climbing

a woman precedes me up the long rope,

her dangling braids the color of rain.

maybe i should have had braids.

maybe i should have kept the body i started,

slim and possible as a boy’s bone.

maybe i should have wanted less.

maybe i should have ignored the bowl in me

burning to be filled.

maybe i should have wanted less.

the woman passes the notch in the rope

marked Sixty.     i rise toward it, struggling,

hand over hungry hand.