I was young and leaned
against the gray boards, almost sleeping.
Newly weaned from the drill and splash,
the chamber-pot’s porcelain contingency,
I knew just enough of darkness
and nightsounds, the musky aroma
of the outhouse, to doze there,
my nightdress gathered round me like a flourish.
When the owl lit, I knew it was God.
My first look from the door’s
slim crack was proof: white
and blazing with moonlight, it lifted outward and made
in two great and silent wingflaps
the chicken house, dark and unclucking
across the yard. The black eyes rolled over
the lawn like searchlights.
Again and again it flew across
the still world, silent as a star.
Until once, as it left its perch above me,
it tilted and came instantly down
on my yearling gray cat. Just a flash
of talon, a gnarled leg of amber,
and both were gone, the winging silent as ever
across hayfields, the pulse of wings
a silver trail into trees. I ran inside
and shivered in my bed until daylight. Since
that day, I have wondered
how I came to be there, sleepy
and desperate in the stillness. The cat
likewise, yawning in its moonlight
meander after rodents and moths.
And the bird, the snowy owl,
winging effortless as breath.
Little girls rose then, and padded
out blinking, scratching, unafraid. And cats
have always been the denizens of farmscapes.
It is a world removed now
from my daughters, who still wander from their rooms,
sleepy and tidal, indoors, wakened by the moon.
I lie in my bed and listen, remembering.
Then I sleep, the dream taking me
away on great white wingbeats,
regular as moonrise, nightly as letting go.