No one was home at my house, so, after a quick snack of chocolate milk and SunChips, I headed across the street in search of Marik. Our project required a ten-minute presentation, which was the one component we had let slide.
I had never been inside the house of the elderly couple hosting Jinky and Marik. After the woman, Mrs. Cantwright, let me in, she cornered me in the foyer, asking about my mom and Stanley and describing her great joy in having “kids” in the neighborhood again.
“Is that why you take in exchange students?” I asked.
“Goodness, no, I didn’t even know such a thing was possible. Someone from the international agency called me late in the summer. Well, it seemed about time we had some young ones in the house again.”
I wondered at who or what was behind this arrangement. My head hurt with the exercise of it. Because random simply wasn’t.
A few minutes later and an inadvertent tap into her sadness that her grandchildren lived so far away, I was directed up the stairs to the second bedroom on the right. Family portraits lined both walls of the staircase, and I took note of a black-and-white photo of a crew-shorn Mr. Cantwright, a cat-eye-bespectacled Mrs. Cantwright, and a clutch of five toothy kids. So maybe a house would seem a little empty after a big brood like that.
At the top of the stairs I passed the first doorway, which was ajar and revealed Jinky sitting at a large oak desk. At the sound of my footsteps, she looked up and waved me in.
Scattered across the desktop was an array of antique-looking items: a small scale, a glass cork-stoppered bottle, a bundle of dried herbs, and a box containing even more instruments that looked like they came out of an old-fashioned drugstore.
“What’s all this?” I asked.
“Display items for Friday.”
I was still shocked that Jinky had managed to hijack their project. Nor did I rule out some kind of coercive charm or potion. I wasn’t even sure if Penny fully comprehended the metaphysical nature of their merchandise and services. She still described it as a kind of gift shop selling candles, jewelry, and aromatherapy products.
“They look old. Where did you get them?” I lifted the bottle. Whatever it had once contained was now a dark film at the bottom.
“From Mrs. Cantwright. When I described the idea of our shop to her, she said she had some apothecary items in her basement.” Jinky, I noticed, kept her thoughts to the point, much like her eyeliner. It was interesting, anyway, to catch that she thought I looked tired and pale and wondered if she shouldn’t reread my runes. I was grateful for the warning. Maybe this mind-reading thing would come in handy, after all.
Marik appeared at the open door. “Ah, I thought I heard Katla’s voice.”
“I was hoping to go over our presentation,” I said, setting the bottle down. “It’s worth twenty percent of our grade.”
Marik bit back a smile; he was obviously vindicated by my recent preoccupation with our project.
“Sure, let’s practice.” He stepped aside for me to lead the way out of the room.
I felt funny in Marik’s room and made a point of leaving the door wide open. Whereas Jinky’s scattered belongings — her leather coat and boots, a basket of makeup, and her surprisingly numerous photos — lent personality to the space, Marik’s room was bare bone-colored walls and military clean. Even the bed looked hard and sharp. I sat in a straight-backed chair while Marik sat on the edge of the tightly tucked mattress.
I had typed up a script but found on our three run-throughs that Marik had a tendency to ad-lib, playing the charm card with the audience, even when the crowd was imaginary. At the end of the last of these shows, he grabbed his side.
“Is it getting worse?” I asked.
He nodded yes.
“Is that a bad sign?”
His affirmation was, again, a bob of the head.
“Can you think of nothing that would help? Some kind of medicine or therapy that would exist on both Midgard and Vatnheim?” I thought of the herbs and instruments at Jinky’s disposal.
“Medicine cannot make me human. Not in the important ways, anyway,” he said, wincing with the effort of it. “I’m quite resigned to my lot. I only hope that yours and Leira’s are different.”
His lot? It sounded so fatalistic. All at once, what Hulda had told me about fate and karma came to mind. She had claimed them similar except that karma was “our will as we swim in the river of our past and present.” She’d gone on to clarify that “we cannot change the course of the river, but the strokes of our swim influence our destination.”
“Maybe we have more influence in our destiny than we give ourselves credit for,” I said.
“Were it only true.” He nodded with pouted lips. “I do not share your optimism, but I think it’s a lovely thing to behold.”
He gave me one of those molten looks, the kind that had Penny and the entire female population of Norse Falls High beset with a heaving bosom. Mine may not have had much in the volume department but it was billowing like a sail. I could feel the blush creeping up my chin and cheeks, and I ducked my head to keep my composure.
“Time to go,” I said, gathering up my index cards.
“So soon?”
“If I want to see Leira tonight, I have to get there before visiting hours are over.”
For the third time that day, as I had with Ms. Bryant and Ofelia, I left someone in my rearview with a hasty and awkward retreat as subtle as tire marks.
Mrs. Cantwright caught me with my hand on the door. “It was nice to meet you, dear,” she said. “And it’s lovely to see the house looking in the pink again.” She giggled as she said it, obviously enjoying her pun.
The way she said “pink” with affection made me think of a possible connection. “Did you by any chance know its former occupant?”
“Yes. She was already an old woman when we first moved in, but so kindly and helpful.”
“Helpful?”
“Well, you know, she had a way with people.” Ms. Cantwright brought her hand to her cheek. “She was well known for her green thumb and her healing touch. My oldest, Ruth, had the worst asthma as a child. I don’t know what we would have done without her help.”
The collection of items up in Jinky’s room suddenly made more sense. “Were those her things that Jinky’s using for her project?”
“Yes, as a matter of fact, they were. I was so surprised when she left them to me.”
“What exactly did she use them for?”
Lost in thought, she pinched her chin. “It was such a long time ago. I know she made a poultice of honey, ginger, onion, and mustard oil. Caraway seeds, apple seeds, and turmeric were ground and mixed with lemon and hot water and taken as a drink. Well, there were any number of remedies for any number of ailments.”
“It’s nice of you to lend them to Jinky.”
“I enjoy seeing them in the hands of someone who values them and takes an interest in their original purpose. She puts up a tough front, but deep down she has a natural empathy for others. She’d make a good nurse.”
Personally I couldn’t imagine Jinky in one of those cotton smocks or white-soled shoes, but it was fun to picture it.
Later that night, watching Leira’s tiny chest labor up and down, but finally of her own accord, I was struck by the vagaries of life. She could be taken from us at any time; Marik claimed a prophecy foretold as much. Afi, too, was vulnerable. The “break” with Jack already felt like a death to me. It was torture knowing that I had hurt him. Too painful, in fact, to dwell on. And I felt low imagining Marik’s demise. His exuberance and excitement at every little thing gave him a childlike quality. It seemed so unfair that it would be cut short. On the other hand, as a mercreature, he’d already had a long life, but one that was soulless. Did it count? Did it compare? Was it anything close to a fair trade-off?
With every puff of life Leira fought for, I, too, was filled with purpose. And in between, in the valleys where her ribs collapsed and she had to begin again, I raged against the fear that had kept me from what had to be done.
“Honey, you look so tired,” my mom said, pulling me from the undertow of my thoughts. “Why don’t you go? Leira’s holding her own. I’m going to stay until she settles, but you look exhausted; you should head home.”
“I will,” I said, “in a minute.”
I watched my mom cooing and rubbing Leira’s twig-thin arm. Leira’s eyes followed my mom’s every movement and she visibly settled with every loving stroke. For my mom’s part, her words, both spoken and unspoken, were encouragement. I felt the power of her positive energy and sensed that meditative support — faith, hope, and the like — had far more benefit than was given credit. Soon, the familiar lullaby filled the room. I sat for a moment in the bedside chair, allowing myself to drift along with the cadence of the sound. At the last course, I snapped to. “That the swan’s snowy span is but a wish away. May this comfort you as you wake to this day full of love, full of hope, full of glory.” The swan, of course! With that, another piece of my plan clicked into place.
“Good night, Mom. Good night, Leira.” I blew them both a kiss from the doorway. My mom, her tender focus still on Leira, waved distractedly.
At home, and in the privacy of my room, I paced the length of the space, sequencing all that I knew.
Brigid couldn’t break through, not alone, anyway.
I’d vowed to renege on Safira, but, without a disruption to the essentials of the agreement, the pact held.
Marik, whose animus was one of those essentials, had offered to help me.
Furthermore, to survive here, Marik needed a soul. I delivered souls.
Birta — not knowing I could hear her — had mentioned an “autonomous bestowment.” Somewhere, somehow, the process had been achieved without Stork council approval.
If Marik got his soul, this would alter one of the essentials. If, by doing so and in going full-on renegade, I were temporarily suspended, this would also be a sabotage of the spell. There was Jaelle, too. Why not help her out in the process?
The plan wasn’t without its flaws. Leira’s compromised lungs and long-term prognosis were a concern. But I was making progress.
I face-planted onto my bed. My great master plan had more variables than a calculus textbook. It was all too much. I didn’t change into PJs, brush my teeth, or even turn out my light. I simply allowed the tug of sleep and my abilities to take over.