She had brought home just a single white wing was all,
only that one through all the hellish August weeks
the fat man’s chickens kept disappearing into,
and that one wing I buried myself in the manure pile
behind the barn, so that by the time he finally arrived,
Fat Man oozing from his high-backed truck
like a gristly hock onto the hot black skillet of the county road,
mostly all I felt was the least yawny pang of nerves.
I sat with my dog by the front porch.
‘Thatcher bitchboy?’ he asked,
and I allowed as how she was.
‘Daddyhome?’ he croaked,
and soon we all were there,
Daddy and me, that good bitch hound of mine sleeping
in a mottle of the day’s last sun and shade, and the fat man
brandishing his blurred implicational snapshots.
There rose then a cloud of Daddy’s might-could-bees
and a cloud also of Fat Man showly-izzes,
the sudden stormification of
which could have been why the sky itself
came on so holy and dark just then, a dreadnought cloak
I hoped the Goddumb damn dog would run off under,
but it was only when the light from Momma’s
lamp in the living room window showed them there,
that it ended, and the fat man tied a rope
to the collar that convicted her,
and she licked his blunt and bulbous fingers with love
and servility (‘tastez lack chickin doe-nit daug,’ he chortled to the dirt).
Good cur hound, your eyes on me leaving were a blue
I believed the starved-blood likes of God’s own ledger,
all the betrayals in all the lands of earth and more
recorded therein, a blue like the lost unredeemable sky
I would myself be forever falling into,
some heaven of hellfires and ice
I have since that mouthhot night learned to breathe in
as though it were the exhalations of the finest funereal orchids,
an air I believed would teach me at last
how to pray, and most certainly
God help me
what for.