I found it in the woods, moss-mottled,
hung at the jaws by a filament
of leathery flesh. We have painted it
with Chlorox, bleached it
in that chemical sun, boiled loose
the last tatters of tissue,
and made of it an heirloom,
a trophy, a thing that lasts, death’s
little emissary to an eight-year-old boy.
What should it mean to us now
in its moon-white vigil on the desk?
Light from the hallway makes it loom
puffball brilliant, and I look.
For no good reason but longing
I am here in your room,
straightening the covers, moving a toy,
and lightly stroking your head,
those actions I have learned to live by.
If we relish the artifacts of death,
it’s for a sign that life goes on
without us. On the mountains snows
we’ve seen the hare’s limited hieroglyphics,
his signature again and again
we we’ve skied. And surely
he has paused at our long tracks there,
huddled still as moonlight, and tested
for our scents long vanished in that air.
We live and die in what we have left.
For all the moon glow of that bone
no bigger than your fist, there is more
light in the way I touch you
when you’re sleeping: the little electric sparks
your woolen blankets make together,
the shape of your head clear
to my hand in the half-light,
and this page, white as my bones, and alive.