crown.”
“It’s horrible.”
“It’s masterful. With nothing but her will and a well-trained brute, Mrs. Wickware has silenced all dissent and shaped the home as she desires. You and I could do the same, instead of suffering and quailing. I have learned a great deal that we will use to our advantage. Please come and sit before your pacing wakes Jeremy.”
Molly hesitated, furious but aware of just how noisy she had been. Her heart was like a cricket captured in a hand, frantic in the dark and struggling to spring. She tiptoed back and sat before Nicholas on the floor, feeling wretchedly alone and pushing the uneaten food out of sight. He held her hand, his touch so feathery she might not have noticed it but for the coldness of his fingers.
“We know her methods now,” he said. “We know the servants fear dismissal and crave reward, yet most of them are willing to support us in revolt. I have spoken to each of them—”
“What revolt?”
“More of the same,” Nicholas said. “A great deal more. Mrs. Wickware trusts me thanks to my dutiful compliance. I will carry on complying, as will all the servants.”
“What of me?” Molly asked.
“Be yourself, far more than you have been. You must laugh at every stricture and defy every rule. You must shoulder all the blame and suffer all the penalties. I need you to be strong, but you will not be alone.” He smiled and his chipped tooth glinted in the dark. Then his grip turned firm. “Many Mollys will assist you.”